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I don't know if this is anything. Maybe it has to do with my medication (seroquel). Throughout most of the Summer, I was suicidal and was beginning to have thoughts about hurting others (I would *never* act on them. I was pretty scared about it, which is why I sought help.), although seroquel seems to be doing a fairly good job of keeping them away.

The thing is that I'm increasingly having these visions when I blink, and sometimes when I have my eyes closed for long periods of time. They're kind of disturbing. I keep on seeing things just decaying.

For example, I keep on having visions of this painting that used to really scare me when I was a little kid at my grandparents house, but the canvas is kind of distorted and falling apart. I've been seeing people's faces the same way.

I still feel kind of weird talking to people I actually know about this. I don't want to scare anyone, and I don't want to tell my therapist yet because he has a history of telling my parents things I don't want him to tell them (even though I'm no longer a minor, or dependent).

Any help is greatly appreciated.

I'm a soon-to-be-college freshman at Florida International University, and I would like to major in hospitality management. I think that in a perfect world, I'd be running a chic, expensive, secluded resort in the mountains, but I really have no idea what kind of training that would require.

Do hospitality management/administration majors who wish to run destination resorts typically pursue graduate degrees? If not, what might a person with this aspiration do to become qualified for that type of thing?

Thanks in advance for your help :)

I've thought I was just depressed for a long period of time... I'm a highly introspective person though, and more and more I think it's more than that.

The thing is that I've always been a very empathetic person. I place others' needs above my own to the point that many of my closest friends and family don't know anything about me. I've been to therapy from time to time because of suicidal tendencies, but I always end up more interested in talking to the therapists about their own lives than figuring myself out.

I love people, and I'd never intentionally do something to hurt another person. However, from an early age, I've projected onto other people an image which I really don't manifest, and which I will very easily lie to sustain.

There has been one very distinct instance of a lie which seriously alarms me which happened nearly a year ago now and continued for around six months.

Last year, I was a high school senior, and at one point during the year, I started having very bad headaches every day, so bad that I would routinely have a difficult time standing up. At first it was legitimate, and then my parents pulled me out of school, and kept me out for six months. I eventually recovered (not entirely sure how, but it was a gradual thing), but I continued to tell my parents, family, friends, doctors and teachers that I was experiencing severe headaches for another four or so months, through all kinds of testing and expensive, out-of-area doctors visits, and until I started on a new medication which I still take.

I guess you might say that I seek attention obsessively. One thing you should know about me is that I'm a highly intelligent person with a lot to say, but who is absolutely terrified to talk because I developed a severe stutter at an early age, and my parents have always talked over me and encouraged me not to talk, because (in their words) people have a difficult/frustrating time *listening* to me talk. That means that for years, I've just refrained from talking much at all in public situations, even to the point where it gets me in trouble.

That *also* means that I repress and bottle things up until I completely melt down and feel enraged, depressed and hopeless, and eventually explode.

Now, up until about three or four months ago, I've only ever had urges to hurt myself (and I've acted on them numerous times), but I've recently started having thoughts of seriously hurting other people. It really, really scares me when I go back and think about it, but in the heat of my anger I start to fantasize about causing others physical harm.

I really do not and can't seem to be able to feel remorse. I honestly don't fear any kinds of consequences. Things like that don't even begin to phase me.

I know I'm a strange case, and it's hard for me to type this out, but the reason I have is because of the anonymity I have here. I can't talk to my friends about this stuff, because if they knew, I feel like they'd think I was a freak. I can't tell my parents because they wouldn't send me away to college next month (although they threaten me with that for even minor things), and I can't tell doctors/therapists because I just don't have the courage.

What should I do? I really don't want to do something that could get me in serious trouble.

For example, if I wanted to know where to find more porn involving particular person whose name I don't know, would I get in trouble for posting a link to a video she's in, if I posted an 18+/nsfw warning?

I'm a high school senior, and prom and graduation are coming up. I'm kind of involved with a girl who I met at an open house for my college of choice (which is four hours away from my home, so I never get to see said girl, we more just talk), but she told me that she tends to be happier single and that she might not want to be in a relationship per se, but more of a friends with benefits kind of deal.

Now, I'm kind of bored with relationships (and I also don't want the drama, since it's close to graduation and all), so the whole "friends with benefits" thing would be okay with me if we didn't live four hours away.

This first girl, Sarah, has probably been involved with other guys since we met, but I'm not sure, and I don't want to ask her.

The conflict comes from this other girl, Katie. I *really* like Katie, but she's a freshman, and I'm not sure if she's into me anyways. I was considering asking her to prom, but I don't want to get caught up in relationship stuff with her afterwards, and I'm even a tad apprehensive about asking her, since I don't know what Sarah expects, and I'm wary to talk to her about it, because I feel like I'd be raising a red flag if she's not okay with me and other girls.

What do you think I should do? I'm kind of torn. I feel like I want to take someone to prom (and I'm dying to lose my virginity), but I don't want to hurt Sarah, who I'm also really involved with (just in a different way, which should change once we're in college).

My hotmail account, which for years I've used for everything (including college admissions offices, which is my main concern), seems to be sending out spam to everyone on my contacts list every day, so I deleted all of my contacts. Now, I've been getting delivery failure reports about emails sent to completely random addresses. How can I stop this from happening? I really want to avoid having to change all of my contacts to a new address if at all possible.

I live in Daytona, and there are rarely any decent bands coming within two hours of me. I'm going to be living in Miami in the fall, and I'm kind of doubtful that there will be very many good indie bands there either. I'm talking about Sasquatch-quality bands, like Animal Collective, Fleet Foxes and James Blake.

Also, is the indie scene better in Miami than in Central Florida?

One last question: does Radiohead usually come to Miami on tour?

Turns out I'm moving to the Netherlands. If I wanted to grow pot in my dorm room, is there any particular type that would be best for under-the-bed type growing? Like, if I wanted to use a heat lamp and put the plant under my bed (since my parents don't really want me smoking)...

Let's say hypothetically that I had a bong (for tobacco use, obviously) and wanted to go to a college which uses routine health inspections in the resident halls. How might I store it safely, without it being particularly noticible?

Prom is coming up, and while I know that that particular tux may not be available for rental, I might be able to find one that is. What is that tux called, and what might some equivalents be? I really mostly just like the black on black thing.

We're both in high school, and have been dating for nine months. The problem is that she seems unwilling to move past making out. I'm a typical high school guy, and while I'd never, ever, ever try to pressure her into doing something, I am kind of getting bored of just that. I've tried to talk to her about it, and she said that she wouldn't be okay with moving any faster. She's not at all religious, but she just doesn't have a libido of any kind, as far as I can tell.

What should I do? I love hanging out with her, and I'm into the romantic stuff too, but it's just getting a little boring.

I have always loved history, and I had the incredible fortune to have visited the Met twice. I think that I could spend a year there and not get tired. New York City is also my favorite place in the world, but living there can be prohibitively expensive.

I'm a high school senior, and I would love to be a museum curator at the Met after grad school. Here's the question.

With this goal in mind, is a history/economics double major appropriate? I would like to then go on and work towards a doctorate in history, maybe at Columbia or NYU if I can get in and pay for it. Is this a good plan?

Keep in mind that my family doesn't have that much money, so moving to Manhattan isn't an option, at least for now.

Thanks in advance!

How is it that shows which take place in the past reproduce cities so effectively? One example of this is in Boardwalk Empire, where Atlantic City looks totally authentic for that timeline, even from top-down kinds of shots.

I'm talking about things like Boardwalk Empire, where Atlantic City looks authentic for the 1920s. How is it that a studio could make such an authentic, large-scale set?

The most that I ever connect with is 51. Is there a way to connect to more seeders?

I have the flu and I'm turning 18.

I'm a high school senior who loves nature, but who lives in Florida, and who is going to be going to college in South Florida, so I'm kind of at a loss here.

Before I die, my goals are to hike the Appalachian Trail and the rim of the Grand Canyon and to climb Denali. Assuming that I know about the "training, training, training" aspect of it, what kind of things should I do to prepare myself for these kinds of goals?

I need to update to 10.6, and it's at 10.4 now. When I go to the "about Google Chrome" page, it tells me that I do have the current version, and the button to update is unavailable. This means that I cannot access the app store.

I'm going for my 18th birthday (February 16th, but I'll be there on the 6th and 7th) with my dad and a friend. I'm looking for things to do, but I want to know from some Miami residents or at least some people who really know the city. I'm going to be on an FIU tour for a good part of the 6th, but I'm definitely free that night and the 7th. I'm not sure where I'll be staying either, so suggestions for some not-too-expensive places would be nice.

Also, since I'm from Daytona and am not too terribly interested in the beach (since I live ten minutes away from it to begin with), I would appreciate it if there were other suggestions than that :P

Thanks in advance!

I am a card-carrying member of the U.S. Socialist party, and not only is Obama not a socialist, but the notion that he *is* a socialist is pretty absurd. Here are some reasons why:

1. The U.S. Socialist Party supports the elimination of all health insurance companies, Obama doesn't.

2. We support a much higher income tax no matter what your income bracket is, Obama only supports modest income tax increases, and only for the top five percent.

3. We want public ownership of everything (yes, healthcare, airlines, cable companies, and banks would be owned by the people), and Obama has not made any indication of a position in support of these measures.

4. Obama is increasing our military budget, while the Socialist party would immediately cut it by fifty percent and close many of our bases.

5. We would raise minimum wage to fifteen dollars an hour with a thirty hour workweek and six weeks of paid vacation, provide a right to retire at 55 with a $25,000-a-year pension. Obama doesn't support this.

6. We support free daycare for infants and we would insure that all classrooms had a 15-to-1 student-teacher ratio, while Obama has not supported these measures.

7. We support public ownership of all natural resources, Obama does not.

8. We support public ownership of all newspapers and magazines, Obama does not.

9. We would decriminalize drug possession and prostitution, legalize same-sex marriage, provide free legal assistance to everyone and secure guaranteed income and grants to artists and performers; Obama would do none of the above.

So really, Obama is not only *not* a socialist, but he doesn't share common goals with us, and doesn't stand for what we stand for.