what do i do? i hate my self for this?

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right basically i recently started going out with this boy and we've been going out for a month and a half now and its been going well, but im starting to have second thoughts :(

before i started seeing my boyfriend i was speaking to this other boy i knew and we both liked each other we just needed to go on a few more dates till we made our relationship 'official'. 
We used to talk everyday and i spent my new years with him which was really nice :)
Well anyway, he went on holiday for 2 weeks on valentines day so we never got to do anything but he sent me a nice valentines day text all the way from Bostonn! (I live in London btw)
When he got back i hadn't spoken to him for like 2 weeks so i was really like WTF, cause we used to talk everyday and i thought he was ignoring me; but in the end he explained to me that he had a long think on holiday and realised he didnt want a girlfriend at this moment in time.
I was really shocked by this since we got so close so i asked if it was really just because he didnt like me anymore and he said no he does, its just his previous relationship didnt go very well and he doesn't want this to be the same- and he really didnt think that we would end like this.

So i just had to accept the fact that it was going to go anywhere at the moment but we still kept talking (just as friends)
About a week later one of my really good boy mates started texting me and straight away i realised that he was intersted but i never thought it would go anywhere; Just that it would be a rebound from this last boy to make myself feel better.

It went a little further than that and during a school ski trip he asked me out and I said yes, so im still going out with him but im just so confused. 
everything he does im compare to the boy i was seeing before and I just feel like im settling for second best which i hate myself for saying.

It just changed from a little texting to a full blown relationship so fast and I didnt really have time to think about what I really want.
And now its 1 and half months into our relationship and Im starting to question if this is what  i really want- cause I cant stop wondering if the boy i was seeing before still likes me- and if maybe things could work outt (were still on good talking terms btw)....
 
all my friends say that im not the same around my boyfriend as all the others boy I've liked and they question if i really like him.
I dont want to dump my boyfriend and then find out that this other boy doesnt like me and i just cant face breaking up with my boyfriend cause i know he likes me so much and everyone said he has changed thanks to me.

i dont know what to do 
please help!

thankyou x
p,s im in the middle of my GCSE exams at the moment so it's really hard to deal with this situation AND all my subjects

i would say that i could live it till june(thats when my exams finish) but tthen that would be 3 months into the relationship and its not fair to leave it that long

Anonymous · Accepted Answer

Hopefully you're finding time and energy to study amid all this drama. If you talk as much in real-life conversation with your bfs as you do here, it might explain why the guys are backing off!

Vanessa H · Answer

There is no point in continuing a relationship with someone when your heart isn't it. Deal with the relationship you are in first of all - do you really want to be with him? If not, you need to end it. All you are doing by continuing it is allowing him to get more and more attached, which does nothing except hurt him more in the long term.

As for the other one, I'd be wary. Why exactly does he not want a relationship? Is he stringing you along? Again, there's no point in hanging on, hoping for something to change. I would move on and let him be, continue talking to him if you are good friends but don't let him become a focus in your life. The other thing is, if you are doing your GCSE exams at the moment, all this can't be helping you. You need to clear your mind and push all this to one side at the very least, till you can deal with it with no distractions.

duttyjoncrow · Answer

None of these boys can take your GCSE's for yu so what you should be doing is forgetting this until they are over. 3 months is not that long in reality. I bet if you looked back at what has happened in the last 3 months you would say that it's gone really quickly.

Anyway, I know it can be difficult seperating these things and doing what I said is easier said than done so what I would do is forget this other guy and focus on if you do actually like your current boyfriend. If you are meant to be with the other guy at all in the future that will happen. If he's any kind of a guy he will come for you when he's ready, if not it wasn't meant to be. 

Now go and focus on those GCSE's!!!! :)

Emz · Answer

personally i think that you shouldnt stay with the guy your with now because its not fair on him. how would you feel if it was the other way around.
then i would say keep on good terms with the other guy you like and see how it goes. concentrate on your gcse exams whilst still being close to the other guy and she how he feels after that. but its not fair on either of you to keep doing what your doing. from everything you have said you dont like this guy and you cant just use him as a stopgap 
good luck in your exams xx

Gracious · Answer

And I'll just say, calm it all down and settle this once and for
all by the time you finish your studies.

In that way, you not only can pass your important exams,
you can also clear your head and knew which b/f you'll LOVE.

gen13 · Answer

it's not good for u stressing urself about this problem u know especially ur in ur GCSE exams..... i think u shouldnt lie to him, to others or to urself .. if they say that ur different with other boys but to ur bf ur like ur not into him .. maybe u should ask urself if u really like him..., and if that boy u were seeing before him .. doesnt like u already u just have to accept it.. it's the fact and it's his decision to not like u ..so i suggest dont worry too much about this.. or the boy before... just accept what his decision is...

Anonymous · Answer

If You really Like Him Than Do What Your Hearts Says ...

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Decode - .xo · Answer

Your just gonna have to do what feels right to you

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