How do I stop the suffering?

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It just seems to be no matter the circumstance I can never shake off this feeling of depression. If I see my friends yeah it helps for a few hours but when I leave I'm back to square one. **** even when I had a gf I was still feeling depressed and suicidal and she only added to it when we were together because she would give me a hard time over the dumbest things. I still am wanting a new one when I know it won't make me happy. I've started taking snus as a coping mechanism as I'm a social drinker only. This coronavirus pandemic (lockdown) is only making things worse as there is nothing to do to try and take my mind off of my thoughts.

They are ever-present and nothing is working, I just want to be free from my thoughts. Yes, this is a cry for help because I'm scared to talk to my friends about my problems because I don't want to upset them in case they're going through anything similar. It's hard for me to get my thoughts out over the phone as well due to me having ASD. The only hobby I really have at the minute is watching football (soccer) on the TV since I'm unable to attend games at the moment.

I was exercising during the first lockdown because that's all I could've done but now my motivation to do that has completely eroded.

So all in all, I just want to know how I can erase these feelings; I just want inner peace.

bluebonnetgranny · Accepted Answer

Everyone has those thoughts, some people are just better at controlling them. I have this problem every day & find it frustrating. My mind just wanders rapently with thoughts that take me away from what I am doing. I can be watching the weather on TV & my mind will wander & I didn't catch what temperament is going to be today.

I am a crafter & find that if I get myself busy doing something I need to concentrate on I can do it without the thoughts. The thing is to get highly focused on something. A little thc helps too.

I am a crafter & find that if I get myself busy doing something I need to concentrate on I can do it without the thoughts.  The thing is to get highly focused on something.  A little thc helps too.

THE BANNIBAL ONE · Answer

Did you see a doctor?
He will either help or send you somewhere.
It sounds like depression.

John · Answer

As you have plenty of time on your hands, had you considered having a go at reading the Bible? If you start with the Gospels, that will give you plenty to think about, and you might find it points you towards some answers. I guess that for a lot of people, the root of their depression is a lack of meaning in their life or, in other cases, a sort of guilt or shame about something, and those are some of the things which the Gospels address.

How do I stop the suffering?

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