Who can help me with this urgently please?
Well you see right, last year 2010 I was pregnant and sadly I lost my baby in May 2010 due to high blood pressure *sad face* the doctor then told me that I should wait for atleast a year before I could become pregnant again. Well during my pregnancy I didn't like my mother we would always argue because she always had me under pressure. So now after all of these I manage to console myself and told myself to be strong. But now my mother does not want me to become pregnant now because she feels that the people around me will think bad of me.
So now do you think I should ignore my mom and just make a baby or should I listen to her and stay sad because the thing I keep on getting the thoughts of my baby because she was a very big baby of 7months and 2 weeks and every time I get her pic in my mind and right after that I fall into depression like now I am so sad that I just feel like ending my life at some point because I always wonder why do I always want to please people and be sad at the end of the day.
What can I do to stop pleasing people and start thinking of me first?