do you think i should look into getting on meds?

I have some serious anxiety issues. I am 20 years old. I don't have any friends, and when I say that I mean that. I stopped going to public school at age 15, and it all went down hill from there. I started doing online schooling, not seeing anyone, not being social at all.

Now I here I find myself 5 years later, alone and when I do go out, or when I do meet new people, I get like seriously flustered. I sometimes even tremble. My lip quivers.

I tell myself it would be ridiculous to go on medication, because I know it is all in my head. I know I should be confident in who I am. I know I am a good person...

Yet things dont seem to be getting any better, and I seriously need to move on.

I don't know how to get the help tho, If I did want it. I don't have a job, I don't have money for a therapist. I don't know what to do yall.

I'm so over being myself. blehhhhh