Melika

I'm 15 years of age my names mel.

I've always hated my body and wanted to change, so I started restricting and over exercising but it didn't get out of control. I couldn't be bothered anymore and didn't give a crap about my body, in the mean time I've been purging mostly everything I eat. About a month ago I started looking a pro ana sites and I've realised how fat I am :( anyways I've started fasting heaps, for days on end then binging purging.

I've realised that I can't get my self to eat, it's so hard I physically and mentally cannot take the food to my mouth without having a mental breakdown.

I'm currently on my third day of fasting, feel really sick and light headed. I just wanted to ask if there is an alternative for my eating, I feel like if I have a nasogastric tube I would be okay with it Aslong as food isn't around me. I'm not underweight. I'm 163cm and 62kg hoping to get to 45kg.

I don't want to go down this path but this voice keeps telling me I'm to fat and deserve nothing.

I just can't get myself to eat and I don't want to ever eat! It's so hard :( please someone help me.

What can I do? How do I explain to my teacher I feel comfortable with about this ? I refuse any food they give me, I'm sorry agh :(

So I use to ride on and off from age 9 I'm now 15 back then I was 43-55 kg's I stopped last year because my riding school was closing down. I became I guess ' depressed' with school and everything and food became my best friend, I gained a lot of bloody weight not even realising it. I now 62-63 kg's I tried on my cream joddies and they were so tight :( I want to start riding again at an equestrian centre right next to my house but I'm so self conscious I think I'm so heavy that the horse will be struggling and hurting and it can't carry me, am I overweight ? D you think I should lose about 10 kg's before starting riding again? Please tell me if I'm being crazy thanks! x

Hey I'm using my friends yahoo so my names Emily.

I'm 15 years old, from a young age I've always been conscious about my body, I always weighed myself, all the god damn time.

I play soccer, this is my 10th year, all the girls have always been so much more skinnier than me, I use to cry at times. I'd ask my mum if I was fat but even though she said no I never believed it, oh I'm 166cm and 65 kilograms.

My cousin told me I had chubby legs and I should lose some weight which affected me heaps, I hate seeing my thunder thighs in the mirror! Anyways I tried doing stuff about it, clean eating working out heaps, but soon enough I didn't care and gave up!

But now I've started again and it's so different, my mind phrase is in a different world, I've stopppped eating, if I do it's like 30 calories that's it, maybe up to 100 calories, ill skip brekky, lunch, and dinner, then eat little things, I'm exercising so much, I ran down my street to the lights and back them got home and down TAPOUT XT For 1 hour then another workout, this has been going on for about 2 weeks now, I always tell myself don't eat, don't eat, your a fricken elephant. I hate my body I hate it, I use to self harm but I can't right now because its summer and it gets up to 45 degrees, and I just need to wear shirts, but when I do it's on my thighs, I'm 2 months clean now yay, I cut on my stomach wiring ' FAT' so it reminded me to not eat, and I also cut writing ' don't eat ' on my hand to remind me, Is this the start an eating disorder ? Please only answer if you know what your on about, oh I also tried purging but it just wouldn't come up and I don't want my teeth to die from acid, thankyou. EMILY

I'm moving to America for college next year, I'm just wondering will my visa debit card work in America ? Ill be in California. Will it work at the shops and stuff and taking money out ? Ill obviously go to bankwest and ask them , but wondering what use have to say,

My friend went to college and the bank gave her a card to use over there so will I need to go to the bank and order that card too or what? Ill go to the bank for this but just want early answers thanks :)

Hi, I'm 14 and my names mel :)

Anyways, I'm being admitted into hospital in 2 days for anorexia, ill be staying there for a good 3 months maybe less maybe more ill just see how things go I do have a few questions though.

1. Am I aloud to bring my own clothes and Pyjamas etc ? Like sport shorts singles baggy t shirts instead of there stupid hospital gowns which im not comfortable in...?

2. Am I aloud to bring in my own blankets and pillows ?

3. Am I aloud my phone to talk to friends etc?

4. Will I be able to see my family ? Can I bring like my debit card ? Or will that stuff be taken off me?

5. Hygiene wise, am I aloud a shaver to shave my legs, underarms or anything how will all this work?

6. When weighed everyday do we have to get undressed till were in nickers and a bra ? I don't feel comfortable at all doing this :(?

I'm really scared but I want to get better please good solid answers because I don't have much time left :( ANY INFORMATION YOU HAVE LIKE OWN EXPERIENCES ETC THANKYOU, I WILL GET BETTER! :) god bless x

Hi, I'm 14 and my names mel :)

Anyways, I'm being admitted into hospital in 2 days for anorexia, ill be staying there for a good 3 months maybe less maybe more ill just see how things go I do have a few questions though.

1. Am I aloud to bring my own clothes and Pyjamas etc ? Like sport shorts singles baggy t shirts instead of there stupid hospital gowns which im not comfortable in...?

2. Am I aloud to bring in my own blankets and pillows ?

3. Am I aloud my phone to talk to friends etc?

4. Will I be able to see my family ? Can I bring like my debit card ? Or will that stuff be taken off me?

5. Hygiene wise, am I aloud a shaver to shave my legs, underarms or anything how will all this work?

6. When weighed everyday do we have to get undressed till were in nickers and a bra ? I don't feel comfortable at all doing this :(?

I'm really scared but I want to get better please good solid answers because I don't have much time left :( ANY INFORMATION YOU HAVE LIKE OWN EXPERIENCES ETC THANKYOU, I WILL GET BETTER! :) god bless x

I support them, but whats your opinion on gays/lesbians? Pros cons ?

okay I'm 14 and play soccer and at soccer majority of the players are either bi or gay which I support, last year I thought I was bi but I got over it.

So this year in my soccer team a girl named mel which is my name plays with me, okay let me say there's a huge age difference she's 33 but looks 27 I'm not saying I want to go out with her I'm asking how I should seriously get over the fact that its killing me about how much I like her :(

She makes me so happy whenever I go to training I look forward to her arriving sometimes I go just for her haha awksss anyway since I'm the youngest in the team they joke pick on me and whenever she laughs at me it's so ahhagahahdkkdnfjfks I don't know but it's amazing oh by the way she's a police officer, how do I get over this it's stupid and crazy :( thanks guys no critical comments I just want to get over this and feel like I want her to just be a friend thanks x

I'm a girl 14 soccer player for 9 years but I'm a little over weight so I'm working out every night for 50 minutes using the program tapout xt, so intense :( anywayyyyyyyy, I do it when everyone's asleep, once I've finished my workout I have a shower and go to bed I have no trouble sleeping infact I fall asleep straight away well maybe 10 minutes, I've heard that its bad because it wrecks your sleeping pattern? well it hasn't affected mine but will it affect me health wise and lose weight wise lmao??! Cheers x

Heey, My names mel I'm 14 and having surgery Tommorow and freaking the hell out, I had surgery last year in January for a cyst in my fibula Bone it was a painful procedure and it took them a while to get me under gas and put me asleep because I was so scared baha, I'm having a cyst removed under my breasts not a big procedure like last year but still being put asleep, how can I calm myself and what should expect since I forgot everything from last year, thanks guys x

I'm 14 and me and my sisters relationship is amazing I love her and and so angry and sad she's leaving to Sydney for university there for 3 years I'm crying so much she's leaving TOMMOROW :'(

I can't live without her, she has been there for me through thick and thin who the hell will I have now I can't do this :( im crying so much!

I'm going to become so depressed again aghhhhhh! help :'(

How was your overdose experience?

What was it like?

Did you wake up in hospital?

Please tell me I'm really interested.

And no I'm not planning on overdosing, I just want to hear other people's experiences, what made you overdose and all of that thank you x

I lost my birth certificate the original one and now I can't get a bank card or anything I will need it for uni and all so is there a way of getting a new one ? I'm from perth wa :) cheers x

heey well first off my name is mel I'm 14 turning 15 in December of this year anyways let me just start because I need this off my chest..

I just don't seem interested in my family I have no feelings what so ever towards my dad, my family is loving we are wealthy and all and I do help out heaps I'm getting homeschooled this year to catch up with my work and getting bullied last year.

I hate it when my dad comes close to me I have this sound I make and it's sorta sounds like ' mmmmmggg' in a crumpy way and I tell him to get away last year I was wearing a white Tshirt and I didn't realise my bra was showing because It was see through.

While I was talking to him he wasn't looking at me he was looking at my breasts while he was talking this turned me off so much I was scared from him, he always stares at my bum and all my other siblings bums I always see it! I told my mum and she said stop being stupid your just paranoid, well I'm not because I can see it well and clear, I avoid him and push him away when he tries to kiss me on the cheeck I hate it I hate hugging him! Last year when ever I was in the car alone with him he would put his hand on this down stairs and pull it up right when I'm there I pretended I didn't realise or see anything this kept happening but he has stopped I hate it when he slaps my bum! I hate it OMG! I have no feelings towards him at alllllll! I hate to say that I don't love him I like him but he's my father he just came back from a 5 week holiday and I wish he never came back! I felt free and felt more comfortable when he wasn't around aghhh sometimes I wish he was dead I'm such an idiot :( I'm sorry man I'm sorry I don't have any feelings towards him why is this :( I wish I had a father who i could be comfortable with hug kiss play with like all my other friends dads :( he tells us everyday how much he loves us but I don't love him back :( it's hard.. Yahoo isn't letting me write anymore so good answers please x whats wrong with me :(

Heeey okay well my cat tiger is a girl she is 5 this year she is desexed well got her tubes tide last year after 6 litters yes 6, she is a very loving and sweet hearted cat, these past 2 weeks she has been aggressive towards my family I feed her and my other cat together and she tends to hit my other cat with her paw and hiss at her, she never does this ever, she's actually on my bed right now and I thought ill give her a nice scratch on the head because she loves it and she jumped at me and Strached my wrist is it just a cat thing? Please answer if you know what your on about haha thanks x

okay first of all I need a proper answer so do not answer if you don't know what your on about.

Hi I'm mel I'm 14 these past months I've been really attracted to girls.

I play soccer well this is my ninth year I play for a all women's team, I'm the youngest and it goes up to 41 year olds, there are 16 players on my team there age 21-35 anyways last year I thought I was bisexual because I'm always around girls and there lesbians well 3 of them are they have girlfriends and i respect that and support it and very happy for them, i really enjoy it and can see myself with a girl, I do extra goalie training and this one girl who has a girlfriend well she is so hot like she is so hot I'f I could i would date her! But the thing is I like boys to ? I'm so confused about this man :( and also I'm muslim but don't practice or anything I could never tell my parents they would kill me! Whenever I get close with a girl I start to feel uncomfortable and then say no I'm not bisexual but then when it's with someone else i love it I flirt with them and all, I'm still a Virgin and I am going to loose it after marriage, main thing is I'm confused and everything am I bisexual ? Also we versed a team today and the goalie was about my age and she was so cute I wanted to get her number it was like love at first sight I'm going crazy now because I want to find her and speak to her :( anyways haha this is getting long so help please! thank you

Okay so whenever I'm at my lesson with my horse misty she tries to buck me off what I mean is I haven't cantered in 2 years and I knew it was time to start learning again, I know how to canter like i canter perfectly fine when jumping but when going around the arena she does to the side and bucks, example; on Friday I wanted to canter so I started trotting and then get into a canter I got into a canter but it was very unbalanced and to fast it wasn't nice, my instructor said she will put me on the lunge and I got into a canter and misty went to the side and bucked two times !!!! How do I get into a nice slow canter not really fast and uncomfortable ?

Hey, we'll I'm 14 my names mel I've been riding for 3 years now I've always had a big obsession with horses this year I've been going hell serious and training hard because there's a show coming up, I get lessons every week on Fridays which today I had one I fell off after a set of jumps I was bucked off and landed on my back, I've always loved horses and everything but I feel like I'm losing interest ? My mum pays $60 a week I feel like the money is going to waist because I'm not enjoying it anymore I'm never excited for my lesson when I get there I'm so angry why has this happened to me? I hate falling off whenever I do it knocks my confidence down! I fell today so my confidence has been crushed should I quit ? Take a break ? I don't want my mum wasting her money I'm so frustrated, I was going to buy my own horse this year but I don't want one after 5 years of begging my parents :( help!

I have 2 sets of earrings they are REAL they are white round and small like the normal size, and I just have one without it being on anything it's just a ball it's real and it's pink! how much are these worth ? Don't tell me to go to a jewlerer or whatever I haven't got time, just give me the price you think! Thanks

this is for my homeschooling the tutor is making me answer these buy Tommorow I have asked questions previously but had no answers aha, question one is whats the easiest bone to break in your hand ? what's the easiest bone to break that will require surgery ? the wrest of the questions are to long so just leave it as it is thanks I need answers sooon because that's when my tutor is coming and she is mean -.-