almost 20 years old but look 15?
Hi, I am a 19 year old male and in a month I will be turning 20. But based on my phsical appearance I think most people would say I look 15/16, with many high school sophomores probably looking older than me. For as long as I can remember I looked way younger than I actually am just because I didn't develop at a normal rate. In fact my voice did not drop until my senior year in high school. Because of this my social life suffered immensely and I actually really did nothing in high school at all, not because I didn't want to but because I was rejected by my peers. I kept telling myself that soon I would look older and this problem would be behind me. At the beginning of 9th grade I told myself that by the end of the year I would catch up and look like everyone else and now here I am as a sophomore in college and I still often spend hours awake at night before going to sleep just thinking about how young I look. It has crushed my self confidence and my ability to meet new people because I am afraid of what they will think of me. I think a lot of the time that people give me weird looks and for instance one time last year this guy gave me this look when i was at a college event and asked me if i was in college as if it would be absolutely shocking even though we were surrounded only by students. It is so frustrating that I spend hours each week looking for solutions. Recently I was thinking that if I was able to increase my testosterone levels, I would develop faster and catch up with everyone....maybe by my junior year of college. I am going to start looking for internships and jobs soon and it is hard for potential employers to take me seriously when I look like a freshman in high school. i found an herb called tongkat ali that is supposed to increase testosterone levels naturally. my question is should i take it? what do you think? has anyone here had it before PS if you were going to answer that this is great because i will look 20 when im 40 just please dont answer because you dont understand..... i dont mean to come off as a complainer because i know i have it better than so many people but this is just affecting my life so much and i want to move past it. thanks for taking the time to read this i appreciate it