suicide... (i know it's A LOT to read but please read, i need insight badly)?

Wow! Tough break! Sorry to hear ya having so much drama and bad luck.

I wish I knew what was wrong with ya African-American prince. He is your age, I'm gonna assume since yall had classes together @ school?

Sounds like things are MASSIVE intense for u right now and shockingly enough not just because u r high school age. lol

I'm 29 yrs old.. been there n done that age.. would love to go back to that time in my life..@ the time I thought was the worse time ever! :) HIGH SCHOOL! Makes ya wanna scream most the time, huh?

Anyways, I have to say I think education is 4 sho VERY important but it sounds like ya parents are being a little tough on ya. They know u have had some pretty crappy luck..or so it seems. Surely they remember what it was like to be that age and how when u r "in love" it feels like life or death even if it's not a physical threat. ( From what u say it really is..)

It's also a little ol' school in this day in age to assume because he is black..he is worthless or trouble. Any boy willing to work to help take care of his family @ that age instead of buying the latest clothes or cars first.. whatever color he is..is a pretty decent kid in my book.

What concerns me the most is that u r talking like it's life or death for u as well.. hell.. even if u guys were in ya 30's and had spent 10 yrs married with kids and stuff.. it would not be good that u think your life is over without him.

Life is a precious gift, girl! Don't u know? I'm sure he would even tell u that @ this point. U can't be willing to throw in the towel and slit ya wrists because life blows in 11th grade! U still have kids to birth.. college and career.. beers to drink.

There is a whole life waiting for u after ya turn 18 and get to play without ya parents calling the shots 4 u! :) That's when the fun begins! lol

My suggestion is to call "him" as often as possible! Send him a card with some love and feeling in it! Check with his family about how he is..all u can offer is love and prayers? Then give it with all u got!

If he dies.. or lives.. U need to get some confidence! (After u pick up ya chin and realize what's in front of ya face!)

Seek help @ school with teachers or @ a local mental health facility.

Look up some old friends from other schools??

Show em' all ya not gonna let life beat u down.. DON'T GIVE UP so easy! :)

Good Luck!

say you're going on a school trip, make a fake form and go see him! do whatever it takes, you will regret it for ever if you don't. You're life sounds pretty difficult, is there anyone other than your parents you could live with? Such as a relative, I think you should move away yourself (if you are old enough to..or save up until you are.) get a room mate or something, it's not worth it to leave with people who bring you down. Keep trying in school, get help after school if your school provides it with your courses so you can pick up your marks. Good luck, don't give up, life will improve one day! If your friend does pass take whatever positive thing you learned from him and try to live your life. At least you learned that you can find someone to be close with, and I'm sure you will find others along the way! By the way, what is your friend's illness?

Hello,

I am sorry to hear that, I send you my condolences. I did not have to deal with the racial issues but I too did not have the support of my parents with my first love. When my high school sweetheart and I broke up I cried for weeks. I know your situation is different with race issues and what sounds like him experiencing a terminal illness? This is what I suggest:

I know this is not what you want to hear, but you should try to keep the perspective that you are still in high school. I've been there, I know this is hard, but this will end up being a GOOD experience for you in the end. I know you can't see it now, but you got an entire adult life in front of you. I promise the pain goes away and whether you end up with your boyfriend or not is not important. What is important is what you do with it. You cannot control his medical condition or the fact that you are legally obligated to be in school. You can however decide how you handle it. If he passes I can't imagine how painful that will be, but if your life will be what you make it. .

My final advice is: Once you turn 18 you will be able to make your own decisions, but until then try to do all you can within your control. If you are contemplating ending your own life, I would suggest you write down what the upside of that decision would be and how you would do it. The next thing to do before you make the final decision to do this is to talk about your written down answers with a professional counselor. This is an issue you should probably seek help about. I would suggest you meet with your school counselor or any other counseling service to talk to them about your concerns and situation, your problem is substantially more complex than any quick answer on this site. You need to be able to talk out these issues with an individual trained on how to help you resolve this. My heart goes to you. Good luck.

I say you go see your friend anyways. Your parents say no but what they don't know will not hurt them. Go out for a weekend and go to the hospital. Then talk to your friends. As your friend that was African American go take a bus to see him on your free time. Make sure you have enough money to come back. Just do everything on YOUR free time and keep it in secret. Don't tell them a thing. Keep it a secret and talk to your friend on Saturdays. Find out the bus schedules, walk there, or have a friend drive you. If you can't make it there try a phone call, send a letter, e-mail, etc.

There's a question you should ask yourself. Your suicidal thinking -- is it caused mainly by depression or by anger? I'd like you to think carefully about this, because in an emotional state we can be naive about what our motives are. When it comes to being in love, it's the oldest story in the world. Suicides as acts of revenge are not uncommon. It's clear that you're angry at your parents, which is understandable. But is it possible that you're thinking about suicide because it would be revenge on them? Think carefully.

If the idea I've just suggested is correct, then it seems that your ability to cope with this situation is greater than you think. I'm not saying that everything is actually a bed of roses, or that your problems will be solved overnight, but it may be that things aren't as dire as they seem.

On the other hand, suicide is hopeless in that it can't be reversed. Do you want to eventually forgive people who have mistreated you or have them forever grieve and blame themselves for your death? I'm willing to bet that the latter one is what you want to avoid.

Of course, if you're afraid that you're about to hurt yourself right now, the thing to do is ask for help.

Many people think that a 911 call is the best thing. I can give you some links for hot lines that specialize in troubled young people.

http://www.kidshelpphone.com/

http://www.strongfiath.net/

http://www.youthsuicide.ca/

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

http://www.suicide.org/

I'm also giving you a link to a program that will give you a standard screening test and tell you what your score means.

http://counsellingresource.com/quizzes/cesd/index....

Your life has yet to begin, my dear. To take it now would be a waste. Pain is a part of things, it always has been. What makes a person strong is not a resistance to pain, but the ability to overcome it. Time will heal all wounds, but suicide would cut that time short.

What can you do? Wait. There are things above our control, and such things we must live through. Life has many secrets in store, is it worth eliminating the pain you now feel, if it means missing all the happiness that potentially awaits?

Whatever you do, don't take your life. That is not the answer. I would try to find a way to visit him. You are old enough to find the means to travel to where he is and visit him. Try buses or trains that go toward that area. Then there are taxis to get you to the hospital.

Miracles happen everyday, so don't give up! Use your God given mind and create the experience that you are looking for. Anything is possible and you are in control!

ur parents have WAY to much control over u ( btw ur parents sound like heartless assholes) ur in the 11th grade i'm guessing 17 years old screw ur parents u love this guy and hes dieing and theres nothing you can do about it the least u can do is go see him!!!!!! skip school take ur parents car and drive to the hospital or take a bus get a friend to drive you DO SOMETHING!!!!!

the rest is out of ur hands and theres nothing u can do but u can't kill yourself because life gos on everybody will lose someone they love sometime in there life ur not alone

sht you have some problems there girl. i know sometimes love is really hard to find but it will get to you. this isn't the last time you will meet some you will fall in love with. anyways go to your fathers room and get some cash from his wallet take bus to his town and see him. wtf do you care about your parents thought if you are thinking of suicide. i believe there is no heaven and this life is the only chance you'll get.i promise that if you make an effort to change your life it will get better.

i know loving and losing is hard. believe me i know. yesterday the girl i've been in love to rejected me. she said i was a super nice guy but she didn't wanted a boyfriend. i've been seriously depressed since then. i even thought of suicide. now i don't have anything good in my life. i have nothing i feel empty. but i won't suicide cause i know i'll get over it and find someone that understands me...

if you want to talk add me....

electric_blood_dragon@hotmail.com

im no some kind of pedo or anything i swear.

iam so sorry to hear your story.

i guess there is nothing else to say since others have already said everything..

what I could do now, is to wish you luck. I will pray for you in church tomorrow, which i never did to anyone before.

God bless you.

please, dont give up hope!

please!