Brokelle

We only spent a day together ..we had been together before and I left him...I was so young..only about 16 and I had drug issues/cutting bulimia etc..and then I saw him last year..I got better for a while but relapsed with the bulimia and cutting ..an I was so happy...but I couldn't be with him because my partner said that they would kill themselves if I left them and threatened me so I left him again and he won't talk to me..he never calls or anything and I'm going mad. I feel so depressed. I've even set my pride on fire and humiliated myself and chased after this person..I feel guilty and ashamed and gross.

I was holding a lot of people's hands...the one that stood out most, was some guy I knew who thinks I hate him, he was being playful and we were giving eachother handguns and holding hands the longest and his hand was very warm...and he thought we were getting somewhere so I started holding my friends hands And girls hands to make him think I didn't want him and he kept trying to hold my hand with his warmth. What does it mean?? I'm really creeped out. I'm a lesbian too

..and then I dreamt that I could fly but there was a storm that was throwing me in every opposite direction then where I intended to go.

I was holding a lot of people's hands...the one that stood out most, was some guy I knew who thinks I hate him, he was being playful and we were giving eachother handguns and holding hands the longest and his hand was very warm...and he thought we were getting somewhere so I started holding my friends hands Nd girls hands to make him think I didn't want him and he kept trying to holdy hand with his warmness. What does it mean?? I'm really creeped out. I'm a lesbian too

I keep having dreams about tornadoes..I had a dream that I kept trying to break up with the person I'm with but they kept following and I kept pushing them away and the clouds started forming a tornadoe, and I contacted someone and I told them to come save me from the tornado an earthquake and I was scared ..the person told me they would come save me and they were on their way..this person never came...and the sky got sunny ...and I texted them saying it's okay the tornado is gone , and they said they were still coming anyway...what does this mean?i keep having dreams about tornadoes

I'm an x drug addicted bulimic anorexic relapsing cutting low life...like everything is wrong with me...no one talks to me..I have no friends...I find my self dreadfully lonely and it's sad to say that I'm so desperate for even an ounce of attention. :/ I'm not that ugly I guess but idont know what to do?

I keep having dreams about tornadoes..I had a dream that I kept trying to break up with the person I'm with but they kept following and I kept pushing them away and the clouds started forming a tornadoe, and I contacted someone and I told them to come save me from the tornado an earthquake and I was scared ..the person told me they would come save me and they were on their way..this person never came...and the sky got sunny ...and I texted them saying it's okay the tornado is gone , and they said they were still coming anyway...what does this mean?i keep having dreams about tornadoes

Well I've been very alone for a long time now...the only people who are interested in me, go through a friend and ask them to talk to me for them...not nice:/ and when someone does show interest in me, they're usually super cocky douche bags..I don't know...what's wrong with me? Or is it just the Internet generation that makes it impossible for someone to come up to me and be nice?

He never answers my texts. He use to kind of love me I suppose:/ but I really messed things up with him. The first time I broke up with him, I totally ignored him and told him to fck off and to get out of my life..because I left him for someone that I fell in love with. He kept contacting me and i kept being cold .We met up a few years later. He insisted that I be his girlfriend. I said yes..some days later I left him..I regretted it and tried to get a hold of him but he just ignores me. He doesn't talk to me at all..it's been some months now. I feel very guilty and I feel like I'm trying to make up for this. I always feel guilty. I left him because I didn't think I was good for him, the second time. I'm unstable and throw tantrums every now and then and I have a gross eating disorder and I like to harm myself. He seemed so well off and I didn't want to bring him down with my problems. But I'm also very selfish...and then after I decided I wanted him, regardless if I dragged him down. And I just feel so guilty.

I'm 17 ..18 next month..my mom wouldn't let me work because we receive welfare and if I did work, they would cut us off.since I'm 18 next month, I'm going to he cut off anyway. I've been lookin for work but I have not had any luck. We are so poor that we literally share one lamp in the household. We live in an apartment so thank God , most of the utilities are covered. Today we couldn't even find a quarter to refil a jug of water. I feel so bad.its been this way since 2010when my mother decided to do drugs cheat on my father and abandon us...when she came back everything went downhill. I don't know how to pick this family up..I do pray to God and he does help me but what am I doing wrong?

I had a dream I was in the bathtub and chucky came in and he took his clothes off and he pulled out his large penis and he started having sex with me. And then he started sucking on my nipples and he was trying to make me give him head and I was throwing up all over myself and I kept begging him to stop and he kept having sex with me and I begged him to kill me instead but he wouldn't.

You know when they check your pressure they put that pump on your arm and ask you to remove your sweater. I have a bunch of cuts what do i do????:o

Thank you so much.(:

What is it? Okay, maybe I don't look " gay enough" or something.-___- but I don't think I have to look a certain way to love women. Ugh I don't want to make this into a rant, however, it really annoys me. I'm feminine. I've been told I'm blah blah pretty but I never get girls./: in high school, yes , but only because everyone knew I wasn't straight...but random girls wouldn't know that. Noooo! I don't want to join clubs or go on dating sites. That's so degrading. Plus...I'm a bit of a romantic at times pshhhh. And what kind of cute story is "I met my girlfriend online" ..not so appealing .perhaps I just expect too much./: oh geez.what do I do? I'm 18 now. I really miss having a girlfriend. I miss that warm fuzzy feeling and going places with someone. I'm so alone. And I'm not afraid to say, I'm a bit codependent.nothing wrong with needing someone. (:

What is it? Okay, maybe I don't look " gay enough" or something.-___- but I don't think I have to look a certain way to love women. Ugh I don't want to make this into a rant, however, it really annoys me. I'm feminine. I've been told I'm blah blah pretty but I never get girls./: in high school, yes , but only because everyone knew I wasn't straight...but random girls wouldn't know that. Noooo! I don't want to join clubs or go on dating sites. That's so degrading. Plus...I'm a bit of a romantic at times pshhhh. And what kind of cute story is "I met my girlfriend online" ..not so appealing .perhaps I just expect too much./: oh geez.what do I do? I'm 18 now. I really miss having a girlfriend.

Okay so I've had a crush on Tegan since I was in 7th grade:p. haha I'm just wondering. I heard she went out with a girl called Lindsay but I'm just wondering if either of them are single. Thank you(:

Everyone always leaves. My mother my family..everyone. I'm so alone and I just would love to have someone an I would give this person everything that's left of me to give . I'm a mess but I know if I had someone by my side I could get better.

I'm too afraid to even close my eyes in the shower. I hate being alone. I just hate it..I get sad and creeped out. I hate silence . It drives me insane..like I really get tense and scared. If I wake up in the middle of the night I get panicky . because I think that someone's going to kill me or something. I want to be held but I have no one except my cat..I'm in a relationship but I feel alone..like the love just isn't sufficient. I don't want to take medicine. I'm a back and forth bulimic anorexic. I'm an ex drug addict and I feel like I'm losing mental stability. I'll feel so confident for about a month and I'll want to be bad but then I start feeling guilty and depressed and I don't want to do anything. I cut myself very often. I'm going to be 18 VERY soon and all my habbits from 13 are still following me. I don't know what I have .my mom used drugs and left me all of my adolescence and I had to grow up alone. I feel too immature. What do I do?

I bleached my hair like 5 times toned it..prior to that ihad been bleaching it and the roots along the way and dying it red..my hair is totally damaged!!! Like rubbery and all but I coat it with heaps of argan oil while its wet to fake okay hair..please help me. What do I do?

I didn't get to expirience going out and having fun because money was always an issue my mom was on welfare and she was always spending the money on drugs and she left my sibling and I abandoned for days at a time while she was out with her boyfriend. I did I out but only because I hated home..I went out and did drugs and I developed anorexia and bulimia and cut myself everyday and I just want to know if I can get therapy or something because I'm so immature and I'm almost 18.im still living with these old habbits like I want compensation for the time I've lost and I act like I'm 14..I want to grow up.

My hair is silvery white. I just rebleached my roots..even after using toner shampoo...they are yellow! How can I get them white? How Long do I wait before rebleaching my roots?