Kayla Holmes

I'm about to be 19 in a few days and I have no kids, so I realize that I'm not exactly the first candidate for this. The problem is that my periods cause me so much pain, but they have no purpose. I NEVER want kids; the pain would probably kill me, I have no potential suitors (guys are jokes to me, so I'm sure that I never will), and I'm not fond of them anyway. Also, my period pain is so bad that it makes me suicidal from time to time, and its my vagina and I want to be done with it. Is there some kind of extreme circumstance that would make my doctor agree to ending my periods forever before my 20s and with no kids?

I'm a college student in a small town. I didn't bring many shoes with me. Here are my options for shoes:

-wolf grey jordan's (retro 3)

-toro bravo jordan (retro 4)

-Doc Marten's (dusty blue)

-white converse

-gold & brown sandals

-another pair of sandals (colorful)

-Nike KD 6 (candy)

You see my dilemma?

This is a small college town (Maryville, Mo). Not to make any excuses, but the interviewer knows that I'm a college student. I do plan to buy whatever shoes I need for the job if I get it, but for the interview is it okay if I wear the white converse?

I hated high school also. For so many years I've fed myself with the lie that everything will get better, but it won't. I'm starting my second week of college and I hate it. I don't want to be here or in school at all. Luckily I'm undecided and have only general education courses. I'm thinking that I should just transfer from this university into a junior college in my hometown. Then I could just be done with school in two years, College is just feeling pointless to me. I hate the people, the classes, the community, the food, the cost, and nearly everything else. I do like the fact that I'm away from home though.

At the moment I am on the 4th day of my period. This morning I woke up and randomly had diarrhea. Unlike other times that I've had it, this time whenever I eat something within the next 10-15 minutes I'll become nauseous and have to poop really watery poop. It only happens after I eat something. Is it because of my period or am I just not digesting things right? Also, I'm a vegetarian & often times don't have the time to cook and eat right so I eat a lot of nutrient dense foods/ snacks. & occasionally I smoke weed, maybe once a week

I also have a medium body frame.

I also have a medium body frame.

I have a blood test tomorrow and I know I will have plenty of deficiences. If I ate normally ( or excessively) all day today and took a vitamin in the morning tomorrow will everything come up normal? Also, will I be more deficient if I smoked marijauna or have been throwing up recently?

I had another one of those weird dreams. This time I was in a room. The lights were out and there was a window showing that it was night out. I was lying in a bunk bed on the bottom bunk awake. Something was on the top bunk. It was thing w/ a face like :S and snakes for hair. It peeked down to look at me then jumped in my face and hissed. I wasn't afraid of it, I was calm and felt protected by God. I punched the thing in the face then the bed started sinking until I could see nothing but black. All of a sudden I launched out of bed and flew out threw the window. I hit the ground running. Something was chasing me but I wasn't scared. I kept looking back but couldn't see the chaser. I ran past many houses then I walked into one. It was a stranger's. He was an old man sitting in his dining room (he had only one big room that was a kitchen, living room, and dining room) reading a newspaper. I tried to get his attention but he ignored me. I got frustrated and left running again in zig zags

1. I was at my best friend's old house. We went on a walk to McDonalds. At the end of her street there's a large building (in real life she told me that its a place for the mentally ill, she called it a "crazy house"). We walk up to it and go in ( I can't walk in this dream, I can only skip but she walks). Inside there's people in white uniforms and strait jackets walking toward us like zombies. I look at her, grab her arm and say let's get out of here, we shouldn't be here. We dash out of the place, her running, me skipping. We didn't make it to our destination.

2. I'm asleep in bed (in real life there are lots of noises, 2 alarms going off and a movie on loudly outside of my room). I roll out of bed (literally) and land on the floor. I hop up and start walking into the room living room then the kitchen, then my mothers room where I stop. I don't remember the rest I just remember that I'm walking strange. My body was flimsy like paper, I flapped back and forth and side to side.

Is that enough to kill me or should I drink a little alcohol w/ that?

Whenever I eat, within 3-5 normal bites I'm stuffed. I know that I should be able to eat more because I have bulimic tendencies. A normal meal for me is 3-5 bites but a binge is like a full plate maybe seconds which is strange. Also when I eat I my 3-5 bites later on I feel way more stuffed and uncomfortable than when I first begin feeling stuffed. I never aim to be full, I aim to be satisfied..

I bought these diet pills. I'm supposed to take them 3 times a day 20 minutes before any meal. What would happen if I take them three times a day but don't eat? Please don't lecture me, I never really eat.

Well, I fast all day long until school ends. When I get home from school I binge then purge, everyday. Today I had a binge larger than my normal binges. Today I binged on a whole bag of hot snaps and a whole bag of chex mix ( the bag with like 4 servings muddy buddy kind). Anyway, when I was purging all of a sudden a huge amount came up and aftter that I could no longer purge, not even stomach acid. Why can't I purge anymore? Can purging cause pain around the rib cage and back?

I'm cold and shivering with goose bumps. I am nauseous and am having terrible stomach cramps. My back, legs, arms, vagina, and anus muscles are aching terribly (not sure if anus mucles are even a real thing). I have really terrible diarrhea ( I know, tmi). I have a headache also. Last time I was on I had the same symptoms and I went to the emergency room and was told that I had a low blood sugar, I was in ketosis, and lacked many nutrients (probably because of my period). IDK how to handle this at home.

My doctor is going to tell my mom about my problem with eating because she says that it could be an eating disorder. Is she allowed to do that? Yes, I'm under 18 but I thought that everything that I shared with my doctor could stay confidential. So yeah, is she allowed to tell my mom?

I screwed around my freshman and sophomore years of highschool and now have a cumulative gpa of 1.8. What is the highest I can get my cumulative GPA in one semester. Can I atleast reach a 2.5?

This morning I had a cheese stick (80 calories + 1 carb). Throughout the day I've had these terrible stomach aches on and off. On top of that I've been dizzy. When I came home from school I decided to have a snack but completely binged. I had 2 caramel rice cakes, 4 tablespoons of pb, 2 bowls of cinnamon toast crunch, + a caprisun. I'm now dizzy and starving with a headache and stomachache and the binge was 2+ hours ago. Why am I so hungry so soon? Why am I dizzy? Why is my head aching? Also how can I avoid binging? P.S. I'm not willing to eat consistently and I won't be eating for the rest of tonight and maybe not tomorrow either.

The actual physical symptoms for the body not the warning signs to others. For example, hair loss.

For a while now I have been starving and working out to exhaustion. Could that be the cause of my rapid heart beat and shortness of breath everytime I get up to do something simple like walk upstairs? I really need to workout tomorrow but I'm scared because of my rapid heartbeat and shortness in breath. I was going to workout for two hours but should I just take it easy instead? Should I shorten my workout or all together cancel it?