I feel so depressed and stupid. My life is so worthless. I wanna die. What should I do?

Hi.. I am sooo sorry you are hurting right now..NONE of this is your fault! It's very normal to feel this way since you are being abused! These are all normal feelings with what is going on..YES parents are supposed to be loving & emotionally there for you but since your parents are abusive this is likely not going to happen. Since you are in school could you go talk to a school counselor?

I am concerned that you are feeling depressed & like you hate yourself and that you want to give up and that you want to die! At the same time I realize you are in a very difficult situation since your parents are acting as if you only want attention..thats a form of mental/psychological abuse..they KNOW exactly why you feel the way you do afterall you are a victim of their abuse..but they are in denial...so I don't suggest trying to talk to them about you being bullied at school its doubtful they will ever be there for you sense they are bullying you as well..

I would suggest trying to talk to your school counselor & joining a support group for abuse online..I would suggest you call the domestic hotline which you could google for the phone # but that would mean that your parents could get in legal trouble because it IS against the law for them to be abusive to you and sometimes the judge will let them off & I don't want to suggest you do something that might backfire and endanger you even more and/or cause you to be abused more so perhaps just start off slow and see if the suggestions I made will give you the support you need..

The best thing you have done for yourself is you have reached out and that means that you really deep down do care and love yourself.

The flashbacks you are having could be a sign that you have PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) which is normally what happens when someone grows up in an abusive environment..and/or is being abused..

Try to hang on..until you can leave your parents home and start a new life for yourself..I know it hurts but you can get past this in time when you get away from that environment..if you can go stay the night with friends on the weekend I would do that too..TRY not to be in the same room with them..and if possible go buy this book called The Verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans its a red paperback book it may give you some tips on how to distance yourself from the abuse..while still living with them.. and just try to educate yourself as much as possible..knowledge IS power..it really is!

I would love to help you out further then just here but I am not sure if I am allowed to put my email address in here..

I hope that this has helped you! Keep reaching out because there are a lot of people who WILL understand and WILL help you get past this situation..

I would highly recommended getting into professional counseling as soon as possible..but being you are still in school and probably depend on your parents for money & if you are under the age of 18 I am not sure if you would need their consent or not..but keep reaching out for help..abd educating yourself..but it has to be with SAFE people who will not turn a blind eye or a deaf ear..so you have to be careful..

Anyway I hope this was somewhat helpful to you..

I have been there. 8th grade was the worst for me... cried every night... was teased at school... parents were emotionally not available. Thankfully I wasn't abused though. I'm almost 30 now and somehow made it through though!

I'm not sure how old you are, but if your parents are abusing you, you have every right to call Children's Services. Keep in mind, this might cause you to be placed in Foster Care, but it might mean that you get the help you need, as Children's Services can provide that to you at no cost. And I would hope the family you get placed with is better than your current one. I'm going to be a Foster mom soon... and hearing stories like this makes me remember why I want to do it so bad.

You may be depressed but you definitely not stupid. It's hard to find yourself worthy of your own love, your self-love, and that goes for anyone, and your problem is your putting the focus on your parents....reframe the question, the focus is you. I was a good boy, with three or four friends, and however miserable, I stayed positive. In my senior year the roof caved in. Growing up is hard, that you would look to People who are like you. They bully the innocent, and the vulnerable. That is the dynamic of cowardice. Be Your Own Hero, have the conviction that you are valued to someone. Life is a long time spent too love yourself and you and many other s start fresh. If you do one thing--Have a Place in Your Heart--this one thing--for your parents--don't have to say it...a tiny sense of gratuitous respect...and keep the faith--rely on your self._+)

Yes, your parents are supposed to do all those things. Sounds like you need to have a sit down with your parents and let them know all your feeling, that way if they find you dead somewhere they can't say they had no clue. As for the kids at school, they only harass you because you let them and they can. My best friend went thru the same thing at school. I always defended her, it didn't do a lot of good because she wouldn't defend herself. You have to take up for yourself against these people. Next time they are being mean, look at them and say " who are you, that I should care about your opinion? why does what you think matter to me?" " Your life must be really boring if you don't have anything better to do than be a b*&%$ to me "

Honey, life is hard, for some more so than others..

i know how you feel people at school treat me the same way. but their has to be a reason for it, either they have no life and just pick on other people to make them feel good about them selves or their jealous. when i see all the people who treat me like crap i say to myself they just wanna feel good about them selves and you know what let them because their time will come. another thing i know how you feel, u just wanna be left alone give up on life. well DON'T ! You have a whole life ahead of you and it will get better soon. you just have to believe. and don't hate yourself its not your fault people are so cruel. TRUST ME ON THIS! And also see a doctor and tell them how you feel they would be glad to help you. If you need anything else then ask me i'll help you. Hope my advise works. (:

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through

I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do

Oh brother I can't believe it's true

I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you

Oh I wanna talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see

In the future where will I be?

You can climb a ladder up to the sun

Or write a song nobody has sung

Or do something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?

Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?

Tell me how do you feel?

Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak

And they're talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see

In the future where will I be?

You can climb a ladder up to the sun

Or a write a song nobody has sung

Or do something that's never been done

Do something that's never been done

So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk

And you feel like you're going where you've been before

You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored

Nothing's really making any sense at all

Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk

Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk

I was once like you...yes this was very true.

I wanted to die too. It all started last summer...I was very anti social, I felt like giving up on life too.

I experienced the same thing from my father but I had and still have some hatred, resentment and animosity towards him. I'm trying REAL hard to forgive him but I just can't. It's hard...cuz he messed my family real bad.

I have 2 older siblings...An older sister(first) and a brother(second), I'm the last one. My sister went to college and NEVER EVER came back (she left in 2001, I was about 5 ) Till this day I never spoke to her, she doesn't even know how I look like. So basically I never had a bigger sis to tell me about boys, make-up, clothes, be a role model etc..

And my brother I was cool with him too but my father brainwashed him and manipulated him to hate and curse me and mother out for some dumb reason...becasue I didn't want to come to my dad's house, stupid eh?

Imma tell you about my estranged dad, he beat up on my mom!!!!! What a punk!!!!!!!!! He wanted my mother to have an abortion on me!!!!!!! When I heard that (my mother told me) I was shocked, flabbergasted and dumbfounded. Thats a shot to the stomach...it still hurts till this day when I think about it. But I'm still here, aren't I???

I REALLY, DEEPLY, TRULY FEEL YOUR PAIN, HUN!!

If I were you....I'll go to Doctor right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or I'll just right in my journal about everything you've went thru. Pretend like your writing a book about your life or your talking to someone...pretend your talking to your journal as if it were a human being.

I don't know what your religion is but if your a christian go to church and pray...just like your journal...talk to GOD...about everything!

Email me any time when you need to talk...I'll be gladly to help you.

you need to go and speak to your doctor NOW, if you are feeling suicidal, you need help, those worthless jerks at your school arent helping, and wont just go away, be open with your doctor, he/she can only help you if you tell them the truth!

Make sure you say you want to die, this is not a good thing to be feeling, and certainly not a good thing to do!!

Tell your doctor everything, please take care, your not to blame here for any of this!!

Good luck, and i hope your feeling more positive soon

Oh honey,my dear.... I feel so so sorry for you! I think you really should try to get some help either a doctor ore the government since you don't have a good relationship with your family! You need to do that ASAP and you will see as soon as you got someone to talk to and they help you you will feel like a new person.... You are in my prayers!!

You are here for a purpose.

Never, ever give up.

Count your blessings.

Keep the faith.

God loves you.

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