All I really would like is to meet a nice caring openminded female?

that is into guys that are crossdressers, I know I wont get much positive response, but really is it so hard to let someone be who they are in private and understand the reasons associated with and more than likely the deep down reasons for many guys crossdressing, I know it took me years to understand myself, almost 25 yrs, so I do not expect a woman to understand in 10 minutes or even overnite. All I would ask is for those that are narrow minded and opinionated and rude about comments, maybe years ago someone made fun of you, remember how it felt, Its not good, and I know for a fact over the last number of years I cant count the amount of times I considered suicide, and yes I have tried quitting the crossdressing, how about you smokers try giving that up for a month or two, see how you feel when your comfort, or your crutch, or your vice is not their. So when people say just stop doing it or give it up or dont be gay, I am not gay, and I have tried giving it up, that was part of those 25 yrs I took to try and understand myself, Just let others live their life as long as they are not hurting anyone or something illegal. If you dont sleep with them then it probably wont affect you. So Where are them Open minded and caring females ?