Why has everything gone so wrong?

Things will get better! they always do! focus on the positive. A natural therapy remedy that I always use is walking or jogging...go for a long walk (2 hours) and your mind will be so clear when you come back and likely you will have a new appreciation for life! try it please, it really does work. focus your energy on exercise and maybe a hobby you enjoy!

hang in there!!

My heart goes out to you, you have suffered so much and it has all become too much for you. There is a light there, I know it's very dim but you can reach it. Firstly, go back to your Doctor and asked to be referred to a counsellor. Tell your GP exactly what you have written here,they will hopefully adjust your medication to help you cope better. Talking therapy is a wonderful thing in my experience,you need to deal with the past and then your future will be something to look forward to. List on paper all the people who love you,also,list the things that make you smile,like walking on a beach. The trick is to try and find one thing positive and concentrate on that.

As for your Dad,try and talk to him again,he may blame himself for not protecting you.

Stay strong, I'm so glad my suicide attempt failed all those years ago, I truly hope you feel the same way in time, I'm sure a lot of people would miss you. Take care.x

oh man. i almost cried when i was reading your question...i feel so bad for you...i somewhat know what you are going through...i have known all my life that i was gay, but i am afraind that if i come out, my family will abandon me...to make me forget about it, i would just go and hook up with guys and have sex, and i regret every moment of that...i have thought many times that killing myself would be the answer, but it's not...that's the worst thing anyone can do...i know there are people in your life that care for you, and it would be devastating if you just took your life like that...i would never want to put my family through that...so what i started to do was talk to a counselor here at school...it has helped me so much..i dont feel 100% better, but i'm getting there...you just need to find someone you feel comfortable with and talk to them...whether it be a friend, family member, or a therapist...trust me, it helps...i wish you the best and i know things will get better for you, i just do...=)

Bipolar or not life is what you make it! Things happened yes and they will but things happen for a reason all that you have been through only makes you strong and it builds your character and personality. I am bipolar as well and It's o.k. to feel as you do but you have to know deep in your heart that this too shall pass! Remember when in the dark what God told you in the light... Find your inner strength and be strong only you have the power to change things around and not let things eat you up and get the best of you!!! Was going to just give you a link but instead I did it for you!!!! and this is what card I pulled!!!!!!

(I understand your situation but the longer you allow yourself to feel this way the worse things are goning to get)!!!!!

This is YOUR card!!!!!

Ice-olation

We are miserable because we are too much in the self. What does it mean when I say we are too much in the self? And what exactly happens when we are too much in the self? Either you can be in existence or you can be in the self--both are not possible together. To be in the self means to be apart, to be separate. To be in the self means to become an island. To be in the self means to draw a boundary line around you. To be in the self means to make a distinction between 'this I am' and 'that I am not'. The definition, the boundary, between "I" and "not I" is what the self is--the self isolates. And it makes you frozen--you are no longer flowing. If you are flowing the self cannot exist. Hence people have become almost like ice-cubes. They don't have any warmth, they don't have any love--love is warmth and they are afraid of love. If warmth comes to them they will start melting and the boundaries will disappear. In love the boundaries disappear; in joy also the boundaries disappear, because joy is not cold.

Osho Zen: The Path of Paradox, Volume 1 Chapter 5

Commentary:

In our society, men in particular have been taught not to cry, to put a brave face on things when they get hurt and not show that they are in pain. But women can fall into this trap too, and all of us at one time or another might feel that the only way to survive is to close off our feelings and emotions so we can't be hurt again. If our pain is particularly deep, we might even try to hide it from ourselves. This can make us frozen, rigid, because deep down we know that one small break in the ice will free the hurt to start circulating through us again. The rainbow-colored tears on this person's face hold the key to breaking out of this 'ice-olation'. The tears, and only the tears, have the power to melt the ice. It's okay to cry, and there is no reason to feel ashamed of your tears. Crying helps us to let go of pain, allows us to be gentle with ourselves, and finally helps us to heal.

Does it make sence??????

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Just tackle one thing a time. Take A day at a time too. Go to the doctor and see if you can get some support. Don't give in. Things will change for you. Just take a little time.

All the best.

I admit that I have felt like that at times, like, "what is the point of living, if life is going to be so miserable?"

This is going to sound like cheap religious hype, but you have to believe me, God has seen me through so many hard times, and has helped me to heal and move on. Through my parent's divorce, my own separation from an abusive husband, and several other things (and my husband's disloyalty), and yet God has brought us through, and brought my husband around 180! Now he studies the Bible and truly tries to live right, a complete night and day difference. Just an example of what the power of God does. There were many more things we were going through, but it's too lengthy.

Please, go buy a Bible (or I can send you a free one), and in it I promise you will find hope. God loves you, and He aches to see you hurting. He can lead you to His family (the church of Christ), and they will help you too.

You can heal, and you can have hope - Through Him. I wish you the best, God Bless, and remember He loves you!

Dont give up, if i can keep going after my soulmate, best friend, mother and father died within 3yrs so can you. Now when i wake up i see every day as a fresh start.