I would like to know how many people in todays society were cast out by their family because of extremely?

poor choices made in adolescence. I was an awful child and never realized this fact until I became pregnant and understood how a true parent feeels. I acted out because ever since I was five my mom told me if she would have had an abortion when she was pregnany with me if she would have divorced my dad 2 months earlier. She divorced him when she was 7 months pregnant and at that time she was too far along to obtain an abortion legally. She even tried to talk me into having an abortion during both of my pregnancies (first unplanned, second planned) what nerve! And yet I find myself missing her and my adopted father everyday that they dont talk to me. My children only have a grandma(dads side)because their grandpa passed away last year. I feel like this is so unfair to them. My parents want nothing to do with me or my family. Am I the only one faced with this? I tried to attone for my bad choices, but nothing I could do would make up for everything bad I did in their eyes.