Tierra

I'm going to community college soon and I've pretty much been thinking about what major I want to go to If you're going to ask my interest in general I'm not so good at math and I do want to get better at it here's my interest: I love writing,singing, animals and that's all I can think of right now I would become a vet assistant but they don't get paid as much were I live but I do want to get a job that will guarantee a job after graduation. But I have been talking to my advisor I will call him back tomorrow and things.

Okay so I'm going to start community college on the 20th of august and I've been having anxiety about the program I am in I want to get my bachelors but I am heavily undecided so I told the guy that was doing my schedule that I was undecided I was in associates of science but they took me out because I was undecided and put me in liberal arts ( which i've heard from everywhere that it is a useless degree and will lead to no career and me being broke for the rest of my life ) Honestly it's caused me so much anxiety to the point where i can't sleep or eat for me since I am more of a materialistic person and I know how I want my future to look like and in order for me to get that house built one day ( I want to get my own house built one day ) I'm going to have to have a good paying job and good income coming in.. but now I don't know what to do and since my mom said she's not taking me back up there to do that I don't know what to do other then call them almost everyday trying to figure it out I would do it on the first day I go back but I think that will be to late by then.. and she did say the only way I can really do these things is if I go to the school and I was trying to get my history class on campus a instead of online but in order for me to do that I have to go to school as well.. and now i'm pretty much stuck with a useless degree and I'm going to have to take history online which I didn't want to because I like doing things on campus and getting out the house..

so i'm ordering pants it says that but the pants says M right next to it and it won't let me click it and put it into my bag instead it forces me to click on the large...

So, my mother is finally going to get me braces (hopefully) after 3 years of asking her when i was 15 now i am 17 i will be 18 next month on the second now i'm worried because my dentist already sent a referral and things like that we do have insecure but i go to the dentist 3 days after my birthday (because my birthday is gonna be on a monday it sucks but its whatever) But i'm nervous that they will not pay for it even if my mom is willingly able to pay for it with insurance ( which she wanted to do anyway ) so i dunno i'm nervous about not getting my braces i've been asking for them for years and years and i'm scared that this will be my chance and it being blown because of my age...

Just wanted to know because i'll be wearing it on wednesday :)

Okay with me i do want to be a veterinarian or assistant anyways i was wondering if those things don't work out what are some back up jobs that make a good amount of money each year? honestly i'm not good around kids in general so teacher is out but i am trying to think of some other jobs i can do when i am older but i do want to go to college and get a degree in vet but gpa is too low so going to have to go to community college ( which sucks cause i wanted to go to a university ) and I'm not sure what other jobs i can do if vet doesn't work out considering i'm a creative type of person and animal lover but not into jobs were i have to sit down all day really but i do like jobs were its fun and not to boring in my opinion i am going to be a senior this year but as much as i want to be a vet after high school ( which i have to go to community college sense my gpa is so low ) but what are your opinions? ( if you need to know my strengths i'll put in a updated question.

I want to be a vet i'm a jr. who is going to be a senior this year i'm gonna be honest i didn't do so well my junior year because of family and emotional issues and friend issues anyways i do go to therapy for these things but i did good in 10th grade and got A's and B'S all year but i have a 2.8 gpa and i really want to go to college after high school ( because i have to many things going on high school and how to get to college and things like that ) i'm not sure what my back ups are i always wanted to be a singer ( but that's my dream job and always will be but sense none of my family really think its a job and you gotta get lucky i had to change my plans ) sense i grew up with dogs and are somewhat well with cats i thought being a vet is a good option because sense animals generally help with my social anxiety and things like that but anyways i'm not sure what i can do, and i know i do want to start applying for colleges once i go back to school and things like that but i'm not sure what to do i've been stressing out about this for hours and kind of beating myself up i know my strengths aren't in science but if i am learning about animals i'm pretty sure i'll be able to remember them and i also want to get a tutor in college sense i have a IEP and things like that so they can help me through the courses if i didn't understand something or if i need some more help in the classes i'm in and i'll feel more confident about that so it can help me achieve a lot more in college.

Okay so my mom got us this dog his small but he needs to be groomed but i'm not emotionally ready for a new dog so i want to give him to a loving family sense he is really good around kids. And my mom just wants him for protection but i rather him have people to play with him and things and him to be happy but my mom won't listen to me she thinks i'm going to get used to him but i know i won't and i explained that to her but she told me maybe my sister can have him which is fine or she'd have to take him to the pound ( which is what i don't want but that isn't my choice ) Whenever we had different dogs like my pitbull she wasn't allowed in the house and my mom never really groomed her or anything like that or any other dog we had which made me a bit upset) But i do want him to go to a loving home i have a big heart for animals but i know that i'm just not ready for another dog right now so i rather him be happy with another family and played with then him being here and causing me more pain considering that my other dog passed away last year and my brother did bring home another dog and me and her got so close but when he moved he took her but i just want the dog to be happy with a new family and i also want to give myself time and maybe one day we can get another dog but right now isn' really a good time for me emotionally. am i doing the right thing for the dog?

i'm saying this just in case my dad doesn't end up paying me a car after graduation like he did with my big brother and big sister when they went off to college. Anyways i am 17 and i am thinking about getting a job even though i really don't want to do a medium wage job i'm looking for a higher paying job so i can rank up the money more quicker and get my car before graduation which i am going to be a senior this year but i am also worried about my mental state when i get one because of my state around people and also anxiety and depression i do, want to go to college after high school and i want to be a veterinarian but i wanted to be out of college by 22 so i can start looking for a job as a vet and start making money up to move out (hopefully i have a girlfriend or boyfriend by then ) these are just my future plans after i graduate and move on from home i see nothing wrong with living with your parents after college to rank you're money up to get a house i am following in my big brothers and big sister's shoes except they got a little head start with getting a car. But again there's nothing wrong with parents buying there teenagers a car and there is also nothing wrong with letting a teenager work for there car but i don't judge honestly. Anyways i'm not looking for a extremely expensive car just a decent one. I took personal fiance in high school so i know about car payments student loans and all those sorts of things and credit balance so i'd be prepared.

Okay so i work out and this weekend i got really sick and i did go to the doctor he told me he couldn't give me any antibiotics to get rid of my runny nose and swollen glands and other things. Only for my throat and which if it comes back as strep throat ( which i am hoping it will so i can get rid of it quicker ) i can still keep taking the pills and if not stop the medication anyways, he told me i could not work out for the next 10 days sense i am recovering and even if i feel better keep taking my antibiotics for my strep throat ( if it comes back as that ) but i do feel depressed because i'm loosing all my muscles and also the ones in my glutes and i feel like i have to start from the beginning is there any advice anyone can give me ( i do want to get better don't get me wrong ) but it does make me kinda sad how i can't really work out which is fine considering i can get over the sickness better but it also comes with a cost.

okay so every time i get a relaxer in my hair i wait about 6 or 4 months for the relaxer to come out of my hair the good thing is when my hair gets dirty i have to wash it no expetions and it takes all of the perm out of my hair i do it whenever my hair needs to be washed and then i shampoo it and condition it and then my hair goes back natural faster i'm not sure if this is true or not but i have thick hair and i think whenever i wash it when it gets dirty i wash my hair every 3 months or 4 i can go a long time without washing my hair ( i don't have to wash it every week ) but once my perm is over and my hair is dirty again i am going to try to go natural i am a bit upset at my mom because she did put it in yesterday and it burnt my scalp but ya know hopefully it will go away in a week and heal ( which this is the second time this happened) and i did tell her not to give me one because i'm 17 now but it's whatever hakuna matata

I do go to therapy but whenever i go i get really mad and upset and i do talk to the lady and pretend i'm happy about it but i think what the reason is, is because i'm not used to people helping me with my problems ( which i had to deal with my problems on my own for 17 years ) btw i am 17 years old so its hard for me to accept people's advice and i'm good at asking for help but its hard because i grew up and had to deal with all my problems on my own i also have a bit of a sleeping problem like i'll wake up in the middle of the night and hear voices but my fan is running i am not sure what it is but it makes me not being able to sleep i've also had several nightmares but i wanted to know what i can do cause i'm not used to people helping me at all.

okay i'm 17 and i'm going to try to get a job during the summer time and save up and stuff so i was out of the house and stuff thinking about for awhile and excited about it and then when i got home i broke down crying and i don't think i'm ready to "grow up" as much as i want to start working my anxiety gets really bad about new environments. And i'm hoping that going to work won't affect my work out schedule. but any tips i know i'm getting older but my anxiety gets really bad around new environments and new people

I do want to eat (because i eat a lot anyway) but what scares me the most is that i ve started running which helps with weight and stuff i do sprints cause there more effective but i am terrified i don t really get that much sleep anymore i do sprints once i get home from school to from 4 to 5 and then take a shower i do feel good that i m starting to lose weight in my belly area but at the same time i am scared of gaining it all back if i get lazy i m really used to being lazy around the house does anyone have any tips? i am noticing results i ve been doing them for the past 3 days.

Okay so little back ground story: When i was a kid i was alone most of the time so i didn't really have friends in elementary school. so i was mostly lonely and always by myself anyways my teacher made me realize something i'm in 11th grade now sense i started learning how to make friends ( i know how to make friends just don't know how to let them go sense i started making them at a really late age ) anyways i lost 2 friends that where very important to me i do have more friends but these 2 where very special to me like i knew one ever sense middle school so about 7 years i knew her almost a decade and i lost her cause of her boyfriend my teacher told me i did nothing wrong its her guy and another one i lost to well long story short got a crush on her you know the rest ( we never dated anyway she eventually got back with her ex and ignored me a lot. but the thing about the one i knew for 7 years she told me she was never friends with me in the first place and all this other stuff and it made me so confused and hurt of course... anyways the thing about her i'm very affectionate and i love hugs they always make me feel better but the other friends i have dislike hugs so whenever i cry or something they don't really comfort me they just look at me weird and move on and another one doesn't like it when i cry around them.. so i basically have to hold myself together and fall apart when i get home ( if i can make it sometimes i just cry in the class room and hope no one sees me

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So i went to rue 21 today and okay the first thing i did was buy food and now i have 163 dollars left i had 171.. anyways There where two shirts that where 12:99 and you get a percent off of the other shirt which will cost 6 dollars and some change another thing is i saw some sport bras that i wanted which where the same price as the shirts and then i saw some cute shoes and i also needed some earnings sense i lost them ( but i was gonna get them another time ) And i also wanted some Adidas ( the pants ) but i'm still not sure how much those costs.. But ill probably update this once i find out how much the shoes costs.. But i'm not sure am i spending too much money? I do want to save at least 100 cause i get allowance to ( I'm good at saving by the way )

Okay So me and my best friend have been friends for 4 years... and I've told my friend about this and i do think it's true it's just people think it's "natural" and i don't think it is... Basically what my friend told me was this: "if she puts her boyfriend over you then she clearly not you're best friend and just because you've been friends for a long time doesn't mean it's healthy" I do agree with her on that because she's done this twice now she used to still talk with even whenever she had a boyfriend but now she doesn't One time i was in the library and i told her hey and she did say hey back and i was like are you gonna give me a hug she just looked at me weirdly and walked away... ( she always asked for a hug ) And my friend also told me whenever you're in a relationship you have to learn how to balance friendship and relationship because you're friends where there before her so called "boyfriend" her boyfriend has also told me that he thinks i like her but i don't i really don't she's my best friend if i caught feelings for her i would have told her a long time ago. Anyways... I need some advice on this because a lot of my friends tell me i need to let her go and same with this other girls i'm friends with them... one of my friends from middle school told me she can see it in my eyes that i would be miserable without them.. and that i need to learn how to be independent and make my own self happy But i have really bad depression which can be harder for me to be happy.

Okay so ( i'm gonna make this a long story short ) I'm going to 11th grade ( Going to be a jr. ) And Well i have a bit of a problem i didn't take biology last year because ( i have really bad anxiety and sometimes it makes me choose bad decisions... i have social anxiety ) I did tell them i wanted to change my teacher but they just put me in it next year so basically i'm gonna be a jr. around sophomores... So here's the problem i am having i'm not good at science never have been i always end up barely passing but i am good in English but anyways I've been trying and thinking of ways how to deal with this because i found out i probably have to take physical science next year... ( which is what i was spouse to take this year it's a 11th grade science class and it's the last one i need to take ) But i was hoping that i could just take both at the same time as in take one first semester and take the other one second semester i dunno i was going to talk about it with the people who do m schedule but if it doesn't want out how do i deal with it?

My mom order me some shoes and she told me it will be here 3-5 days i order them today and today right now is Saturday so when will my shoes be here?