How can I ever move on?

Your dad has probably reacted like this because he's angry and feels sick that someone could do that to his little girl, we're always gonna be daddys little girl thats never gonna change.. He will have so much emotions and prob feels awful that he couldn't stop that happening to you..

You should go to your GP, they will recommend a theropist or a group you could maybe go to, where people have the same problems..

Hope everything gets better soon.. Take care!!

Not a very nice situation to be in. I would perhaps call a line that can help..perhaps samaratins or a rape phone line they can help and the people there are trained to help you talk through your situation. I wouldnt push it with your ex. If oyu are no longer together and he dosent want to help, by you calling him only makes him mad and you then loose a potential confident or friend in the future.

Talk to someone you dont know and im sure the disscussing it will help you to overcome your tragedy. If the man killed himself then i think it sounds like you have had your justice. he has perhaps been tormenting himself over what he did to you and took the cowards way out. he is in hell now. Even if you dont beleive in god whatever has happened he is dead and you still have life. Enjoy it sqeeze every inch out of it and make sure the cretin that did this to you dosent get away with ruining your life.!!!! Its a horrible thing to happen to anyone but by trying to carry on with your life and picking up the pieces makes you strong and you will in time regain your trust and happiness.

I hope and wish you all the best!

p.s having an abortion wasnt the wrong thing to do. It isnt a sin. You werent some silly girl who was sleeping around. this was a nasty horrible thing to happen to you. Noone can judge or contenplate it. Please dont torture yourself. You did the right thing x x

Well you are talking now and although I have a similar experience as you, I still haven't walked in your shoes. You will find that someone to talk to that is completely unbiased and neutral. It doesn't sound like your dad can handle this so he's not the one he probably cannot accept the fact that someone did this to you maybe he feels that he has failed you by not protecting you from this monster. However with the bad guy gone he will never hurt anyone ever again. Just remember that you and your dad are human trying to handle complex human problems . Start with your family doctor with some councilling, but whatever you do don't hold it in .good luck!!!

I am sorry for what happened to you. Though you feel guilty, this was not your fault. You need to call a rape hot line. These people are trained to help you understand the emotions you are going through. It doesn't matter that it was 10 years ago, you are still having trouble with it. I can understand where his suicide would bring up a lot of different emotions for you. They could help you understand and accept your father's reaction also. Please call for help. Good luck.

you need to go to your doctor,and ask to be refer-ed to a councillor,you need to offload this terrible crime to someone else so that you can eventually come to terms with it,your dad just cant cope with the situation,he may feel guilty that he let this happen to you. it is better to speak to someone that is not connected to you,as this often complicates matters, gud luck hun,you will need to be brave,but you can get through this,at least the slime-ball cant do it to anyone else now! oh and god is waiting for him!!

i feel really sorry for you its not your fault and your dad is wrong to not talk in my opinion its good he is dead there is no excuse for people that rape women.you sound strong you must be to have dealt with it this long.try to be happy and live your life knowing the scumbag is dead.

lots of love to you.