I can't seem to hold down a job?

You have a lot on your plate. your responsibilities alone are enough to validly cause depression. Being a single parent and working more than one job.......that's a tough road. I've been where you are and although I've never had a drug addiction, I sometimes actually wonder how I managed to get through all of those years without using a substance to numb myself, honestly. I can also relate to the sleeping issue, sometimes sleep was my only refuge. I think there are 2 things that helped me the most. 1 was learning to turn everything I possibly could in to a positive (IE) The gas gets shut off and I make boiling water for hot baths a joke and an adventure...I also turned it into a lesson for my son's; as in "If you keep turning up the thermostat when I'm at work and I can't afford the bill this is the consequence" I know that worked because they never touched that thermostat again....we laugh about it now, but 2 weeks with out hot water......that was a good lesson. When I got laid off from my job, I made that an adventure, we painted, we didn't have much money so it was cheap paint but we painted every room in the house, we went hiking, we did affordable things that I would have normally never had the time to do with them. 2. I learned that there really was only so much I could do, I learned to "choose my battles" I couldn't work two jobs and keep up on making certain the kids were in bed by nine p.m., I could barely stay awake myself so, my son's went to bed when they got tired, I never fought that battle. I couldn't always set down and do homework with them and I certainly didn't have the time to play detective and make certain it was done and turned in, so when the grade cards came out if anyone's grades fell below a B, we had no television, I simply had the cable turned off and we all suffered the lack of t.v. entertainment. My kids got away with murder, they ate ice cream for breakfast, and stayed up as late as they wanted.....and they turned out GREAT!

I went through times like you when I could barely drag myself out of bed, the responsibilities were just daunting, we went through a lot of hard times. I pushed myself constantly, at times I was resentful because I had no life of my own, so I made one. I suppose about once ever two weeks I got dressed up and I went out with my girlfriends, just dancing and partying, I paid a babysitter with money I didn't really have, and I spent money I couldn't afford to go out on, but somehow I managed to cut corners so that I could have just a little piece of my own life. That helped a lot, it is important that you keep in touch with you, and what you like to do. For me it was music and dancing, and I gave myself that, it helped me immensely to hang on to some part of me. Your in a difficult place, but you need to remember that nothing, nothing lasts forever, not the good times, but more importantly not the bad times. See, I mean really "see" that there is a light at the end of the tunnel...and believe that, dream about your future and what you want your life to be like someday. My son's are grown now, and my life is far from perfect, but it's quiet and I have some peace. I live alone and for the most part I do what I want. There were times when I never thought I'd see that happen for me, but it did. and, someday it will happen for you. Think about your future, think about what you want for yourself, and what you want for your children. See beyond where you are, it's what will motivate you out of the "place" you are in. I learned a lot from the "struggle" it made me strong, you can choose to make the challenges of your life a great adventure, or a humdrum existence. Not only did I learn and grow strong but I taught my children a great deal about life and strength and having "vision" the vision to see my way through.

Sorry about the length......but I hope it helps.

Wow, do I understand what you are speaking approximately. I am married to a bipolar guy. He is a exotic character, however has had main issue keeping a role down for the beyond 10 years. I might say that he are not able to cross longer than 6 months in a single situation. He a million) does now not manage strain good, two) has main issue waking early within the day, three) has steady conflicts with co-staff, and four) has no tolerance or endurance handling different persons's errors or loss of accountability. He desires, greater than whatever, to be a supplier for his household, however with out considering, he'll give up a role earlier than discovering a brand new one. I suppose something that has helped is discovering low-strain jobs that he feels comfy at. One factor he was once competent to do was once paintings graveyard shifts, in order that he had minimum persons to manage on a daily basis. It was once rough, and nonetheless is, explaining to employers why he might desire a role for $eleven in line with hour, while he has ran his possess enterprise, and been an account government for thus decades. He does not desire to inform employers approximately his disease in view that of the stigma connected. All I can let you know is to uncover your nitch. It's first-class that you've got the affection and help of your household. Find a role that you just like to visit everyday, despite the fact that it manner taking a gigantic paycut. If all else fails, observe for incapacity advantages..and once they deny you..observe once more. Best of good fortune to you...