taymathers♥

I had unprotected sex Sunday night (early hours of Monday morning around 4/5am) and took my pill at 11am. I then ending up throwing up at around 9/10 pm that same day and I'm now worrying if there's a risk of pregnancy?

would that make me really sick?

about 2 units of vodka, not sure how much wine yet

what could i add to make it taste better?

here's the deal.. a few months back i did the worse thing i have ever done, my boyfriends best friend kissed me and for a few minutes, i kissed him back. it was so stupid; i got emotionally involved - i have depression and so did he and so i felt understood and completely took my boyfriend who treated me amazingly for granted. now, at the time my boyfriend 'forgave' me, but even at the time i knew that it would blow up later because there's no way i would be able to forgive him just like that..

other things built up. i had a few cigarettes, i self harmed, drank a little bit too much at parties, all things that i generally said before i wouldn't do any more.

2 days ago this all blew up and he said he couldn't do it anymore - the cheating got to him finally. but he still loves me. and i still love him. he said that maybe after exams (which finish at the end of june), he would get back with me.

now, there is a girl that is throwing herself onto him. we've talked about it, and he said that if he was to get with her, it would be purely physical - and i think that given what i've done it's only fair enough if he wants to kiss her or whatever. plus, exams are going to be really busy so i know he won't go out much and get oppurtunities to see her. plus, she's known for being a bit of a sl*t.

i'm just wondering.. do you think that this could work? i know he loves me so much, but is 3 months too much?

don't tell me it was stupid trust me i am well aware...

i drank about 2/3 of a bottle of red wine (about 14%, 10.5 units in the bottle overall i think)

and without thinking, took 4 ibuprofen,,

after i had done it i immediately realised what i had done and tried to make myself throw up but couldn't, i drank salt water to try and induce it as a last resort but still couldn't...

i went to sleep and have woken up with a tummy ache... kind of like the pain when you tear a muscle after exercising.. and feel nauseous..

i'm worried, and i can't go see a doctor because i'm essentially trapped in my house (on the top of a hill) due to snow....

“if you love two people at the same time, choose the second. Because if you really loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second.”

true or not?

ok i'll try to make this as simple as i can..

- my bestfriends boyfriend (and also my boyfriends best friend.. its complicated) had been talking to me really inappropriately for a few weeks, and on friday i met up with him and we went to town and ended up kissing, which he initiated.

- i felt terrible so i went and saw my boyfriend and told him the next day, and for some reason he was fine with me which.. i didn't understand, i wanted him to be mad at me because i feel like i deserve him to be angry at me because i did kiss him back a bit...

- this guy has now said to me that he's liked me for months, despite him going out with my best friend and him being my boyfriends best friend... he wont stop messaging me and calling me beautiful and everything..

i feel bad enough with what happened on friday.. my best friend is very depressive and has suicidal tendencies and i really fear telling her would push her over the edge.. her boyfriend (the guy) is going to break up with her because they've been having a very unhealthy relationship due to them both being very depressive and... i just.. i feel so confused and upset and low.. some advice would help.. i know ive brought some of this upon myself and if i could go back i would but.. yeah

to put this briefly...

he's her first boyfriend. don't get me wrong, he's my friend too i've heard both sides of the story..

- they've been together for about 9 months, had sex, both 15, and this relationship just seems so destructive.

- my friend has depression and jealousy issues. it's ridiculous, she won't let him do anything or talk to anyone and no matter what he does, she always finds fault and is just constantly upset because of him. she wont accept his compliments, or him telling her he loves her, and brings everyone around her down - including me and i'm her best friend - because she will just launch into depressive mode and refuse to accept help. i'm not being a b*tch here, we've all tried to help her so much, i've stayed up so many nights all night talking to her and trying to make her see sense but nothing gets through and it's just like she's self destructing. this relationship is NOT good for her.

- he on the other hand, flirts with numerous other girls including me who is going out with his bestfriend, and claims to be 'bi' and wants to experiment with other guys and it makes my friend feel unloved. he is very inappropriate in how he speaks to girls, and he ignores her for long periods of time and i just don't know why this relationship is still continuing.

i've left out a lot but this is just the bare, bare outline of it all... advice please?

sexually.. (everything but sex)....like, we're never home alone, one of our parents are always there and we have done stuff before (3rd) with his parents downstairs but i just felt so guilty that i don't want to do it again plus i don't want to be walked in on...i don't know what to do because obviously i want to do stuff with my boyfriend but there's nowhere that we really can! or do you think it's okay to do stuff with parents in the house?!

I'm 15..my boyfriend is also 15 and we've been going out for nearly 5 months and we've always had a pretty serious relationship...

His parents, yeah. They always let me go round, let him come out, etc etc.

My dad.. I don't live with him. He'll give me lifts to go see my boyfriend but I don't want to push it and have my boyfriend to my dads when I AM at my dads because the time I have with him is limited.

My mum... She lets me go see him, sure, but it takes a hell of a lot of persuasion to make her drive me there. He lives about 20 mins away and there aren't any trains, bus' etc for me to get there (I would go that way if I could)... She refuses to let him come to our house. Refuses. We're not having sex and she knows it (very awkward conversation) and she just doesn't seem to take us seriously and she will not budge her opinion. I'm with her 90% of the time custody wise and its so hard because she will rarely drive me there and she won't let him come round.. I just don't know what I should do :( I've TRIED talking to her :(

i've been with my boyfriend for 5 months and hes tried fingering me lots of times but it really really hurts! now i'm terrified to have sex (i'm a virgin) because of the pain and i just don't know what i can do to make it feel better? he doesn't go too fast or anything it's just when he goes deeper it hurts so so so bad

also he's only doing like one finger, two at most, makes me terrified for sex cause if he can't even get a finger properly up there without pain/.....:(

i've been with my boyfriend for 5 months and hes tried fingering me lots of times but it really really hurts! now i'm terrified to have sex (i'm a virgin) because of the pain and i just don't know what i can do to make it feel better? he doesn't go too fast or anything it's just when he goes deeper it hurts so so so bad

one slice of marmite on toast for breakfast

fruit for lunch

milkshake

water

one slice of marmite on toast for snack

two for dinner

- wholemeal wrap

- a little grated cheese

- oregano

- some smooth salsa sauce

all heated up in the oven, is having about 2 or 3 of them a day bad?

i'm around 9, 9 1/2 stone, don't drink that often but have drunk before but it was usually spirits so obviously had a larger effect; will only be having say, 4 WKD's or some kind of similar alcopop, and anything from 1-10 beers (fosters), how many would it take?

for my 15th birthday...about 20 guys/girls...alcopops (no spirits)...just a party at my house...boys sleep downstairs girls sleeping upstairs?

how can i convince my mum?

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i have them but i never know what to wear with them and i really want to wear them tomorrow! i was thinking with ugg boats but i have no idea what kind of top/jumper/jacket...it's raining here a lot at the moment...ideas???

for quite a long time...each time was like 4 hours...that's mainly the past week though..

i'm meeting this guy today and i'm SO nervous...will it be awkward do you think? there will be a group of people though

Basically I'm being 'set up' with my best friends boyfriends best friends aha. We've been texting and skyping for like, a week now and we have so much in common its freaky...BUT I'm scared that when I meet him (it will initially be in a group) that my nerves will take over or we won't hit it off IRL or something. Its on saturday...helppppppp haha:)

Basically I started talking to this guy online who's friends with a lot of my friends and best friends with my bestfriends boyfriend but I've never met him before...he wants to meet on saturday, and we both have 'feelings' for each other but I'm sooo nervous that it won't work out when we meet and arghhh advice?

Going to try and be brief but ill probably end up leaving out stuff so sorry:(

Alright, basically four years ago I was really really close with this guy for about two years, then it starting changing as teenager years hit and we grew apart...

This year we started talking again (well, beginning of this school year) but not as much as we did only like 'hey how are you' at school and it developed and for a while I thought he liked me until he started blanking me..I was so confused.

Then like a few weeks back he started messaging me a lot on facebook...asking for advice about this other girl. He asked her out and got rejected. But I'm still so confused because I could see I was getting attached (like 2 weeks ago) so I tried to distance myself and I removed him on facebook, unfollowed him on twitter etc etc but then he called me about 10 times, sent 5 texts and messaged me in all forms possible asking what happened, I told him I felt like he was using me and he promised to stop and to try and talk to me more in real life.

Well, he didn't. He just looks at me across the room. Then when I get home he messages me non stop and I'm just a massive ball of confusion.

I don't know whether to try and block him out of my life because I can feel myself getting too attached, or if I should keep talking to him and see if anything happens..

I'm sorry if it doesn't make a lot of sense, I don't really understand it myself :s

Thank you x x