I always fear some one is out to get me what is wrong with me?

Dont listen to the one person, it is NOT schizophrenia.

It sounds to me like you could possibly have a slight paranoia disorder this is a long standing mis-trust and long standing speciousness of others. (their motives, actions, or what they think)

(Stolen from wiki)

his personality disorder is characterized by at least 3 of the following:

(a) excessive sensitiveness to setbacks and rebuffs;

(b) tendency to bear grudges persistently, i.e. refusal to forgive insults and injuries or slights;

(c) suspiciousness and a pervasive tendency to distort experience by misconstruing the neutral or friendly actions of others as hostile or contemptuous;

(d) a combative and tenacious sense of personal rights out of keeping with the actual situation;

(e) recurrent suspicions, without justification, regarding sexual fidelity of spouse or sexual partner;

(f) tendency to experience excessive self-importance, manifest in a persistent self-referential attitude;

(g) preoccupation with unsubstantiated "conspiratorial" explanations of events both immediate to the patient and in the world at large.

THIS DISORDER EXCLUDES SCHIZOPHRENIA AND DELUSIONAL DISORDER.

Anyways, it is generally found in about 2 percent of the population.

Because of reduced levels of trust, it could be hard to treat this, and most of the time anti depressants and anti-anxiety medication is provided

OR

It could be a social anxiety disorder, which is a lot more common in people.

Which you can find out more information about here:

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/social-anxiety-di...

However, if your not nervous in front of people, it would be more along the lines of the first option.

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Oh yeah, and it is NOT ptsd. So once again, don't listen to that person. PTSD devolps when an extremely traumatic event happens, and is followed by extreme paranoia of not only people, but the world. PTSD Is often times marked by vivid hallucinations and delusions.

This is very common among war veterans.

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I know that medication controls the manic highs and the manic lows, but if you ever encounter a 'high' do you still feel paranoid?

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Well, I think that it is either a possible side affect by the medicine (Which I really do not think it is)

Or it is something else. Sadly, I can't help you out much, the only thing that i can do is talk to your psyc. about this. I would make a list of the symptoms that you have, or even print out the question you asked on here and show it to them.

Well if you're bipolar, then it's entirely likely this is related in some way. It seems to me that lots of people with bipolar have paranoia as a symptom, whether or not it turns into full-blown psychosis.

If you're not already being treated by a psychiatrist, I would look into it. It could by that you should be on an anti-psychotic instead of an ordinary tranquilizer. I have friends with paranoia and they're much more comfortable on anti-psychotics. Also, I'd check that the drugs you're taking right now aren't causing this in any way.

I recommend you seek professional help soon. This could be a sign of a serious mental illness (schizophrenia). Assuming it is, judging by the degree of your symptoms a fairly low dose of medication and some therapy should clear it up.

This could also be a symptom of post traumatic stress disorder stemming from your rocky childhood.

Either way, you should talk things over with your doctor.

I can identify and the one thing you need to do is try to get comfy in your own skin. Stand up for yourself, Do something to make you feel good about yourself like taking a class or two. You need to feel like you are good enough and that is not what you are thinking now or you wouldn't care what anyone thought

Sounds like you should be talking to a therapist instead of people here on Y!A. The best advice I can give you is to not think about what other people are saying about you. I know that may be difficult to do, but that may be your only hope of getting over this.

It sounds like generalized anxiety disorder coming from your post traumas. I've been there. Speak with a doctor and try something like Paxil and an anxiety med.

emotion thinking, bad ,this case its negative thinking,you better get it in control,as work has stress,I have a.d.d. I control it,not the other way around,your mind believe what you thinking ,as you keep reinforcing it become real, do it the other way.(keep thinking nah,,, their no reason for that,Iam in control,etc.soon you will believe that, try it ,the other way is going to get worse then need med,then side affects ,Ive been there,

One thing is certain; there is no lack of fools. Nothing personal. You ask a good question.

you need to get away. restart your life somewhere peaceful.

no need to be so paranoid.

he's coming right for ya !

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