Morgen

I have been working very hard but it still doesn't seem like things are getting much better. I am not one to want to give up, but I fear that one day I could lose everything. I will be undergoing therapy/counselling and other forms of verbal support, I just hope that there will always be a better way than death. I have attempted suicide 3 times and what I have realised is at the last second I plead for it to not work. I do not want to die, but I can have a panic attack and act impulsively, or simply give into the dark thoughts. What do you think?

It's been bothering me alot lately how people are so harsh towards other people for being themselves. I just say do what you like, within reason of course. I mean we are living in the times where people like 6ix9ine and lil pump are famous and they can look like whatever they want so, why not regular people aswell?

my balls are killing me

One where the woman was 20 and the Guy was 17? I know that in many parts of the world it would be illegal or seen as a crime, but I'm asking you personally if YOU would think it was gross or would disapprove of it? I mean its literally only 1 year or less than 1 year until its classed as acceptable or ok in society if u know what I mean. I cant help but say that it bothers me that people care about this kind of thing

I'm in silver but I feel like I'm never get to gold at this rate because I mostly lose because of bad teams, sometimes I get put with a decent team and we do really well together and win but it's mostly crap teams I get put with and we lose because no one even has the guts to group up and try and attack, they all just run away and let the other team win. Whenever I win a streak of games I then lose alot afterwards. This is annoying. Oh and I haven't really got 5 other people I can invite to a group and play every game with.