gemma

We met on tumblr then spoke on kick then text and called for like a good month and we spoke a goooood amount then we slightly drifted

I deleted tumblr and his number and kik but I added him on snapchat I just didn't want to waste time talking to someone and developing feeling if we're so far away.

So we have started talking again and I found his tumblr and the other day we were talking about our sexuality and I said I've been confused and kissed girls but I know I'm straight.he said he's never been confused and is straight I of course didn't expect he wasn't or anything at all. He never asked for nudes and stuff like that he was respectable he did flirt hit wasn't like sexual said he likes me in that way. So earlier I signed on kik for the first time in ages and it was a picture of him and his friend and his name then he asked if I had feelings I replied but he hasn't opened it and he doesn't know what I said cause it is snapchat. So I went back on kik and it was forever bye that a picture of a dark room with a shadow. So I was on his tumblr likes and he has been liking cross dressers in "sexy" clothing but also pictures of actual girls then he doesn't telly like pictures of guys apart from this certain footballer he likes his pictures and then cross dressers..

Like on snapchat he adds stuff to hIs story like of his friends and out at night clubs and all that but I think there's something he ain't telling me what do yous think?

I am completely confused!

Okay I'm trying to figure this out. How does my forehead look bigger than other times

I thought maybe as I got older it got bigger but

The first picture my head Is massive the one next to it is full of wrinkles but it doesn't look big at all but they were a day apart this was back in 2011

Then the one I'm lying down and the mirror pic it doesn't look that big which were just this week

Then I thought it maybe it was my hair depending if I had it up or not but the second last 2 my hair is down and it is massive

Also why do I look like a completely different person in the mirror pic to the one beside it ? Do I look like 2 different people?

What the heck is going on? I know it's not all in my head cause EVERYONE comments on my head I'm so self concious it is unbelievable I just need to know what's going on and what I'm doing wrong

I want it to be as small as the second picture or something

I might get surgery you can get that I think but if it looks small occasionally I don't know because I'd feel so guilty because I'd feel like I'm lying

Don't says bangs or a fringe because NO!

There is soo much stuff in my head that I can't think about how to sort things out I feel like it's 10x worse in my head than it actually is

I am obsessed with my looks, I'm not good enough and know no one will ever accept me or wanna be with me ever.

I feel like my friend makes everything be a competition and looks down on me constantly and when we got really close she knocked all my confidence down completely and I am literally so miserable I never have been so insecure in my life which lead me to being obsessed with my looks and constant putting myself down for the past 3 years and also makes me feel like my stories are so **** so I tell her nothing and complains I tell her nothing

When I tell my dad things he doesn't say much back it is like I irritate him with my problems and he doesn't want me to be there. If he is not moaning about a slightest mess I leave such as leaving my book in the kitchen he is half time alcoholic and binge drinks for about a week this happens very often. Different woman. My mums dead she was an alcoholic and drug addict (my dad doesn't take any drugs they were apart when she started taking)

My brother is heading on the same track as her as he drinks and takes coke and I don't know what else and threatened to kill me and got forgived like 5 minutes later by my dad and all his friends were down stairs and didn't give a ****. Also has a kid on the way

Failed school I'll be lucky if I get to stay on.

Got to lose a lot of weight

Secret sis

There is soo much stuff in my head that I can't think about how to sort things out I feel like it's 10x worse in my head than it actually is

I am obsessed with my looks, I'm not good enough and know no one will ever accept me or wanna be with me ever.

I feel like my friend makes everything be a competition and looks down on me constantly and when we got really close she knocked all my confidence down completely and I am literally so miserable I never have been so insecure in my life which lead me to being obsessed with my looks and constant putting myself down for the past 3 years and also makes me feel like my stories are so **** so I tell her nothing and complains I tell her nothing

When I tell my dad things he doesn't say much back it is like I irritate him with my problems and he doesn't want me to be there. If he is not moaning about a slightest mess I leave such as leaving my book in the kitchen he is half time alcoholic and binge drinks for about a week this happens very often. Different woman. My mums dead she was an alcoholic and drug addict (my dad doesn't take any drugs they were apart when she started taking)

My brother is heading on the same track as her as he drinks and takes coke and I don't know what else and threatened to kill me and got forgived like 5 minutes later by my dad and all his friends were down stairs and didn't give a ****. Also has a kid on the way

Failed school I'll be lucky if I get to stay on.

Got to lose a lot of weight

Secret sis

We met on tumblr and spoke for like 2 weeks straight and we were going through our exams and stuff and we got on soo well we started texting and spoke like 2 weeks straight then think we spoke to much we ran out of things to say

We were just saying the same things and it was dead bland and just not the same and we had each other on snapchat and I just thought I don't want to waste my time on things and if I have him on there I'll just be reminded of him so I did I deleted him then I noticed he added me back but said absolutely nothing it then got me thinking of him again so pathetic me sent one making it look like it wasn't for him and can't remember if I sent one saying sorry but he hasn't replied

Why did he add me back but not speaking to me ??