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I moved to va 4 yrs ago frm indiana looking to chng my life style and grow as a woman. My dad was here also and i wanted to introduce myself as a woman and let him meet his grandson. Now i was pregnant whn i arrived lost the baby, my dad tried killing me, move into my own apt got scammed bc i was gonna buy a house ended up homeless slept in my car thn a shelter. Thn i finally moved into an apt now thru all of this i hv a great job at a bnk. Mean while i meet some 1 get pregnant, he was physically abusive during tht time, my lites and water been cut off several times my chck is bein garnished. Im drained and tired of struggle but im tryin to hold on to my faith and believe God want leave me and tht my sun will shine but..... im to the point now i wanna give up. But im tired.... please help What should i do?

i am 37 weeks pregnant and i feel so bad because im aware of the feeling that i have had during my pregnancy. my child's father was so abusive mentally physically and verbally. i feel as though i have been crapped on during this whole pregnancy. we aren't together!!! but the feeling that im having is that i feel i want love my unborn child as much as i should or may show favorites between my first son and this baby i dont want to do that i dont want to feel like this!!! i understand that the baby is still part of me but right now its so hard to see that, maybe if i smell or touch or just see my baby i want feel this way. a mother should not feel like this but i cant help it! is this normal to feel this way considering the situation or what can i do? some one please help!!!!

im pregnant and over due and wanting to induce labor i've tried castor oil and nothing worked. so i go to and herbalist for some natural ways to induce and he gave me black cohosh and penny royal. now from what i understand penny royal is for abortions and i don't want that. what was given is not the oil but a powder version of penny royal. are there any insights on this combination, if taken together is it safe safe for inducing labor? i do not want to harm my baby what so ever!!!!!!

when i was younger i really did not care about credit nor the home i was staying in. now i'm grown and more responsible with an excellent job trying to take care of my son, rebuild my credit and rental history. just recently i was evicted which caught me off guard i did not think they would have evicted me. i paid the rent, it was just late. it just so happened i had more bills than money. i really need advise on what to do to start over.i know that i can not avoid looking irresponsible and unstable,but i'm really trying. please help me!!!!!!

I have moved in with my father so that i could get my life together and finish going to school.I am 23yrs old and already have a 6yr old. I've only stayed with him for about a month and with in this month i have miscarriaged, had surgery, and gotten into it with his girlfriend. So at this moment i'm so confused, he doesn't want me to leave but I want to leave and stay.we were trying to heal old wounds, we haven't been around each other in about 15 yrs, so i know things are going to be a little different. i felt that i needed my dad at this period in my life. But i don't want to continue gettin into it with his girlfriend, feeling that there has to be competition or my father feeling i messed his relationship up. She is 34 with no job and drinks from sun up to sun down, and my dad is 50 and in the army.There is no peace and unity in this house. I'm so scared that i'm going to make the wrong decision. please some one help me. this is so much to mentally and emotionally to handle.

i already have one child and raising him all by myself. his father is married with another child i do not have a boy friend or any help other than my mom i feel that i can't do this by myself especially with two kids, there is no father for the second. a situation happened that was not voluntary but i'm going to carry full term but give the baby up for adoption. please help i need answers.

my stomach is flat but the extra skin from having a baby is there how do i get my tummy back

i love to read zane books if any one knows if she's coming out with a new book or books please let me know thanks :-)

i've been dating this guy for about 2months he is really cool to hang out with and the sex is is the bomb but my thing is i really want to open up and be really kinky with him because i've been holding a lot in for a while but i'm nervous how can i release and let go