queenjoef

My ex and I broke up almost a year ago and there is not a single day when I don't think about what I have lost. A month before it all went wrong for us I lost our baby. I didn't tell him until we broke up and we never talked about it.

I have had a lot of therapy in the past year to help deal with my miscarriage and also to help with my ongoing battle with borderline personality disorder. Despite the fact that I actually feel stronger than I have within myself than I have in a long time I still miss him so much.

I feel as though I have lost my soul mate. There is a part of me that feels dead inside without him. I trusted him more than anyone and still love him so much.

will this pain ever go away? The thought of feeling this empty for the rest of my life scares me so much. I can't imagine ever being with anyone else. He was my everything and now he won't even acknowledge my existence.

I used to self harm and that was hard for him but I don't anymore. I just want him back.

My dad has just been diagnosed with prostate cancer and I am really worried. How treatable is it?

Last week I found out that the man who raped me 10 years ago killed himself. I have never really gotten over what happened, mailny because Iended up pregnant and subsequently had an abortion. I have lived with the guilt ever since.

I never told my family until very recently. I told my dad after recently breaking up with my ex. He was the only person I have really been able to open up to about it so when he finished with me I knew I had to tell someone. My dad's way of dealing with it was to shut down and stop talking to me.

When I heard that my rapist had died I was totally confused. All of this time I have wanted justice and now I feel cheated. I really needed someone to talk to. I tried phonong my ex but he made it clear that he wants nothing to do with me. My dad will barely speak to me and I don't trust anyone else enough. I don't know what to do now. I know if my ex would talk to me I would be able to make sense of it all. I feel so messed up.

What do I do?

My bf broke up with me 2 months ago. It has been 2 of the hardest months of my life - and trust me that is saying something. I miss him so much. I don't know how to move on from any of this. I keep thinking that I ma ok but then I have a day or a couple of days when all I can think about is him. I miss him so much my heart could burst. Since we broke up I have been in hospital three times and was signed off work for a bit. I juts can't picture my life without him in it but he won't even speak to me at all now. He was the man I wanted to marry. He was the only man that I have ever really trusted. Every time I try to think about the fact that I may never see him again makes me feel sick. I just don't know what to do anymore.

My whole life appears to have gone so wrong recently. It has been one thing after another.

First I had a miscarriage, then my new job was at threat from being closed down, then my bf finished with me out of the blue, then I took two overdoses but neither of them worked so now my liver is not working properly, then I had to tell my dad that 10 years ago I was raped by his best friend and he doesn't really believe me.

I don't know what to do. I can't end it all because I tried and failed. I can't talk to the one person I always could talk to because he dumped me and my doctor has put me on lithium. I feel so lonely.

I have bpd which makes everything so much harder to cope with. I feel so alone right now. I have no idea how to start peicing things back together. I just want to go to bed and never wake up.

What am I supposed to do now?

have been with my bf for 10 months now and i love him to bits. i just don't know if he feels the same. when i told him i loved him all he said was thank you.

he is very caring and thoughtful, although has been slightly less attentive recently. i am not sure if this is down to his stress at work or coz he is starting to go off me.

i have never really considered marriage and children before but really feel i could do that with him. i am scared he will break my heart and tell me he doesn't feel the same way.

how do i know and what do i do if he doesn't love me back?

i want to take my bf away for a weekend of pampering. he has had a tough time of it at work and has been so good to me recently that i thought i would treat him. any hotel suggestions?

I have just spent the weekend with my bf in berlin. it was a present from him for my birthday. we haven't been seeing each other for very long and i was a little bit overwhelmed with his generosity but i went. we were having such a good time for the first couple of days but then i got drunk and messed up. i am a self harmer and have a mental illness. i have been honest with him since the start about it and so far he has been a great support.

we went out and had a couple of drinks but i ended up having a black moment and lashed out at him. i ended up cutting myself in the hotel room. he was understandably upset and we had a row. he barely spoke to me all the way back, although did sit and hold my hand on the plane. i know i have really hurt him and think he may be about to finish things because i am too much to cope with. i know i am totally in the wrong but i am really starting to fall for him and will be devestated if he finishes this. have i messed this up? what do i do now?

i am looking to get back in touch with this guy. i have not seen him for ten years. the last i heard he was living in berwick upon tweed and has about to get married. can you help?

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i have borderline personality disorder and i am currently being treated for it. however, it can take over sometimes i can lash out at people, especially when drunk. (i know i should not drink). i have also recently starting seeing a guy. he is lovely and so patient. he has supported me a great deal recently. however at the weekend we went to a party so he could meet my friends but i drank too much and flipped. i started behaving like a total cow to this guy. he knows that it is related to my illness but it freaked him out and now he wants some space. i am so annoyed with myself. i have tried to apologise but he said he needs some time to decide whether he can cope with my illness or not. have i totally blown it now? i would be really sad if he finished what is actually a really good thing.

i feel like i am falling apart. i have a mental condition which causes me to have constant mood swings. i can be really paranoid and self harm a lot. i crave attention but at the same time can't talk to my doctor about my problems. i don't want to take my pills but i do want to get better. i feel so trapped most of the time. what do i do?

i have recently fallen for a friend of mine. he is a great guy, but is incredibly shy with women in a romantic sense. in fact despite being 28 he has never had a serious relationship. he and i flirt quite a bit when we are out just the two of us but when there are others there he is a lot quieter. i also know he is in love with another friend of ours but she is not interested in him at all. i want to make a move but i don't want to chase him off. our friendship means a great deal to me but i can't stop thinking about him. should i make a move and if so how should i go about it?

is it okay to make a move on a guy after having a drunken fling with his twin brother? i know his twin is not interested in me in that way now, and nor am i. however i am finding myself increasingly attracted to his borther and he and i have been flirting a great deal recently. everyone keeps tellingme he fancies me as much as i fancy him but i am not sure if it is okay to do anything about it.

is it really wrong to fall for a guy when you have already had a drunken fling with his twin brother? the brief fling didn't really mean much and i am not interested in persuing this but i have been getting on with his twin brother and i know that he likes me too. it kind of freaks me out, but at the same time would love to see what happens. what should i do?

I have been seeing this guy as friends for a couple of months. we have had a couple of drunken snogs, but are just friends. i really like him and i know he likes me, but we never seem to get it together properly. his friend said he is wary because i recently split up with my boyfriend and he did not want to get involved for that reason. how do i convince him that i really like him(i left my boyfriend for him after all) and that if we did get together it would not be because i am on the rebound? he is a really shy guy and has little confidence. i don't know how to approach the subject properly with him.

I have recently met a guy. We had a brief drunken fling, but then he called a halt to it. He said he just wanted to be friends. We have been hanging out a lot (about three or four days a week) and having a good time. There has been some flirting but nothing more. On Friday we went out with a group of people and I ended up have a drunken kiss with some other guy. My new "friend" seemed a bit annoyed. Last night I met him and he had bought me some new guitar strings (a very unexpected gift) and then got drunk and made lots of insulting comments. He was acting like a jealous boyfriend. If he does like me why does he say he just wants to be friends? I really like this guy but his mixed signals are driving me mad.