Giulie

There's been a lot of twists in my life lately, most of them have been good, but I don't know how to manage to keep everything balanced... My best friend and I kissed, and we both like each other, my mom saw us kissing, when I told my other bestfriend that he and I kissed, she almost killed me, I've been so focused on all of this that I can't get my schoolwork done, I'm failing lots of subjects (Biology, Social Studies, Chemistry, Physics, etc). HOW CAN I BALANCE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE??

...he thinks I don't know... if he finds out I know, he'll be mad at my friend for telling me...

WHAT SHOULD I DO NOWW???

I've known this guy for a year now, and I've started to fall for him for a little less than a year. Yesterday, a girl friend of mine started wondering if he and I liked each other, she thinks I don't like him but when she asked him... He told her that he's in love with me since he met me... SHe let me read the entire conversation.

I can't believe he loves me!! But here's the problem: I don't know how to talk with him anymore because I'm afraid I'll say something that will make him fall out of love with me! And my girl friend told him to tell me that he's in love with me, but he kept repeating he's afraid to because he doesn't know how I'll react...

I really want him to tell me everything himself because I love him too and for the past year he's been the only person who understands me perfectly, knows how to make me laugh until it hurts, and knows how to make me feel better when I'm deppressed...

Many people say he's my soulmate, and I think that's true too :)

I love him a lot, he's the only one I've pictured being my husband and the father of my children <3

what can I do now??

I've been thinking about doing a few changes in my life, e.g. becoming Agnostic (my family members are suuuuper devoted catholics), and being vegetarian. I'm 14 and I've been subtly telling my brother that I want to be a vegetarian and he keeps saying: "Don't be a vegearian, I don't want people to think that stupidity runs in our family", and my mom hates when I say cruel bible quotes in front of her or her boyfriend. So what can I do? My mom made a promise to god that she would take us to church every Sunday and I don't want to go!! Please help me!!