Why do I get so emotional?
I am 25, I have been pretty successful with my life so far, college, job, boyfriend... However I tend to get overly emotional and cry very easily. For example tonight when talking to my boyfriend about his daughter and her lack of doing what she is told, I started to get emotional in my voice and then my eyes started to water. He sees this as a weakness, does not want his daughters to learn this. I try to think of other things, bite my lip, hold something cold... to get my mind off of it, but most of the time it shows pretty well that I am going to cry.
I also did this back in high school when I had to talk to a teacher about something, when I talked with my parents (a lot of times), and even at my job there were a few times that I came close.
I am really tired of it. Yes, I understand that when I watch Shall We Dance, I am always going to cry at the same exact scene, and when I read a book that is sad I am going to cry. But what else can I do to not cry on a daily or every other day basis with my boyfriend? One thing with his daughter is that when she is around the tension is high (she doesn't like me, her mom abandoned her, her step-mom abandoned her and now her dad is happy with me.... and she is a teenager) We get into fights more when she is in the house. When she is gone for the week (at her stepdad's) then we have very little problems. It sucks because he defends her so much, but when I defend myself for something, he doesn't even want to talk because I am defending and he is not attacking me. He thinks that the crying is me making it about myself, and that it shows me being selfish. I can see why he would say that, but it still doesn't make it easier to overcome.
dimitri S - you are right about my parents, strict Catholics... spanked with my father's belt... Not very confident in who I am, my mother told me all the time that I was too fat, and how impossible it is to lose weight, especially as I get older. So my confidence was shot down when I was pretty young.