ecstasy addiction.. please dont judge.?

Hey, I've been exactly where you are right now. I went through a phase in my life where I took countless pills and still was only up for a couple of hours. I took it every other day, or close to that, at least twice a week for a year. I felt myself spiraling out of control. I kept trying to quit, but couldn't. I moved away and went somewhere that wouldn't let me near drugs. I had to be away from all the people and places that I had done it. I had to be somewhere where there was NO WAY I could get my hands on it, no matter how much I wanted it. Still, over four years later, I think about it. I have dreams every now and then that I'm rolling and I wake up disappointed and upset because I'm sober. It is soo hard of an addiction to break. You have to get yourself away, if you have to then go to rehab. And when you get out, stay away from the people and places from before you went in. Move away if you must, and stay away from techno clubs and raves. I still have a hard time in a club where techno is playing. You have to build a life away from what you had before, and focus on that. Remind yourself of all you have to lose if you lapse back into old habits. Good luck. If you need any more info, feel free to e-mail me.

I went through a year doing ecstacy regularly and only stopped when it nearly killed me (I stopped breathing on 3 occasions but was aware of everything around me....including being resucitated).

Firstly, ecstacy doesn't cause a physical addiction (like alcohol or cocaine where you can die trying to get off it), it causes a psychological addiction where you make yourself believe you need it and want it and even enjoy it. This is often through a reward cycle where you take the pills, feel good (the reward) and then whenever you want to feel good you take more. This is the reason for a majority of addictions and the reason people say "she's just doing it again to chase that first high."

You have a few options:

(A) You need to work hard to find something else that makes you happy and excited and carefree, be it a hobby, a sport, a new job, writing, studying etc.

(B) I suspect you don't go out and do ecstacy on your own (because it's not fun if you're not around others to enjoy the buzz) so I suggest you find a new group of friends who DON'T do ecstacy nor any other drug (for example, if you trade your ecstacy friends for pot friends....guess what you'll take up next!). Finding a new circle to hang out in will make it easier to stop because currently this is seen as socially acceptable to whoever you're with and you need to retrain your brain to recognise that it is not socially acceptable.

(C) The psychological addiction is still as serious as a physical one and often needs a professional in drug and alcohol abuse to help you kick the habit. I recommed either rehab (if you feel it is affecting your life to a bad enough degree) or regular counselling with a drug and alcohol specialist. Attempting to fight this on your own will only result in relapse and failed attempt after failed attempt (as you have seen because you can't go more than 2 weeks without it).

You obviously want to make changes in your life and have even gone up to 2 weeks without the drug. The thing is, those feelings you described won't go away. You won't just "get over it" and wake up one day and forget you ever did it. Get professional help now before you do further damage to your body and your life.

You need at least 21 days to break a habit or addiction. Your 2 week stint just ain't going to make it. Like a nicotine or an alcohol addiction, you will always have the "urge" to go back to get that smooth, comfortable high. However you should find some "positive" or "opposite" addiction to counter balance the one that you feel with ecstasy. If you can't do the 21 days cold turkey, then you are going to have to get some help.

okay so i was addicted to drugs about a year ago, and ecstatsy was one that i did everyday...first off once you decide that it is time to quit, and that you no longer wish to keep doing ecstasy stop everything. dont do anymore drugs, and also get away from everyone in your life that does drugs. it will be a lot easier without that temptation around. then you need to find a sober friend that will help you through the hard part. Find someone that will keep you busy, and also will listen to you. you need to find someone that will not "allow" you to do drugs. then once you are past the part of the cravings, then you will be fine.

You will probably get many answers from people voicing their opinions. I do not know anything about ecstasy but my advice would be to NOT take advice from anyone that hasnt been through it before. Only people who have had the same addiction as you will know what you are going through. Its great you want to do something about it :)

Please stop now you are going to have to go cold turkey.The long term effects are the worse.Just think in a few years time you could have all sorts of problems-short term memory loss-forgetting things all the time-very hard to concentrate all have a big impact when you are older and have a family to look after.Think ahead,psyche yourself and be strong and if needed DO ask for help GOOD LUCK

Everyone makes choices in life. Whether you make good or bad choices, nobody should judge you. It is your decision to take ecstasy... but if you know what the right thing to do is, then you need to get help.

I know this because it is obvious that your life will get worse if this continues. Good luck.

You are a drug addict.. Many people are... But you are the ONLY person that can fix this. Sorry, no one needs to judge you.. you are doing that to yourself. Be kind to yourself, love youreself and learn to forgive yourself. You are not the only one who suffers from addiction, there is nothing to feel bad about (you feel bad enough..right?)... do what you know you need to do. Addiction to (whatever) is a terrible way to suffer. It will always be with you, whispering in your ear... don't listen.. adddiction always lies... nothing good will come of it. Your life depends on it.

Well this might not seem to be the healthiest thing to do but it wont do as much damage to you like ecstasy, but marijuana helps alot, and it should kick away your habit.

I would like to say your one of the few people on this that actually want to get off it, join a support group or do alot of exercise