What's wrong with me...?

Dear, please, in Maine phone books anyway, there is a phone number for a Crisis Hot line. You can get the number free from the 800 directory: Crisis Hot line in Maine 18005551212, I am disabled and down for the night or I

would (am wheelchair bound) look it up for you. I don't know where you are, but they might be able to help. Don't give up! Try calling a crisis line, if to only have someone to talk to dear, don't go it alone, sounds like you're on overload as it is, and the more you wonder, the more questions you create to questions. Get some answer to just one question dear, one at a time, it's progress. Good luck, Bless you, at least you have strength to ask for help, you will probably get all kinds of answers here, I believe folks try to help, only so much we can do Dear, we don't know if we not educated for what sounds like, a lot of questions to be generic to you, it wouldn't be fair. Don't give up though, help is there for you.

Hi Hunni

They are all symptoms of depression as i have suffered most of them myself. Dont give up on looking for a good Psychologist. I have one and i think the world of her. She has helped me through the hardest time of my life and im forever greatful. You really need to find one that will sit there and listen as long as you need as you pour your heart out. There is also a new rebate scheme through medicare (if you live in Australia) called the Mental Health Scheme which enables you to seek counselling sessions for much less than you would normally pay. You'll need a referral from your GP to start this medicare scheme.

Seems to me that you really need someone to have a good talk with about your previous physical abuse otherwise it will continue to remain a huge part in your life and affect the way you do every day tasks now and in the future.

Dont stop taking your medication suddenly. It can have worse effects by doing this. What i am curious about is why you've been on so many different medications. I tried Zoloft a few years ago (it worked brilliantly) but it seemed to make my fatigue problem worse so now i take Lovan which i find works well also. If you can't find a good Psychologist then contact your local Mental Health Team. They are fantastic at what they do also so dont give up.

I know what's it like to feel that no one cares and everytime you want to talk to someone they're never there when you need them which only makes the situation worse. Let me tell you though, that YOU'RE NOT ALONE!! If you ever need any other help in getting through this then dont hesitate to contact me and i'll do my best to pull you through.

Take care hun and goodluck.

I think you sound like you have more than one diagnosis. Is it possible are bipolar with out the manic phases? Yes.

I think what is important is NOT the label or name of what you have, but finding something that work to improve your behavior.

If you have only been on different meds, no matter how many, but stayed on them just 2 or 3 weeks, then you wasted the time of the doctor, you wasted money from your insurance company, but mostly, you are cutting yourself short of having a positive and good existence.

Medications take six weeks or longer to work. They really suck when you are going on them; you feel worse, you think they aren't working, you think you know better than the doctor does...but...they DO work AFTER six weeks. You need to take the time with each med to find out if it works, otherwise, you'll keep cutting, thinking of cutting, have anxiety, and everything else you have listed above.

Give yourself the chance to be well! You deserve it.

Spend time on yourself by reading books about mental illness, seeing a therapist or pyschiatrist (or both), and take the medications they suggest for long enough to see if they even work. 2-3 weeks isn't even a start.

I wish you good luck!

The thing about chemicals that cause hallucinations, is they cause psychological flash backs. You see something that reminds your unconscious mind of the hallucination you HAD, and it triggers a false vision, a memory of a hallucination.

They fade, just keep it in mind that they MIGHT happen.

Did I give you the idea of using lucid dreaming as a tool? Part of it is doing reality testing when awake, to get into the habit and make it easier to know when you are dreaming. I always thought it'd help with hallucinations too.

I use it for a stress buster, but I honestly think it'd help you out.

Good Grief! Serious depression and not having the right medication.

I could give you a huge list, but depression can do all of these things to you. From Paranoid-Schizophrenia to Obsessive-Compulsive to Bi-Polar Anxiety. I'll bet you even get panic attacks. You might find a better doctor at your local mental health clinic.

I dealt with all these things before they finally found a medication, I could tolerate.

Well it could not be one diagnosis, it is probably a little bit of multiple disorders. The history of abuse is probably the root cause that you need to deal with (the cutting and blaming of yourself is common). I think medications in addition to serious consouling perhaps even hypnosis to go back to the blocked details. Its very good you have an understanding about your situation. You can get better, you are NOT mentally disabled forever. It may take time but keep working on it!

all those drug you took,

you have to be weeded off!

of them. did your

doctor know how long

you took them and got off?

you need to talk to your

doctor. don't do any thing stupid.

if you believe in god, your pray for help.

you will be all right,

your abuse when you were young has a great deal of effect on you.

but whoever you are a

gift from god, had

forgiven of your sins.

so don't be so hard on yourself.

god bless laney

talk to a different phys,

Have you been check for bi-polar disorder... Find a doctor... get some help...

well it's definately not depression, sounds more like schitzophrenia.

your symptoms sound awful ,i really feel 4 u , all i can suggest is pray to jehovah , ask him to help u deal with this terrible load your carrying.