y am i constantly fighting with myself? y do I want 2 do what I don't want 2 do?

I think you are normal. What you describe is the human condition. The Apostle Paul said, "the good that I would, I do not, the evil that I would not, that I do." Everyone has the same struggles if they care about doing the right thing. I would hazard that the people above who do not relate to you do not have as much responsibility as you and do not care as much as you. Allow yourself to be imperfect at least several times a day and if you believe in God, pray for wisdom.

its like you took the words right out of my mouth

my thoughts are the same

the point is your Family

you are the back bone of the family

and you are what is holding everything together

kind of like glue.....

it is very hard to not do what you want to do

try to give yourself credit for

doing what u need to do instead of what you would love to do

I struggle every day

wake up get the kids ready get myself ready have all 4 kids

to school before 7:45 am then get in the office by 8 work all day till 5 then go home laundry dinner homework with the kids

then finally a little sleep that is when I'm not up worrying about things then get up and do it again I

find myself actually looking extremely forward to the weekends

which never seem to last long at all!!!

I guess we don't have all the right answers or maybe don't even know what the right answer is

I'm here if u ever need to vent just email me

have a great day and remember tomorrow is Friday :)

life is not so hard jesus christ! if u crave a smoke buy the patch and suck on something thats lik a cig but no nicoteen. drink but dont get drunk! dont eat a chocolate covered triple toping lah blah blah have a peice of chocolate, make yourself want to be energetic so you dont want to lay around all day sign up for a class, keep yourself busy and keep yourself leveled the trick is to think of whats best for you and not taking everything to far

It's just life. No ones is easy. We must simply do the best we can at any particular moment. Give yourself a break every once in a while, no one is perfect or expected to be. Calm down, take some deep breaths, you will be OK. I swear.

Have a Wonderful Wednesday :)

everyone has the same struggles. id like to smoke but i know i don't want the long term side effects so i've stopped, same with drinking. and id really like to eat a big hot fudge sunday right now, but i know i shouldn't. it is how life is. don't stress over the little things.

i used to be like you, just relax, do tai chi (helps calsm and relaxes you) and be ignorant sometimes, coz..ignorance is bliss my friend,

if this is a mental condition or psychologicla, go see a doctor

i mean, get your life back on track man, its nor that hard, (well for some but you can still snap out of it natrually)

and dont be a worry wart

Maybe its because your always thinking about everything.

You should sometimes give in to your thoughts.

Do want you want to do,theres no one to boss you.

Your an adult that can do anything!

Of course make sure to follow the law.

thats alot of pressure you got going on,you deserve to be good to yourself once in a while

you got amazing self control!!!!

well the up-side is that your setting a great example for your kids

OMG how do you do it?

I'll pass this message along to my friend's brother who's stationed in Iraq...maybe he can share it with the other soldiers to build morale so that they can clearly see the destruction, death and fear of death that they deal with everyday is trivial compared to your real problems.

You deserved an award for being so strong in this difficult time in your life...

Oh for the record I wasn't trying to be mean...I was just being overly sarcastic to solidify my point.

id sya midlife crisis here