James Freeman

Not sure if that's normal in a marriage or not, but its been happening in my marriage for 10+ years... Just seems like we're disconnected and only talk about superficial things.... Nothing that reaches my soul... I'm always frustrated by this. But is it because I'm needy? I don't know...

I'm always the one initiating intimatcy too... This whole marriage thing sucks.

Feel like my soul left my body a long time ago.

I'm 42 yrs old, I have a house, car, 2 kids, wife... However, no job.

I want to give it all up to live a life of solitude.

I don't feel like I'm helping anybody out, cause I'm always irritated and angry and I think everyone would be better off without me around. Seriously, I don't see the benefits of sticking around.

I don't have any meaningful conversations with anybody.

More dads are staying at home with their kids, while the other one works. So I vote to abolish Mothers day

Why do religious fanatics pray for Gods mercy, but show none to their fellow humans as they cloak themselves in their pious activities.

My guess is they do. My spouse(for now) is a nurse at your friendly local hospital. Her crazy hours had a hand in the deterioration of our marriage. But, I'm thinking there is a monetary savongs for them if they don't have to cover medical for the spouse.... makes for a good research project anyway.

Been married 16 yrs, 2 kids, oldest 16. It was stressful first 4 years becuz we were bth wrkng FT.

At 4 yr mark, all the sudden she says she wants to move back to her home state, cuz her parents were getting old... blah, blah, blah.

Mind you I was making good money and felt responsible taking care of the kids financially, I was on a good career path. I even won a free trip to Hawaii becuz of my performance at work.

I told her if being close to her family is important, I'll support that, she decided it was and left me with a house to sell. (She works in the medical field, so jobs are available to her with her experience).

I spent 3 months away & when I saw my kids after 3 months, I was shocked and saddened that they looked different and I missed 3 months of their lives and shocked that my spouses response to my return was unemotional...no connection... So now we're in a different State, I don't have a job and I felt stuck with someone who really didn't want me around.

I never made as much money or had the working environment I had back then, So ever since moving, I've had all the time I wanted with my kids, but never felt financially responsible like I used to.

Fast forward 12 years and here I am, no job, I've actually been unemployed now for 6 years and can't seem to understand what's going on... I gave up looking for a job, because once you send out 300 resumes and the only response you get is an automated email saying "It's been received" or "your qualifications don't match.."

Am I unemployed because of the economy ? or

Unemployed because I put others interests ahead of mine ?

Am I irritated all the time because the marriage is not giving me what I need? or

Am I just jaded in life ?

She won an award and a ceremony was held at her work, I was not invited. So the other day, I told her that the marriage seems to be working for her but not me...

How the hell did I get here in life? I desperately want to move forward, be responsible...

I tried many times to talk to her about "The Marriage", but everything is so topical... no depth in our conversations. She goes to work, comes home and watches TV until bedtime, she's never available mentally or emotionally to discuss things. When we actually talk about things, it's like about in the future when the kids are older and on their own... we'll have fun and settle down by a beach or something.

Should I just keep telling myself "There is a reason for everything" ... "That's just the way life is..."

What am I missing here?