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My dashboard has had the same posts for the past 30 minutes and I know there should be new ones because I've gone to some of the blogs I follow and they have posted new stuff and I'm unable to see it. This is happening on multiple browsers too. Is this happening to anyone else, and how do I fix it?

So far I've had Denny's, Oreo, Coca-Cola, and Wendy's all posting/reblogging their advertisements from my account (so it looks like I've gone through and manually reblogged their posts when I didn't). I'm not reblogging anything from them, in fact, I hate all of those companies. How do I get it to stop? Coca cola has posted stuff to my account at least 4 times in the past hour and I've deleted all of them. Please help, its very irritating!

So I bought Mane and Tail's shampoo and conditioner, I checked to see if they tested on animals without checking the ingredients. It didn't dawn on me until I was actually in the shower to see if the conditioner had any animal products in it - and it did. The conditioner has lanolin it in, which comes from wool fat. The company doesn't test on animals, but the conditioner has an animal product in it..

I paid $6, do I keep it and just use it until I run out or give it away and buy a different conditioner?

Im 14 and turning 15 in early January, and I've been sexually attracted to both sexes for as long as I can remember. My first sexual encounter was with a girl, and up until July, all of the people I've kissed were girls. I've only kissed one guy before and I felt nothing and I actually kinda panicked, like I wasnt like "whoa I just kissed a guy", not like the way it was when I kissed girls. Girls just have like a certain feel to it, like the way their lips feel is something I find amazing and I cant find words to describe it, but with guys its just, I dont know..

The last guy I dated, I felt like I loved him, and maybe I did but when he said he loved me, I kinda lost feelings towards him and all that was left were sexual feelings (and maybe thats just my personality, I dont know). But with girls, I feel like Im able to understand better what a romantic relationship would be. Like Im able to think about cuddling with a girl and doing stupid sappy love things with a girl and feel like it makes sense and when I think about doing those things with a guy, it all just kinda, I dont know like I feel nothing and it even has a negative feel to it.

But I dont think Im lesbian though because I can still be aroused by a guy. Could I really be bisexual though considering I've felt this way my entire life?

To start off, I'm 14, turning 15 in several months.

But I dont know how many other people do this or if this is normal, but I've noticed, when I meet someone and even if Im just a tiny bit attracted to them, I get almost obsessed with them. Not stalker obsessed, but obsessed to the point where I'll fantasize about them and doing things with them. And it makes me feel super creepy because I've met and had a real conversation with these people maybe at least 4 times before.

I'll think about them all the time and I want them to look at me and pay attention to me and talk to me, but its only all sexual. Never like "I wanna love this person" its like a "I wanna have a one night stand with this person".

Then if I find out they like someone or has a girlfriend or likes someone else, then I completely lose interest in them.

But then the second I hear they might be available, it all starts up again.

I have a tendency to get obsessed with topics easily and learn about that topic for months and months until I know everything there is to know about it, but its only recently that I've noticed I'm doing this for people now too.

Should I be concerned over this? Is this normal for teenagers?

This is the bread recipe: http://www.food.com/recipe/the-easiest-simplest-ve...

This isn't my first time making it, it also came out a bit heavy as well as a bit too salty.

Could I reduce the amount of salt I use next time?

Im a vegan so I can't put egg or milk in it. I don't use a bread machine, its all by hand.

I've only made dough 3 times before with 3 different recipes, and the first two times I made pizza dough and I found I had the same problem. Could it possibly be the flour I'm using?

I have one tooth (my right canine) that as a kid, the baby tooth didn't loosen and fall out correctly, so the adult tooth started coming in on top on it so I had to get the baby tooth pulled. They said it would come in fine and it wouldn't be a big deal.

About a year ago at a regular checkup, the dentist said I would have to get braces at 14 if they didn't straighten out. Im 14, turning 15 in January, and my teeth are straight for the most part, but that annoying canine is still slightly turned and it makes me feel super self concious and I try not to show my teeth when I smile. But my teeth have suddenly starting spacing out and I don't know why.

So I don't know if I should ask to get braces or if I should just ask to get a retainer.. Because I know people who had teeth way worse than mine and only had braces on for about 1 year and a half. So for one tooth to be corrected, I don't see the point in getting braces really.

Would a retainer possibly fix this? And yes I know retainers are used to keep teeth straight after getting braces off..

These are the ingredients:

SUGAR, ENRICHED FLOUR BLEACHED (WHEAT FLOUR, NIACIN, IRON, THIAMIN MONONITRATE, RIBOFLAVIN, FOLIC ACID), COCOA PROCESSED WITH ALKALI AND COCOA, PARTIALLY HYDROGENATED SOYBEAN OIL, CONTAINS 2% OR LESS OF: CORN STARCH, SALT, NATURAL AND ARTIFICIAL FLAVOR, BAKING SODA.

It says it "may contain milk and soybean ingredients" but what does "may contain" actually mean?

I have almond milk and egg replacement for actually making it, but is the mix itself vegan at all?

Thanks for any answers!

Last summer, I went through depression and self harm, it was a relapse, but it was way worse. Ever since kindergarten I’ve thought I was fat, but I never did anything about it. Last summer, I went from 135 pounds to 123 in about a month, then I got better out of nowhere and my weight leveled out at around 125, and stopped caring about my image. This summer, I am now 114. Just 2 weeks ago I was 118 pounds. I dont think Im fat now, I actually look in the mirror and see how skinny Ive gotten, Im 5’4 almost 5’5 so my BMI is teetering on the borderline of healthy and underweight. But some people are starting to ask me “When did you eat”, “Did you eat anything today”, etc. I dont purge because my gag reflexes are weak, I dont see a reason to purge anymore even though I have tried to before, and I dont binge. I just feel better when my stomach is empty.

But I seem to keep trying to lose weight, just to see how low I can get, I want people to notice and get help for me because Im too scared to ask for it, and last time I got help, my mom told me after a few weeks of therapy that I didnt need it and she took me out of it without even asking me. I set goals, like my goal is to get my weight so my BMI classifies me as underweight.

I can’t eat in front of people most times, I hate talking about my favorite foods, but I dont feel uncomfortable around it. I try to be healthy because I would like to convert from vegetarianism to veganism, but because Im starting to feel kinda guilty about eating more than I usually do (about 1000 calories a day), it’d be difficult to go vegan. And I’m worried about if I’m malnourished.. My mom has thought I was anorexic before, but didn’t do anything about it, now I think shes starting to think I am again. It gets bad when I get stressed, and I’m a freshman in highschool now so.

But do I need help? And if I do, how do I ask for it without being scared? I have really bad anxiety issues. I have since I was in 4th grade. Thanks for any answers.

For the past few months, I have been hearing voices sometimes as I fall asleep (hypnagogia) and its mainly not related to mental illness, but for the past few days, I have been hearing voices that isn't my own internal voice during the day, more than at night. They sound like they're coming from the left or right side of me, they sound like they're coming from the outside, and I can remember what "they" say and it's not just static chatter, its full sentences that I dont think up, they just happen.

There are male voices, female voices, adult voices, kid voices, and they are loud, and one even had an accent. They don't tell me to do anything, they are just there. It happens when its really quiet, so why could this be?

Should I talk to my mom about this? I'm 14 and Ive had a long history of mental issues, mainly depression, self harm, the typical. But I've also experienced paranoia, I even had an idea of what the "people who were watching me" looked like, severe anxiety issues as a kid, dissipating memory now, and other things. But the symptoms seem to come and go and come back every year, like a biannual relapse, but it happens are when school starts and around christmas, so I dont think its bipolar because those are times when I get really stressed out. Although around march of last year, I was thinking about homicide, I was very apathetic, and I felt like the best person ever. I dissociate occasionally, not as much as I used to, but still pretty often.

But am I hearing voices? And should I be concerned, they aren't mean or anything, "they" just say random sentences. My grandmother has bipolar I but has since got in under control, but it got really bad during the time my mom was a child. (I refer to the "voices" as "they" because it feels appropriate)

For the past few months, I have been hearing voices sometimes as I fall asleep (hypnagogia) and its mainly not related to mental illness, but for the past few days, I have been hearing voices that isn't my own internal voice during the day, more than at night. They sound like they're coming from the left or right side of me, they sound like they're coming from the outside, and I can remember what "they" say and it's not just static chatter, its full sentences that I dont think up, they just happen.

There are male voices, female voices, adult voices, kid voices, and they are loud, and one even had an accent. They don't tell me to do anything, they are just there. It happens when its really quiet, so why could this be?

Should I talk to my mom about this? I'm 14 and Ive had a long history of mental issues, mainly depression, self harm, the typical. But I've also experienced paranoia, I even had an idea of what the "people who were watching me" looked like, severe anxiety issues as a kid, dissipating memory now, and other things. But the symptoms seem to come and go and come back every year, like a biannual relapse, but it happens are when school starts and around christmas, so I dont think its bipolar because those are times when I get really stressed out. Although around march of last year, I was thinking about homicide, I was very apathetic, and I felt like the best person ever. I dissociate occasionally, not as much as I used to, but still pretty often.

But am I hearing voices? And should I be concerned, they aren't mean or anything, "they" just say random sentences. My grandmother has bipolar I but has since got in under control, but it got really bad during the time my mom was a child. (I refer to the "voices" as "they" because it feels appropriate)

I'm 14, I've dealt with like a bunch of things since I was a kid really.

So, Im just gonna list everything that I feel now and I have felt starting with normal teen stuff, I guess?

- Depression (on and off, mood swings, normal stuff)

- Suicidality (goes with depression, I usually feel suicidal for like a few hours then I get distracted and move on although 2 years ago I was seriously considering it and almost wrote a note)

- Self harm (started as a kid, I would bite myself, and hit myself hard enough to bruise whenever I got in trouble, then when I was 12 I started cutting. I've since then stopped completely. I've been clean for several months now. I very rarely get the urge to do it)

- Low self esteem (since I was a kid, I remember comparing myself to other girls all through elementary school, starting in kindergarten)

- Anger issues (also since I was a kid. I would throw tantrums almost everyday)

- Anxiety (also as a kid, in 4th grade I had anxiety attacks almost everyday due to a severe phobia over all kinds of weather)

- Now I'm noticing I am developing social anxiety (I haven't hung out with friends in public at all this year because people have learned not to even ask me because Ill make up an excuse not to go out. I'm terrified of people)

- Apathy (occasionally)

- Dissociating, feeling numb (this is almost all the time now)

- Homicidality (I used to fantasize everyday about killing people, like shooting up my school, even though I wasn't being bullied, and I have gotten very strong urges but I didn't act on it. I don't really fantasize about this much anymore)

- Inability to remember anything before the age of 7-8

- Recurring nightmares about being tracked down

- Paranoia (a year ago I had a strong feeling there were cameras in my room and I developed an idea of what the people looked like, I even started covering up any holes I saw in walls)

- Inability to develop good relationships (I guess thats kinda normal though)

- Occasional periods of very very inflated self esteem, to the point where I feel completely narcissistic.

- Failure to follow through on promises

- Horrible, horrible memory. I can barely remember what my days were like

All of this has happened before and it happens the same time each year, it happens around december, goes into march, then goes away for the summer, then comes back when school starts. Its been like that for a year.

My mother has been clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and my grandmother on my moms side has been clinically diagnosed as severely bipolar and has at least one personality disorder

Is my behavior just related to stress, and is it normal for teenagers because of all the hormones?

Thanks for any advice xx

I dont know if I was abused, definitely wasn't neglected, and it would seem I would have a normal childhood. I grew up in a middle class family, dad had a job, mom was stay-at-home. I went to a christian preschool, although I dont remember much of anything.

I was about 5 or 6 when I went, and thats the age most people start to form memories, yet I dont remember much of anything before the age of about 7 or 8. I was very curious in like..sexual things. I started looking at porn in about maybe I think in 3rd or 4th grade. And I would do sexual things with a friend I had when I was about 9, 10, or 11 and I would be the one to initiate everything.

I can just remember being very sexual as a kid. I think it started when I saw stuff on tv and thats when it all started. But Im a 14 year old girl..I think I should be able to remember stuff that only happened several years ago. Every memory is foggy. I tend to dissociate a lot and Ive had history of mental problems like depression, self harm, suicidal/homicidal ideation/urges, anger problems all throughout childhood, paranoia, extreme mood swings (kinda normal for teens though, right?), apathy, then at other times feel extremely sympathetic, stress issues, anxiety issues (I would have an anxiety attack almost everyday for all of 4th grade due to a phobia over weather) and now Im noticing Im having social anxiety issues.

But I want to know why I cant remember much of my childhood, Ive done research and everything says its caused by traumatic experiences then it goes into childhood sexual abuse . And I did research on that and I share a lot, if not every psychological symptom of the long term effects of childhood sexual abuse but I doubt that I was abused, because I dont know anyone who would do that to me.

Ive had recurring dreams though; like nightmares. One where Im in a small room of toys, like the walls are made of toys, and Im with my brother, and we are trying to find a small escape, and we do, but we're still scared, and the fear never ends until I wake up. Another dream is where my dad is threatening me, like I feel very scared, I feel scared typing about even these dreams, but Im running away from my dad, and hiding behind trees and jumping over fences and no one will help and no one seems to notice so I just run to my friends house and stay in there where I finally feel safe. Ive always kinda felt weird around my dad, but Im 14, dont most teenage girls feel that way? But I do remember one incident, where I was about 8 or 9 or 10, and my dad was sleeping in the same bed as me, and I woke up in a puddle of my own urine and I was so embarrassed because I never wet the bed.. But sleep for me has always been weird, one time as a kid I remember crying in my sleep.

But besides that, is there any other reason why I cant remember my childhood? And should I tell someone about this?..

I dont know if I was abused, definitely wasn't neglected, and it would seem I would have a normal childhood. I grew up in a middle class family, dad had a job, mom was stay-at-home. I went to a christian preschool, although I dont remember much of anything. I was about 5 or 6 when I went, and thats the age most people start to form memories, yet I dont remember much of anything before the age of about 7 or 8. I was very curious in like..sexual things. I started looking at porn in about maybe I think in 3rd or 4th grade. And I would do sexual things with a friend I had when I was about 9, 10, or 11 and I would be the one to initiate everything. I can just remember being very sexual as a kid. I think it started when I saw stuff on tv and thats when it all started. But Im a 14 year old girl..I think I should be able to remember stuff that only happened several years ago. Every memory is foggy. I tend to dissociate a lot and Ive had history of mental problems like depression, self harm, suicidal/homicidal ideation, anger problems all throughout childhood, paranoia, extreme mood swings, apathy, then at other times feel extremely sympathetic, stress issues, anxiety issues (I would have an anxiety attack almost everyday for all of 4th grade due to a phobia over weather) and now Im noticing Im having social anxiety issues.

But I want to know why I cant remember much of my childhood, Ive done research and everything says its caused by traumatic experiences then it goes into childhood sexual abuse . And I did research on that and I share a lot, if not every psychological symptom of the long term effects of childhood sexual abuse but I doubt that I was abused, because I dont know anyone who would do that to me.

But besides that, is there any other reason why I cant remember my childhood? And should I tell someone about this?..