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I'm a volleyball player. I've played since the 6th grade and this is my senior year. I've killed over and over to finally get these done, and now my Coaches are telling me, BEGGING ME, that I have to take them out or I'm not allowed to play. I got them done back at the beginning of June, and now it's the beginning of August, so they've been in place for a little over 2 months.

I have clear things- so tiny, they actually look like little zits! and I've tried putting a band-aid on top. but they won't accept it. literally, I have to take them out for practices/games.

the practices are two hours long, with two to three water breaks in between. games tend to usually be an hour long, each.

what can I do, guys? please help.

It's been so cold recently that I've decided I want some of those warm, fuzzy boots. Though they are kind of icky, they look super warm and comfy. A pair of black ones would look cute with all my black pants too, I'd suppose.

Can anyone give me an pricing estimate?

Honestly... I need to know.

A year ago, I fell in love with a boy named Karl. He was my ultimate match. We hung out and talked all the time for months... but our 'dating' lasted only a week long. We live about 30 minutes away, maybe a bit more, and he said it was too hard for him... He said he was a whore (though.. he'd never had sex lol.. well, at this point I'm sure he has, but that's not the point) and he needed more.. touch. Not getting it on, persay. But physically being right there.

But I felt so amazing with him, I still even miss him today. I know what love is because of him, and honestly I can say that. I know I'm young, but I'm not stupid. I didn't love him for how he looked, how much money he had... but who he was. And how he was with me. How he made me better.

But! During the summer, I met another boy named Evan. He was like Karl... but somewhat better. (we had broken up by this time... he asked me out December 31st and we broke up some time in January) I don't know. Evan was really awesome, and he made me laugh like no other. I think I kind of... fell in love with him, too. Liked him a lot. We considered (and still do) ourselves the Dream Team. Me and Evan 'kind of' dated for a week, as well. Maybe two? He lived kinda far away, as well. Not as far as Karl, but Evan only had his learners, and whatnot. And we always talked on the phone all the time.

He was just as witty as me, and I loved it.

But I learned today that... he has a girlfriend now. Evan, I mean.

And now... both of them do. And that both are happy... I'm not a very lovey person. I can hands on the Bible tell you that I haven't cried in over a year. I don't show emotions. And... well, I want to keep it that way. I'm glad that their happy. But why must I be so miserable in the process?

How do I overcome this grief, and rising depression. The stress of heartbreak... I've lost 5 pounds in the past four days.

Sometimes people need help.

Now would be the time..

Please don't laugh at me. **** happens.

I know if you want to help you'll actually read of all of this, because it's a lot. So those who are willing to, thank you so much :)

Two years ago, I used to go to this place to go to concerts called Skatelife. There, I met bands (local, of course) and made a lot of friends. One of those bands was one called Dead Industrial where one of my friends was a lead singer. Note that I was an 8th grader, and he was a junior. Or maybe even a senior, I don't really know. But point is, I met his band and everyone. I didn't really have a taste for their looks, but their sound was pretty good.

Two or three weeks later, my guesstimation, a boy named Jordan added me on myspace. He's not very attractive, but he's cute, ya know. He added me on AIM, also, and we talked a lot. We didn't talk about dating or any of that kinda stuff, just about life. About religion, politics, music- real things. And he's super smart. I enjoyed talking to him, and I know he did, too. He tried to talk to me all the time. Then he invited me to a party last Friday. And I went. It wasn't a huge shindig, but about 15 people were there at the most for a while. It was my first party.

Also, let me add... I'm 15 years of age. And he's 19. Actually, today's his birthday. But point is, we talked about a lot of things. One of them being my virginity and how I don't want to loose it any time soon. He always had some things he said that were minorly flirty, but I never really took mind of it.

The party last week, it was obvious. He was kinda drunk (hey, it happens) and he was horribly flirty. Liquor makes you honest, you know. And he cuddled on me, and did lots of things to show his interest. But he never kissed me. And I never kissed him. And that night, after going to sleep at 6 am, I slept in his bed. Nothing happened. We just slept together in the normal sleepy zzzz way.

And I realized, he's a super cool dude. I like him a little.

After last Friday, he hasn't tried to talk to me. He hasn't gotten on AIM all week, and he gave up txting me. When I finally quit putting effort to talk to him this Wednesday, he didn't even try. And I know he's busy, but he used to talk to me all the time.

I don't understand.

Well, today is his birthday, and one of his best friends Adam is getting me after my wrestling meet I must attend (I'm a manager) to go to Jordan's party. I'm awkwardly nervous- I haven't talked to him in forever.

But what made him loose interest so quickly? What did I do? Did he finally realize I'm such a hideous creature, I mean, I don't know.

And if you think it might be the last one, feel free to check my myspace

www.myspace.com/crazy_crayon706

And I know it's not because of my age, because he initially knew it. I'm also extremely mature for my age, as for everyone tells me that.

So any bit of help would be appriciated.

Please and MAJOR thank you.

Yup.

So, my favorite drink is Smirnoff Ice. Very sweet and yummy (like Sprite) with that alcoholic kick.

But, I'm also looking for something new and have no idea how to explore the concept. And I don't really have any good ideas.

So, any suggestions? Like I said, beers are disgusting. I need something delicious:)

Allright.

So the other day, I bought size 2 gauges at a very pretty silver color. I've got a size 6 in, and I've had it in since about May.

But, back in May, to put those size 6 in, I had to jump from a size... oh, 14. Slightly painful, I had an aggrivated ear for about two or three days. Yeah, I know, not my brightest idea.

BUT this isn't as big a jump. The only problem is that the gauge isn't going in at all. I know to not deadbolt, or whatever it's called- I've got tapers.

But how do I make it work?

It's starting to piss me off! >_<

It's just a 6 to a 2.

So, please and thank you.

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