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I've been very depressed lately..for a very long time actually just greater than usual. I have no one to talk to and feel very trapped and have felt trapped for over a decade. Without family and no friends and no means to seek professional help what am i suppose to do? I'm not saying i'm remote or completely isolated literally, but I have no friends or family and the people i am around are classmates from a local college...I am almost 30 and don't really think specifics apply. That is, I want help before it's too late but i have no one and nothing no friends or family and to talk to ppl on the internet...apathetic comes to mind in that regard..Maybe it's already too late...

intel i5 2500k

8gig ddr3 ram

nvidia 560ti 1 gig ddr5 vid ram

1080i res

with this awesomeness system i should have no problem running this game. The game runs really sweet but when i go from inside the building to outside i start getting like 1-5 fps for like 2-3 mins then it goes away...i'd really like to say, "oh it's just the game loading all the textures and stuff" the thing is it doesnt do it when i first start the game. If i'm outside and i start the game it is running fine. There is a bug that is causing this. Some sorta screw up with the game, not my computer. I've reinstalled drivers etc but this game still does that. I tried google and i can't find this specific problem which makes me think it is my rig. I can run skyrim with settings all maxed out and get like 30 fps and it is way more demanding so why would this game only give me 1-5 for those first few minutes coming from inside a building to outside.

You ever look outside and see one of something? One Earth, One Sun, One North Star, One Moon, One oxygen atom in a water molecule, One president of the united states, pirate with one leg and he has one eye with one parrot. My point is, there's a lot of ones out there...although this list is short it could be endless. I'm a one....forever....and now the weekend comes another ONE.

on friday nights my dad brings over his girlfriend...she is 54, why do old ladies where nasty fragrances?

I don't have a lot of friends but one thing i've noticed in life and that is that people tend to use me. They only talk to me or associate with me to get something from me and when i call them on it, it will just create problems and so instead of acting on it i do the opposite. i distance myself from those ppl by not communicating with them and when i do this they also stop communicating with me.

About a year ago i met this girl in a class and we became friends. Platonic, nothing is there. Anyway, i start giving her rides to school this past semester, we had 3 classes together. She would invite me over for dinner or something every so often...once a month or whatever...her son is like 8 years younger than me and her daughter 10 years younger so we'd hang out a lil or whatever..

this next semester starts in january and i have 2 classes with her and 1 with her son which i intended on carpooling. they dont have reliable transportation like i do, they ride the bus to school etc...so now that its break from school and stuff they dont talk to me at all or anything or make any effort like how i felt i did. obviously i feel used for my vehicle...i'll not communicate with them and then if they hit me up for rides right before school starts, i'll end up making up some reason as to why i cant anymore...and so goes the story of my life. why are ppl likes this, or maybe why do i feel used constantly like in this situation

ok so i get my associates in may. I don't care..accomplishment??? meh it's not really...i'm 28 and barely getting it and then oh yes...i live at home with my daddy haha....when i start making friends... its cool for awhile but i don't relate to anyone. i've done this for long time now. the whole making new friends then not really finding a...'bond' whatever it is, common ground. Even if there is some interest there, its always never enough.. the friendships i make never get deep enough to stick i guess. on top of that, i find myself very shallow. I don't hit on many women but the ones i do hit on are usually out of my league, i think. the ones i find interested in me are insanely hideous and yea no thx i rather whack it...can i say that on here? :), i kinda already knew i was ugly...anyway i get to spend my xmas with only 1 person, my dad. of course his gf is going to come over etc etc with a couple others of her family..not really interested. they arent really friends of mine or you know, i don't care. i do productive things you know but all loner stuff....rock climbing..its actually bouldering cause you need 2 ppl to climb rocks...belaying..etc... i workout and do cardio and hike etc so im not all some creep in the basement of his parents house...no no im a creep on a rock with some dumb bells and running shoes etc...haha anyway yea im so socially retarded, did i mention that...all i want is like 1 person to connect with. man or woman platonic.i love myself enough to not really need a sexual relationship..see now thats weird also what the **** is wrong with me??

ok so i get my associates in may. I don't care..accomplishment??? meh it's not really...i'm 28 and barely getting it and then oh yes...i live at home with my daddy haha....when i start making friends... its cool for awhile but i don't relate to anyone. i've done this for long time now. the whole making new friends then not really finding a...'bond' whatever it is, common ground. Even if there is some interest there, its always never enough.. the friendships i make never get deep enough to stick i guess. on top of that, i find myself very shallow. I don't hit on many women but the ones i do hit on are usually out of my league, i think. the ones i find interested in me are insanely hideous and yea no thx i rather whack it...can i say that on here? :), i kinda already knew i was ugly...anyway i get to spend my xmas with only 1 person, my dad. of course his gf is going to come over etc etc with a couple others of her family..not really interested. they arent really friends of mine or you know, i don't care. i do productive things you know but all loner stuff....rock climbing..its actually bouldering cause you need 2 ppl to climb rocks...belaying..etc... i workout and do cardio and hike etc so im not all some creep in the basement of his parents house...no no im a creep on a rock with some dumb bells and running shoes etc...haha anyway yea im so socially retarded, did i mention that...all i want is like 1 person to connect with. man or woman platonic.i love myself enough to not really need a sexual relationship..see now thats weird also what the **** is wrong with me??

Icewind Dale 2 is a rpg released in 2002 on the infinity engine. It is a 2d game. There are gems that you get on this game...i'm just curious as to what they are used for and how you use them..please help me become a d&d nerd..thank you very much.