Mikusan

His name is Sean.

Now I'm in my 6th year liking this boy. He's been my best friend. In June 09 I dated his best friend because Sean had a girlfriend and ignored me. I needed a distraction. In August of that year things turned bad because neither of us really liked each other. Then, in September 09, Sean stopped talking to me.

Randomly. I didn't do or say anything to him. Bobby (best friend) and I had just been arguing over I don't even remember what and I asked Sean for advice (this is the reason I chose Bobby). He told me what to do and then he just STOPPED talking to me.

I started out high school on that rocky note, but on December 1st 2009 he decided that he would come back into my life. Everything was fine and dandy and I smiled in my sleep and was finally at peace..for five days. Then he started ignoring me again, acting indifferent whenever I tried to talk to him.

On and off for the rest of the school year, he's alternated between these four attitudes from day to day:

best-friend-laughter-and-sunshine

best-friend-deep-discussions-and-"I'll-always-be-there-for-you" support

really-flirty-let's-be-more-than-friends attention

who-are-you-and-why-are-you-talking-to-me.

Now that summer is here, he wants nothing to do with me. I haven't had a real conversation with him in 20 days. A few weeks ago, my friend asked him if he knew what was wrong with me, because I've been really upset lately. He said, "I wouldn't know, I haven't talked to her in about a week." She looked at him and said, "Bingo!" and it launched this discussion about how he doesn't like me and he never has, he's liked another girl for like a year, he's not my boyfriend, he doesn't have to talk to me, it's not his fault I'm in love with him, whatever. I agree, it's not his fault, but he can at least be nicer to me?

Then, that night I felt really bad because I don't think my friend really portrayed my emotions correctly. I basically apologized and spent 10 minutes texting him pouring my heart out, just to get a "ha ok." Then I continued a little more, hoping to say something that gets the point across, and he replies, "bomers on leno."

What is he referring to? Matt Bomer, only the sexiest man alive, who Sean jokingly admits he has a man crush on. It's our inside joke. So when I replied that I'd look it up on youtube the next day since I wasn't home, he just stops talking. I was so confused..

Then he doesn't talk to me until my friend, who knows him very well, started writing rather.. unkind things about him on my facebook wall. Basically, things about how everyone at his boy's school is a DB, how they like breaking hearts, etc. A few minutes later I get a text from him saying that, yes he was fighting with her but he was fed up, etc. So we spent about 3 minutes lightheartedly joking about the girl's little quirks and then he had to go.

A few days later, I asked him what ended up happening. His response? "idk." I responded indifferently as well, "oh ok," and we haven't spoken since.

I've been a wreck, shutting people out emotionally and randomly crying throughout the day, I haven't eaten in 2 days and I bite my arms because I just hate myself so much.

They say that it takes one half of the amount of time you liked someone to get over them. That leaves me with 2.5 years of this.

If there was another boy in the picture, I imagine it would be different. But I don't see anything in any other guys. I try, so hard. There are at least 5 other guys that I could have right now if I wanted, but they're all so boring compared to Sean. I try so hard to remember everything that he's done to me to make me so miserable, but then I remember all of our jokes from when we were like 10, and how he's been such a great friend to me in the past, and then I remember that he's still like that when I'm not as annoying.

So my questions,

1.) Could someone try to decipher what he's said to me?

2.) What should I do now?

3.) Is it going to be like this forever? For the rest of high school, yes, I know.

4.) Would finding another guy be an appropriate course of action? Where do I find guys when I go to an all-girls school? Both of the boys schools are full of evil people, it's not fair.

Ugh. If someone reads this whole thing the whole way through, I would be thrilled.

I know what I'm getting into. Yes, I have been interested in this more than Covert Affairs. Much longer. I've been looking at numbers stations for 2 years now. My question is, what kind of college programs should I be looking into? I seriously seriously know what I'm doing. I just have no clue how to get into this.

I like my body, but bathing suits never accentuate my favorite features! I have a tiny waist and a nice chest, but every bathing suit that comes in my size just emphasizes how tiny my butt is. It's because I'm built more like a woman than a girl.

5'2" Size 00 Bra 32B

Halters make my chest look completely flat

I don't like the baggy fabrics that cling and make me look smaller

I'm going shopping soon. What shapes should I look for?

I've tried everything, but my hereditary dark circles just won't go away. They're purple/green colored...

I've tried Erase Paste by Benefit with little luck, and other yellow/peach-based concealers.

I have big eyes with very deep creases underneath, and to prevent these I have to put powder over my concealers so the concealer stays put a bit more.

Thankss!(:

It's an all-girls school but the uniform bothers me. It's a white or navy polo that's really baggy, and a long, knee-length pleated gray skirt (polyester with gray or wool with thin navy plaid lines... I have to wear either gray or navy knee-high socks. AND my hair has to be "of natural color" which means no extreme changes. I have to wear shoes, like leather flats with a solid sole. Any ideas of how I can make this my own? I have headbands, clips, and "conservative jewelry, cosmetics, and attitude" to work with.

I'm an NCIS newbie, I just got addicted a few months ago. Are they still making new ones? And no, I don't mean the crappy NCIS: LA ones.I mean the ones with Pauley Perette, Cote de Pablo, Mark Harmon...

If they are making new ones, when does the new season start?

And if they aren't, how did they end the show?

I've been having really heavy discharge and I'm supposed to get my period soon, so I just put in a tampon because it was bugging the crap out of me, and where I am right now I can'tchange my underwear. I just put it in about two hours ago, and all of a sudden I feel really achey and hot. It could be the weather, or I could just be sick, but could I be getting Toxic Shock Syndrome?

He doesn't have custody of me but he is in my life now and wants to buy me a computer... I don't want him to spend more than $1,000 dollars, because he is already spending $30,000 over the next four years for my high school tuition.

What is a good laptop that comes standard with a webcam? All I will be using it for is making a lot of word documents, using Skype, doing research and social networking on the internet, IMing, and editing pictures using picnik.com. Anyone have any ideas of a good laptop for me to suggest?

Agh, he's hot.

I'm really big into purity and my religion. Every time I look through pro-pure websites, I see things about courtship. It seems logical. My mom is really supportive of me and she's read books by authors who support courtship above dating, but she told me that she just swaps it out for her situation (she was single for 8 years of my life). I'm afraid that she'll think it's cute, just a phase.

Plus, where the heck am I going to find a guy to court me?

I have a theory. I grew up without a dad. Nobody ever told me I'm pretty. No guys like me, but my guy friends tell me I'm beautiful. When I tell a guy I like him, he says that I'm just "not his type." I don't think I'm anybody's type, really.

I know. I keep posting similar questions. I've just been feeling really self-conscious lately.

If you're really curious/stalkerish, I have pictures in other questions.

I love you all.

~Mikayla

Why are you with the girl you're with?

Why do you like the girl you like?

What makes you stop and look twice at a girl?

What is the most attractive thing about a girl, externally?

What is the most attractive thing about a girl, internally?

Sheer curiosity.

~Mikayla Susan

I love my best guy friend. He means the world to me. I've known this for 2 years and the feelings have only gotten stronger. He's not super gorgeous or anything, he's just super funny and nice and amazing. Problem? One month ago today, the girl that he and all his friends agree to be "the hottest girl to ever walk on the earth" confessed her undying love for him. I feel really betrayed and I'm upset because he knows how much I like him, but he still comes to me for advice. I started to move on and like other people but then today I saw a picture of his girlfriend and I realized that there's no way I could ever compare to her if she's his type...I mean I'm just a friend. It sounds like something from a song, I know. He doesn't have caller ID and when I called him this morning he answered and he was like "Hey Lauren, how ya doin' baby?" And I just started crying and hung up. Why can't he see how much more I care about him? I mean this girl's known him for less than a year. I've known him for 4 years. I told him I got over him and liked our friend, but he knows I'm lying.

WHY

DOES

SEAN

ALWAYS

MAKE

ME

CRY

?!

I sleep a lot, I drink lots of water and eat really healthy. I've had these big brown circles down to my cheekbones ever since I was born. I'm 15 and I use concealer but nothing can cover them up all the way. People always ask if I'm sick and when I was younger people always thought I was recovering from 2 black eyes. What should I do?

~Mikayla Susan

If I'm as beautiful as my friends tell me I am, why doesn't anybody like me? Not to sound conceited, I think I'm kind of pretty, nothing eye-catching but not totally ugly. Why don't guys like me? I'm 15 and not one person has ever had a crush on me.

Here's ME! Very recent: http://i120.photobucket.com/albums/o182/muffinmiss...

I don't speak up when I need something, like food, a break, or even just a little help. I'm deathly afraid of rejection, to the point where I won't order food for myself because I'm afraid that they'll say that they're out of it or the machine's broken or something.

One place where I usually feel I can be myself is at my church. Next week, I'll be working at our vacation bible school. It's a big deal, between 700-1,000 kids come every year because it's a lot of fun and is the biggest and best within 5 hours. I signed up to work, but now I'm afraid that I'll be all alone. I don't want to back out, because I love kids and I know I'll be in the room where kids realize God's power and accept him, but it's also a room that requires a lot of communication. I'm in the younger "layer" of all the people who will be working in my room, and almost everyone else is going to be in their late teens, early twenties. They're nice and stuff, but they tend to ignore me. What should I do to make friends? It's a lot of time that I'm going to be spending with them, and not all of it will involve kids.

Something with classic but understandable writing ("she was cool" doesn't work, but neither does "all who looked unto here yea were blah, blah, blah...") Leather bound with all the classics and some illustrations... princess and the pea, snow white, rumpelstiltskin, sleeping beauty, the frog prince... where could I find something like this?

Something like ElleGirl, but not like GirlsLife. Something mature, but not too mature (shirts that automatically make you eighteen cup sizes bigger!!!), and not too immature (I'm holding GirlsLife as the lowest mature standard. That's as childish as I can take it.).

Whyyy thanks!

~Mikayla Susan

I like anything unusual, something that they wouldn't play on the radio, like Amy MacDonald. I like having a different taste. I have a sound that I like, too, like Kate Voegele. Looking for something new.

~Mikayla Susan