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I think I have "small town depression"....some advice, tell me what you think?
Okay well I think I'm near rock bottom. It's obvious I'm depressed, I have like two friends left because I've withdrawn from just about anything I ever did. I used to love volleyball, it draws no interest to me anymore. I used to love horseback riding and showing, it's nothing to me now. I've lived in the same house my entire life, I'm 16. This house has a really bad past over me. I was abused 10 years in it, I've been hurt so much in it and everyday I have to live in it. This town too, man you just don't know. I know all of these faces and I'm just sick. I've lost all of the will to make friends here, besides everyone is used to everyone here, there are no new faces. But it's bad, it's real bad. I'm nothing like my true self. Everyday I feel like there's nothing to life anymore, god I just want to leave this place so badly. I don't think I can go two more years... I've suffered so, so much in this house, in the town. I feel like I'm damn near lost my entire self. I never cry anymore, I don't laugh, I have few emotions. My hair is even falling out. My mom tried taking me to therapy once, but I hate her and refuse to go anywhere with her because she makes it seem like she's the victim. I hate her for not helping me get away from my stepdad, the one who abused me and she never did anything. She didn't even believe me the first time I told her. I hate life so much, I want to die. My body has literally grown weaker because I'm just so crippled by my useless life. I know there's no way out for two years and that's my problem. I'm just wayy too in tune with reality. I can't do this for two more years, I don't know what to do. We can't move because my dumb *** mother bought a starter house that me and my brother pretty much grew out of when I turned 8. I just hate so many things now. I hate my family, and believe me, I have more reason to than just my step dad. So I hate my family, I have no way out, I'm scared of death, but I'm literally rotting away. I'm just so pale and I feel as if sometimes I can't even speak. I want out, I want out so bad. I wish I was never born because my life is a hell hole. No child should have gone through what I've been through and no 16 year old should hate life this much. No one deserves that and the world would be better without this. My dad just broke his neck, but I was going to talk about him getting an apartment for me and him before it even happened. And then he just happened to get in an accident. I just don't know what to do. Even if we got an apartment, he wouldn't really want to move me away from my other immediate family. I just honestly... I just can't make two more years.....I just can't..
Ugh yeah it kind of helps to put in on paper, but that can only help for so long ya know. And then my unfortunately extra strong reality tuner makes me realize, who is really going to read these? Not one person is going to help me. Not one. They may want to, but there isn't a thing they can do. My parents would let me move out, but where would I go? Move in an apartment a few miles down the road. Still in this stupid place. I know some of you want to understand, but I just know I'm stuck here. Having to stay in this personal hell for two more YEARS. It's just...Ugh. I just did get a job, at waffle house and I'll be getting tips too. Maybe being on my own will help, just to be out of that house. I think having roomates will help too, befriend them and maybe start putting myself out there to the world. Develope feeling again. I just feel as if my own soul is just numb. I just want to be me again, I wanna laugh, cry, and just go crazy. Be young and happy...
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- Anonymous1 decade agoFavorite Answer
Hang in there. I hear you! While I may not have had the bad experiences you had, I recently experienced a certain kind of depression that had everything to do with waking up and seeing the same scenery, the same "places of interest", the same people. I couldn't stand it! I needed to get out, and quick. I was lucky enough to leave and go to California for a week, and it did wonders. While you may not have had that opportunity, I did deal with the "depression" for a long time beforehand. You just have to KNOW that it'll eventually get better and hope that that gets you through the rest of your time there. I too became bored with the daily routines, the same activities, and wanted something new. If you take anything from this, just know that there are people who, while not sharing the exact experiences, CAN relate.
- Anonymous5 years ago
Well I live in Virginia, so I can give you a few small towns. I mean mean major small that are off the map. We have general stores here, like the kind you see in movies with old men sitting on car seats out front talking. First there is Stony Creek, where I live. Its really small, everyone here lives in the woods but in the actual town we have a grocery store, hardware store, laundry mat, and a mens underwear store. [lol] Its a pretty quiet place where everyone knows everyone. And its not odd to see a tractor going down the highway. Then we have Wakefield, where my boyfriend and best friends live. Its only peice of fame is the famous Virginia Diner on route 460. Like Stony Creek Wakefield has a little town where there is, of course, the diner. Then theres and antique shop, the famous Adams peanuts, and a Johnsons Concreat. On the way to Wakefield from Stony Creek you go through Waverly. Its a fairly small place. Most of its residents live in the country part of Waverly. But like our other small towns there is a town of Waverly. Where you will find a bank, a sewing shop, a post office and some other little shops right in the town, which is no more than a block or two of old buildings. Then all the way out by Stony Creek you will find Yale. Yale is basically all country but a few people do live there. There is no town of Yale. But there is the Yale General Store, which if you ever find yourself there you must get a cheeseburger. They are so good. You have just heard about all the little small towns in Sussex County Virginia, which is where I grew up, and still proudly live. I hope this helped you and if you do decide to do your story about any of these places ive listen but find yourself in need or more history or knowlege about the place feel free to email me and ask. Sussex is such a wonderful place, I hope I helped.
- JLMLv 41 decade ago
Wow, I feel your pain. You expressed yourself so well. I hope that just putting it all down on paper made you feel better. Is it possible that there is a teacher you could show this letter to who might be able to help? What about going to the therapist anyway? Are you able to get a job or find a way to make money by babysitting or car washing or light housekeeping for somebody else? A local church might have some activities you can get involved in that may help you pull yourself back up and if they have prayer time there it will help too. Pray to God, and ask Him for help - if He can't help you - He ain't God. But I'll bet He can.
I know that "Answerland" is not the best place to get long term help - but if it helps to know that someone has heard your cry and gives you a cyber shoulder to cry on then I sincerely hope you feel better.
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- 1 decade ago
You're 16 right? Why not try getting a part time job. There you can meet new ppl and try to make friends, and if you make money, you can try moving into an apartment on your own. And if all fail just bear it for 2 years and you're off to college.
- 5 years ago
If your not over the age of 24 yet, look into job corps. You live on site, you can get a certificate and go to school, free room and board, free food, they give you an allowance pay, they'll help you inroll in college, and give you rides back and forth from school, & help you find a job. I went to the one in Texas, but the campuses are everywhere. I was a depressed teenager and my parents abused me, I lived in a crappy dead end town like you too. I was scared, but if you take that leap of faith, your life will change. They'll even put you on antidepressants until you feel better and they provide medical care. If I didn't go to jc, I wouldn't be finishing up my degree as a paralegal and would've never got my GED. They give you $2-4,000 after you graduate. That went on a car for me but that could be an apartment for you, in a new town if you're ready to start a new life. Google it.
- Anonymous5 years ago
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