I am thinking about getting a lobectomy (surgery - removal of the blockage that is causing my seizures)!?

I am thinking about getting a lobectomy (surgery - removal of the blockage that is causing my seizures)!

Before I started having seizures people looked up to me: children, teens, peers, even my in-laws. Came to me asking my advice about things, wanting my help, trusting me with their children, wanting to come over all the time, etc.. Once I began having seizures everything went down hill. My mother-in law took guardianship of my children away from me; children started looking at me differently, friends no longer wanted to be seen with me, my children are embarrassed of me, and my husband does not want to be seen with me. My husband allows my daughter to tell me what to do. He allows her to do as she pleases and not have to listen to a word I say. I am thinking of going through with this surgery so that I will never have these seizures again.

By having this surgery I would be risking being paralized. The nerves in my brain are located differently than the normal brain. Where the blockage is operates every part of my body except my speach. I have memory on both sides of the brain. 80% of the human brains Right side operates left and left operates right and you have memory on only one side of the brain. With me it is different (completely different). If the surgery comes out fine though I will be able to drive again, work again, and maybe people will look at me the way they did 11 1/2 yrs. ago. Heck maybe they will look at me even better than they did then and now, just because I accomplished such a risk.

I was just released from the Hospital yesterday, after four days of EEG testing done on me. They have found that it is very possible for me to come out of the surgery fine. I am still a little afraid, but want my seizures to stop soo desperately. It looks as if this may be my only way. I know the final decision is really up to me, but what I want to know from you is "What would you do?"