Arial

I’m 19 and a lot has happened to me in the past, things started going down hill when I was 8. my dad is emotionally and mentally abusive. and my mom is physically and verbally abusive I don’t feel alive anymore I feel numb and trapped.

I've never been comfortable with being a girl. when i was in elementary school i liked sports and shorts and pants i didn't like boy bands and high heels and i noticed that being a girl sucks because my parents are more strict with girls then guys.

my sisters always forced me to wear girly things but i didn't like it at all. when i went to middle school i noticed that i was a thing called a tomboy and it made me happy that there was such a thing i got along with guys more then girls but i liked girls more then guys, that's when i discovered bisexuality.

Time passed im in high school now and i decided that

i want to become a boy i like shorts and boxers i dont like make up and dresses I hate periods and having to sit down to pee.

i tried to flirt with guys but it didn't work out so well, i realized that girls are so adorable and guys are weird (no offense) but then again i want to have a baby but i want someone to have my baby as well so I've decided that when i grow up i'll have a baby but once I have that baby I'll turn into a boy.

I need help what do you think? (Sorry for my bad english)