Failure at life?

I'm 18, overweight, live in a poor household (financially and figuratively), have never had a girlfriend or job, I think about suicide all the time and I'm no good at anything. Any important test in life I've either failed or JUST barely passed. I dropped out of high school as a senior. I needed 24 credits to graduate and at the end of the 1st semester of my senior year (January 2014), I only had 11. I went to get my GED, I only passed 2 of the 6 tests. I tried again a month later, I passed 3. I can't drive, I failed hunters safety, I know I'm depressed by my parents won't do a thing about it. I have no motivation. The last time I was truly happy was 3 years when my professional sports team made the playoffs.

I don't know what to do anymore. All my friends from school are off to college and enjoying life. My best best friend (and crush) is planning on going to Europe for college and I can't imagine not seeing her or hanging out with her. I don't believe in god, and I'm about ready to throw in the towel. Anytime anything good happens in my life, something horrible happens to counterbalance it.

I've been to more funerals in my life than my dad has and he's 54. I'm just ready to be done. People say once you hit rock bottom, the only place you can go is up. That's not true. You can stay at rock bottom and be stuck there.

What am I supposed to do with my life? What can I do?

?2014-10-11T21:59:52Z

but see the thing is you gotta want it for you you have to go out and get it nobody else is going to do it for you I'm serious!!!just imagine yourself in the same place 10 years from now living with your parents no job overweight haven't graduated go out their ad get your ******* diploma get a girl get a job get a car got know college ******* do it!!!!set up a goal sheet 1st graduate school2ed find a foxy lady 3 get a job 4get a beater car 5figure out what you might wanna do for college it all up to u brother.if you have netflix I want you to do this right now.....what are you waiting for do it NOWWW!!!!get up grab te remote controller look it up you can also you tube the first title THE SECRET second movie I AM third movie HAPPY you will find inspiration in these movies trust me.your not a loser just unmotivated get that anger out and use it the guilt everything look up MOTOVATIONAL VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE you will be glad you did good luck man you got this I BELIVE in you πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ

Anonymous2014-10-12T02:40:34Z

Your trouble likely stems mainly from the non-encouraging environment in which you have been raised. You can be set free from this. There actually is much hope for you, even if you may not see or feel it now. Though you can have deep depression (as I have experienced that dark pit before also) you will in time be able to rise out of it. This is not going to be a long term thing. And more people care about you than you realize.

Our creator is real and has an important plan for your life, and as you come to Him you can find out that plan. There can be renewal, hope, healing and supernatural change. See the changed lives in these videos and your life can be the same. Go towards God and in time there can be real change.

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Nope2014-10-13T21:03:25Z

If you're still alive, that means you have time to try again. Suck it up, and try it the **** again until you succeed, or die trying like the rest of us.