am i wrong ?? (10 pts)?

okay .. i got engaged a year ago to a doctor , he was nice n everything was fine between us .. he gave me his mail password n i told him that i trust him n i dnt want it but he said okay but just know it .. did i mention that he was so nervous n jealous all the time ?? okay he was nervous n jealous , this caused alot of problems but everytime he says he was sorry n he will try to control it ,, we used to fight abt this like everyday n he *** to say sry n i accept his apology ,, then we are fine .. but one day i decided that i wont accept his apology n i will pretend to be angry for 2 days or somthing so he wont do it again .. n i did this , he kept callin somtimes i answer n somtimes no .. n i told him that its over n he has to 4get abt me he said me "can u remember anything good i've done to u so u can 4give me 4 it ??" i said nothing , he said maybe u need sometime to think abt it so plz take ur time n im waitin ..after 2 days i was openin his mailbox to get a frnd's email 4m it n i found out that he has been talkin with another 2 gurls n he got 4000 mails all of them r porny pics .. so i broke up with him but i didn telll him abt the mail , he think that its bcoz bein nervous n jealous .. i didn tell anyone else cuz i believe that we are humans n humans make mistakes but i cant live with a person like this cuz i will never trust him .. now he tells everyone that i've been so mean with him cuz i broke up with him 4 no reason .. he & his friends r always talkin abt how horrible i am to do this .. many other stuff happened n i really feel soo bad .. thats wat i shud get 4 keepin his secret !! .. whenever he is mentioned between me & anyone i say that he is a gr8 , decent & amazin guy but just things didn work with us .. i cant stop cryin & feelin down .. wat can i do ?? do i tell everyone why i did this or wat ? thnx 4 ur help ..