I don't know how to trust people?

Well, I would suggest maybe writing down what you want to say to her first. That way you don't have to worry as much about WHAT you are going to say and more on actually saying it. And if you feel that you can't openly talk to her when that time comes, maybe give that paper to her. Then she can confront you about it instead of you having to start the conversation. I understand that it can be hard to trust people at times but if you find that it is important that these things get talked about, then don't let it hold you back. Another suggestion would be to tell her that it's hard for you to talk about things because you have trust issues. Then hopefully she can reassure you that she, as an important figure in the community, can be trusted. Slowly work into the conversation, that way you don't feel so overwhelmed. Just some friendly suggestions. I hope this helps.

Writing your feelings can help. That way you know what youre thinking when youre thinking it and if it needs to be repeated to someone you can have them read it or read it to them or even talk and if you get lost with words read what you wrote and pick the convo up again. Trusting people isnt bad you just have to know who you can and cant trust. People will always let you down though. That doesnt mean you shouldnt trust anyone at all you just have to learn to heal and get over it