Help! I don't know if i can take it anymore: these people i live with aren't nice; i hate myself..?

I read it all Jess.

When I started going downhill, Y!A was where I turned to. I felt like I didn't have anyone else in real life, so I started going on here more often, and it has helped me so much. If I didn't come on here, I wouldn't have found you! And jess, you helped me a lot too. (:

You should join youth group at church. I was thinking of doing that too. The people there are so kind, and they do fun things. You can definetly find someone there to talk to, and be friends with. Trust me!

Why don't you try talking to your old friends? The ones in the youtube videos. You guys seemed like you were all great friends. Try to get back in touch with them.

* You're not ugly at all. I think you're really pretty.

* Eat healthier, and excersise. That's all. Whenever you do start to lose weight, you won't notice it. But jeans don't lie. If you notice your jeans getting baggier, that's how you will know you lost weight. If you want to, talk to your counselor and get help from her on how to lose weight. You could join a gym too. I know that a lot of skinny people go there like you said, but they are just trying to keep in shape. Ignore them. You're there for yourself.

* If you don't like your counselor, tell your mom. Just say that you want a different one, because she's not helping.

Like you said, you're close with your mom. Take advantage of that. Tell her everything that's going on and how you feel, because she can help you.

And no, you don't look like a scene retard. (:

Stay Strong Jess! :D <3

Right first of all, I did read all of it, every last word,

And second don't resort in self harm, my friend ended up doing it once, and she regrets it so much, it is something that will stay with you for life.

I'm sure you do have some friends at school, someone you talk too, and if not make some new friends sit with some friendly people at lunch, they are bound to like you, as they will appreciate the effort you make. Or join a club outside of school like a sports club, and you will be able to make friends there, or a club in school. You say your councilor is annoying, why don't you get a new councilor, ? Or just sit down with them and tell them that this is your time to talk, and that you don't want their opinion, whats the point of this? Most of the time, it feels good just to get everything to have someone listen to you, to tell them how you really feel, and you will feel better knowing that someone else understands how you feel. Also take some time out, chill, spend some time just by yourself. Make your bedroom somewhere just for you to relax, a place where you can get away from the outside world, decorate it how you want :) Relax in there, maybe listen to some music, read a book? trust me, this will make you feel much more calmer, and better. You will not end up crazy, you sound very stressed so aswell as relaxing, find something you enjoy to do, maybe go to see a movie with your mum, it will make you happy. And you do not look anything like a scene retard, your actually really pretty, think positive keep smiling and your beauty will shine through and everyone will notice it, honestly. Oh and by the way, I love your hair ! :)

Hope I helped, Good luck :) xxx

when people see a crippled man they keep looking at him as they've never seen such thing before. i'm still amazed by such people they're ignorant, actually you've to be open and don't ever think to block yourself from the society. teens tend to make fun of people because all they seek is to have a good time regardless of the situation another reason is they've never been put in such situation so they don't really have a good idea on how it feels when you hurt someone. they're not experienced. simply just ignore them

I read all of it.

Just remember that you are amazing. There's not much else that I can say. You don't need all them though. When your dad yells, just laugh at him on the inside, knowing how immature and foolish he is. Don't bother with your sister and her husband. Your grandma is immature and foolish just like your dad, just know that you're better than them, and always will be. Your mom loves you, and is trying to help. Remember that.

And you don't look like a scene retard, you're gorgeous actually.

I think you should change your user name to "Jess is Amazing".

I read every word, and I'm sorry but I don't know exactly how to help you. Maybe you should consider joining a sports team or a community group. They'll help you make friends, get active, and give you some confidence in yourself. I know there's something out there that you'll love and will turn your life around, you just have to find it.

And remember Jess RuLeZ! And you're not ascene retard.

Dont put yourself down....stay strong.....i know even if i did say '' i know how you feel '' i wouldnt be able to know how you are feeling because you are going through these things not me....i know its hard but try to ignore them all and try to get on with your education..your family doesnt seem like caring about you that much but that doesnt mean that no one cares about you....i might not know you but i still do care about you....i wished i knew you !....right now for you the most important thing is your education because your education can bring you forward in life...i dont think your parents will but your education will.....and i am sure you will be able to get a proper job and settle down with your future partner.....trust me you will get a handsome guy who cares about you more than anyone else does and you will get a great job...

YOU ARE PRETTY!!! you are definately prettier than me!...

Im sorry to hear about that. the best thing you can do is just ignore them and try to get out the house. why don't you hang out with friends more often. or talk to a trusted adult about it, maybe they can help you, like if you would like to be put in another family. My step-dad used to be very rude to me, so i would just either go in my room to read or play the sims and stuff or i would go with friends. it worked, now my parets divorced, is till talk to my dad tho.

no you dont look like a scene retard, your actually very pretty, dont let anyone tell you otheriwse

Hmm, do you look like a scene retard... let's click on the link... OMG DANG HOMIEE :) you are legit one of the cutest people I've seen! I don't think you're pathetic, you just have a really bad attitude towards yourself. You should focus on the positive aspects of yourself: you're totally cute, your family may not like you but they haven't gotten rid of you yet, your parents care enough to feed you, and you have strangers on the interweb like me that care about you, even if we don't know each other. Don't give up!

Ok well i have to be honest with you;

*you look normal, not skinny but not fat either

* you do appear to whine alot. No offence but i think that you can already see that whining to your family gets you nowhere, it doesn't make you feel better about yourself and it makes people call you names such as 'whiny'. Whether you do or don't have good reasons to whine doesn't change that

* Your mum is right. No one will fix your life for you. Your life will continue like this until oyu are a drunk old woman like your grandma. Like the sound of that? Well if not, you need to get out there and change things. You may not be able to change your family, but you can get yourself out of that situation by getting a weekend job. This will keep you away from their negative influence and help earn you money to get your own place. Try harder at school, trust me you need good grades to get anywhere worthwhile these days.

* Get some confidence, turn over a new leaf and stop complaining! Decide to become a new person, a person who is confident and immune to insults, who is hopeful for the future and makes her own way in life. You say your mum says stuff like 'talk yourself out of it', like what do you expect her to do? If she hasn't provided love and support like you expect so far, then you can bet she won't suddenly start. Only you can change your life.

Don't let them get to you.

You're a beautiful girl and you have your whole life ahead of you. Don't cut, don't let THEM take control of you.

You have to know that you're so pretty, stop calling yourself ugly, you're not.

Exercising is hard to start, but it gets better as you go, if you want to lose weight just try doing leg lifts, or just dance for a few minutes.