is he trying to ruin my life or does he really want to change the way things are?

O.K..... so I am a little nervous when it comes to the opposite sex, but that didn't stop me from accepting my now ex-boyfriend's invite to the movies a year ago..... For 5 months we were happy, but then i realized i was falling in love and I got really super scared....... I ran..... After a bit of miscommunication (I told my sister i was thinking of breaking up with him, joked that i should have her do it, and she did) we broke up.... I felt horrible, but i also felt that he was to restrained by his parents to make me completely happy...... after a month or so I realized that what i had done was wrong.... I explained what had happened and why I had thought what I thought, but he continued to ignore me (i can only contact him by email... we go to 2 different school).... so I emailed him and told him i was done.. that I had tried to say sorry and mend the mistake i had made... i was tired of the immaturity and all that..... and that seemed to be the end of it.... until a few days ago... he emailed me out of the blue and said that he didn't understand and asked me to explain it to him again.... (he also gave me necklaces while we were going out and i told him that i still had them) he said that it was good that in still had them and gave me another gift.... It was an anime picture.... one that he had drawn while we were together... it was supposed to be me and him.... kissing....... i had totally forgotten about the pic until now.... what does it mean, because i realized as i looked at that picture i was still very much in love with the artist......