Ive asked this before but nobody replied?

Nick,

You are suffering from depression. You have got to put away that clown face you bring out for others and start being real here!

Hun, you need to talk to your aunt, she can get you the help you need. But, for her to believe you (as you have been putting on the happy face) ....you will need to really pour out your heart to her! Perhaps, those tears will flow and you know, we all need a good cry at times! There's nothing wrong with being human and letting yourself just be you and if that means crying...do it!

As a Christian, I want you to know that you can always pray and ask God for help as well. He does hear our prayers and He will guide you as He loves you more than anyone could ever love you! Knwoing this and experiencing this, in my life, has been the greatest source of strength!

I will be praying for you and know that I too, want you happy and whole! I DO CARE! So does, GOD!

First of all God loves you so much and has help for you. I too was depressed for so many years, just wanting to end my life all the time, because of all the pain. I did go on medication and felt so much better. The medications Will make you feel normal, not weirded out. He can heal you also. He did me this last January 15. I had a dream, I saw Jesus and when I woke up I knew I was healed. I threw my medicine away. I was not working, which I was not able to do because of the panic attacks Now I can hold down a job and enjoy interacting with others. I would contact a free clinic for mental health in your area if you do not have insurance. God has provided us with medication so that we do not have to suffer. I know what you mean about putting on a mask, we are great at doing that when we don't want people to see us hurting. Please try to talk to your aunt. Just explain it the way you have here. There is hope for you, there is God that loves you. He will see you through.

God loves you. He wants you to be happy. He knows what has happened to you in your life. You can look up in the Bible to see what He says about you. Jeremiah 29:11-13 says how He feels and says to talk to Him and you will get to know Him if you try with all your heart. He promises that.

I will tell you 2 things that will make you MUCH happier....it might not sound like much but just try it and email me to tell me how it works OK?

1) Write down 5 things that you are thankful for. Then write down 5 things that you don't like....and write something about those things that you can be thankful for......like this....If I have a friend that said something bad about me....well, I can be thankful that sometimes that person is a good friend. Do this every day for a week and see how you feel.

2) Find one person each day that you can do something for...maybe make it a suprise thing.

I really would like to hear how it goes after about a week...and I will say a prayer for you to feel much better ok?

((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))

† On-call Prayer Warrior †

You should tell your Aunt how you're feeling because you are depressed and unless you get help it won't get any better! IF you feel that you can't go to your aunt go to the school counselor they are used to dealing with these situations and they will help you to talk to your aunt and they can make sure that you get the help that you need. I know that it's possible because I have a 15year old in therapy and She started with the school psychologist in fact when she graduated she just continued with her at the clinic she had out side of the school she's been seeing her for almost 5 years now. Talk to someone asap tomorrow if you can talk to the school counselor and your aunt. One or the other will help you probably both of them.

Believe it or not, I understand what you're going through.

I'm 14, and I used to be really depressed and upset every single day. I sat at the computer for about 8 hours straight, doing nothing important. I started to get fatter, and I felt bad because I didn't have any friends at the time and all I did was cry, go on the computer or think about how crappy my life was.

What did I do? I knew I was wasting my life going on the computer, and moaning. So I fought myself against the computer, and tried to befriend some new people. It was hard, but in the end, VOILA! I’m a truly happy person. Sure it gets rough sometimes, but it’s a million times better than being sad.

NO MEDICINE! You can get through depression yourself. Trust me. Get yourself away from the games. Throw them away! Or keep them inside a room or whatever and LOCK THEM inside, and ask your aunt to help you hide it and tell her it's for your sanity. =P

When you need them back, your aunt can give them back. But try to develop a new life. Get back on focus. Just think, "I'm wasting my life moaning about how I waste my life."

Try to find a hobby or something that you like that's more sport-focused. That way you can lose weight, and have something cool to do too that makes you happy. If you can, join a camp or join a group lesson. You’re bound to make friends too!

Also, try not to lie. I know it’s hard. I know everyone lies. But lie with a good reason. Lie in life threatening problems, but do it the right way. Otherwise don’t lie. You’ll feel better, your aunt will trust you, and you’ll be a good person. Do everything with a good purpose. The next time you’re about play games, think about it. Is this going to help me in life? The next time you’re about to diss God. Is this going to help me? Obviously, no. So don’t do it.

There is a God. Trust me. He helped me through everything, and He's trying to help pull you out of your depression phase, but you can't let Him do it by himself. Do whatever it takes. NO MEDICINE though. NO GOING EMO. If you go emo, you're be depressed for your whole life, get stupid worthless cuts, and waste your life being sad.

I put a lot of effort into this piece of advice, and I think it’s the best advice I can give you. I know you can get through depression. You can do this. You’re not by yourself, because even though I don’t know you, I’m cheering you on.

i know how you feel i've been there. meds will help and you can ask for low doses too that way you know that you're not over medicated. talk to your aunt tell her the truth about how you really feel. make her understand by explaining everything clearly. also i found that keeping a notebook helps too. every night before you go to bed write in your notebook everything that happened that day, how you felt that day ect. after you've done this for about a week have your aunt read it and then ask her to talk to you about what you wrote and try to figure out what is the main reason for your unhappiness. good luck

Hi Nick...Have you spoken frankly with your parents? Sometimes medicine is necessary for a little while. Sometimes all we need is a trained professional to guide us. Your doctor, school counselor, church youth leader or any trusted adult can get the ball rolling. Speaking with a therapist helps loads! Soon your thirteen year old memories will seem insignificant because they will be shadowed by your incredible now. Sounds like you are ready for a positive step toward the new you. Excellent choice, now go get him!

i feel for u

and no ones going to know what your true feelings are if you hide it

like me, u have grown used to hiding your true and it comes naturally

but u know, eventually someone is going to find out and wonder why u did nt show it at all

it doesnt go unnoticed forever

its better for u to tell your aunt how u feel than for her to find out by herself..

just keep a journal to let your feelings out, and maybe, they will escape you.. it helped me

... and about God.. i kno that it seems like hes putting us through this torment.. and sometimes i wonder if hes even there

but i know that he is.. because i was like you, and i got better

i couldnt do it alone

now im not sayin u have tobecome like one of those 700 club people, but God really can help

there is a reason why everything happens the way it does

dont let time escape you during the time u are depressed

people waste much time on their feelings of depression because they dont make and effort to get better

you can do it :)

feel free to mail me at klrox92@yahoo.com

You are depressed. Suffering from depression is difficult, and spirals downward and causes you to feel hopeless and pessimistic. Seek help from your doctor, find a support group, and look into therapy. I have suffered depression for years and years, and I can tell you, it won't get better until you take steps to help yourself. Good luck, I hope things turn around for you.

Sounds like you have a lot of emotional and mental pain and sadness to deal with. That is what therapy is for, to talk about that. Think about going to see a therapist, a psychologist preferably.