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Anonymous asked in Social SciencePsychology · 1 decade ago

Is what I'm feeling anxiety?

Okay, so I've always been pretty happy with my life, always the bubbly girl who gets excited about the little things. Since the ages of about 11 or 12, I've had bowel problems relating to nerves triggered by absolutely nothing. Sometimes after meals, mostly at restaurants, sometimes randomly at home, at a friends house or on holiday. I have phases where it's worse than others, but there's no regular pattern, I've wrote down what I eat and nothing stands out. Since around December last year, I've been in love with a guy who was a good mate and he had a girlfriend. She didn't treat him well and he ended up cheating on her with me (not a good thing, I know, but she kind of had him trapped, whenever he show signs of ending it she'd do something really nice, say she loved him or self harm) - sometimes she sounded a little bipolar. Anyway, I think I was his escape. When we were together we acted kind of like a couple, but he still went back to her. When I saw them together I'd get a horrible jealous feeling in my stomach because I loved him and I had nights where I would just breakdown and wonder why he wouldn't leave her. I regularly woke up not wanting to get out of bed, I felt depressed and lonely, second best, I started to hate life and not care about college. In March/April time he broke up with her and then had to go back because she'd self-harmed. A few weeks later he broke up with her for me again because she'd gone back to being weird with him. We rushed into things too soon and spent a week together, it all seemed so perfect and I finally felt happy for the first time this year. We visited places, he bought me flowers, he told me he loved me. Then all of a sudden, after that week he didn't talk to me much, and he then told me it felt weird and he wanted us to be mates. I broke down again and Mum had to console me, he hung up on me because he was too tired to explain but phoned back 15 minutes or so later and said he'd come around to explain in person. It was very awkward, he went to hug me but I didn't want to because I knew it would be hard. He explained he'd rushed into it, he didn't feel right but he thought he wanted to be with me, he kept picturing his ex. When he went to leave, I hugged him and didn't want him to go. For a few days I was so low, I felt extremely low. I've rarely had a best friend, never had a proper boyfriend and I've always had to rely on myself because not many people bother to contact me unless I contact them. I was extremely lonely. I was getting better, he dropped around some money, asked me how I am, gave me a hug and then left and I realised how much I missed him and broke down again. I then was drunk one night and text him telling him I hoped he realised one day how much he'd hurt me, but I regretted it the next day. A few weeks later I was getting better, I stopped thinking about him as much, although I got that sinking feeling now and again. I finally felt free. Then my friend text me saying she'd seen him and his ex, obviously together. It brought back all the bad feelings, I felt so used and betrayed, and even angry. I don't hate him, he was never maliciously horrible, he's not a bad person, he's so kind, but I don't think he knew what he was doing, he was very confused and he's not physically well either. He missed her and now they're back together.

It's all my fault for letting myself be the 'bit on the side' but I've never loved anyone this much, not even properly liked. Since I found out they're back together I've gone back to having the sinking feeling in my throat, not wanting to get up, feeling lonely and second best, secluded, depressed, I feel sick and have bowel problems again, and I'm constantly up and down.

Every time I think I'm getting over him, something happens to knock me down again. My family had an argument the other day and I thought they were going to break up for certain reasons, and I feel that my family are all that I have. I don't have a best friend to go to, he was the only person I felt myself around, he was my best friend.

When I found out, I text him angrily, I shouldn't have but I did. Since then I've said I want to be friends, but he should understand how much he's hurt me.

It's just such a ****** up year, and I want to get rid of all these feelings. Someone said it sounds like anxiety, alongside heartbreak and rejection.

Update:

I'm aware that he's not good for me, and I have accepted that I have to let go and he has chosen her over me. It's just the getting over part I'm struggling with.

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  • 1 decade ago
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    This doesn't sound like anxiety, it sounds like a typical heartbreak. A lot of men, particularly young ones, are not in tune with their own emotions, let alone the emotions of others. They think and act selfishly, which it sounds like this guy is doing. He is not ready to be in a relationship. It's hard to understand now, but I think pursuing this is going to lead down a worse path, and lead to regret later in your life. Boys, especially first loves, are so difficult to get over. But..you have to do it. This is not someone who has your best interests in mind, at least not at the present moment, and this cannot lead to your happiness. You're lucky to have someone like your mom to be there for you at your low points because a lot of girls lack this. I've been where you are, trust me, and my mother got me through it- I have her to thank. I had a boy that I thought was the love of my life. A year ago, I was miserable and thought that things could never be good again. A year later, I'm with someone else, and have been for 11 months- things are amazing- better than ever-MUCH better for me than the other boy (my first love- this is a much deeper love). This goes to show how quickly things can, and will, change and how many other matches- better matches- are out there for you.

  • Sarah, it is common to believe that if one gives a name to something that then one knows what it is and then can get the appropriate solution, like taking medication or eliminating the disturbing thing.

    Your feelings have a cause and you can give it a name or find the reason in outside conditions, people or situations. You can say: I feel like this because... and find the reason giving the fault to something or someone. But what happens is, that YOU are REACTING to the outside and this has to do in the first place with YOURSELF.

    So it is your condition or more exact: Your unconscious concept how things should be and when this is not fulfilled then you are reacting or you feel happy when it is fulfilled. To change this you will have to do quite a lot, for example: Finding out about yourself, what is real and what you have adapted from society as concepts that are based on a superficial, dualistic and materialistic world view.

    People living out of concepts that are common and established in general and individually, - creating dreams, hopes, beliefs and the self image of ones personality. Out of all this there are coming expectations and the need and longing to fulfill these. But reality is mostly quite different than ones concepts about it and so we don't get what we want, reacting with anger, sadness etc. Then changing the partner, the job or ones surrounding and then finding out that one repeats the same as before.

    Going through life disappointed and angry, getting sick on other levels because all is connected and is influencing each other. Until one is ready to ask questions and not just feeling as a hopeless victim.

    You are asking, so I can think that you are ready for an answer: You are in a growing process that at the same time is a healing process. You are separated from yourself wanting to complete concepts you have made to your own. You are living through these concepts so you are not able to relate to life and you can't respond freely only with your reactions. This makes that you are depending on people and conditions. To get out of this you need to clear up your unconscious background, find out how you can do this. Then you will feel good within yourself not depending on others and outside conditions.

    What is happening now to you with people is your learning process in which you will grow. You will grow beyond your present condition and you will be free and fulfilled. To get there it might be often hard work and suffering might be part of it, but what you will get is real and not based on fake...

    There is much more to find out and you will need to search. If my writing triggers more questions, then ask. You are surrounded by answers if you are ready to receive and you know or will soon know that real answers are coming from within yourself.

    BeiYin

  • Anonymous
    5 years ago

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  • 5 years ago

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  • 1 decade ago

    it is a mixture of anxiety and depression.this happened tome before you were depressed then got anxious about being depressed and you just fall deeper and deeper into depression. so yes it is anxiety but there is also true depression

  • 1 decade ago

    i think that maybe you want to think that this relationship is working out but deep in the inside of your heart you know that it isnt and ur gonna have to tell him its her or me and if he dosent breakup with her hes not the guy for u

    Source(s): just dig deep inside ur heart
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