Someone please tell me what to do?

Bellatrix was my girlfriend when I first came to college. I loved her, and she loved me, but I had to leave to go to Boone on the last day we could have seen one another. We were together for another two months when she abandoned me for a boy down there who was abusive, named Lofir. She left him nine months later and began dating Peter, a nice young man, I thought, whom I would have supported her dating for a while. She fell madly in love with him, however, ad when I could actually reclaim her, this summer (she cut off all contact for a while), she mentioned she did love me, and then ran back to him. Then she broke up with him because (surprise!) he had become abusive as well. So I convinced her to leave him, and she did, and she came back to me for a time. She, however, was forbidden from applying to college by her father, so I helped her do it around his back and paid her application fee and got her SATs sent here to App, as the least I could do to ensure we could be together. Her father repealed his decision, however, saying she could go to UNCG. I was frustrated with this, but OK, I thought, as long as we will be together when it is done, I don't really care. I asked her only to promise me this, after months of her telling me I was too paranoid, and that she wouldn't leave, and she could not. I asked why, since, after all, she had been telling me to calm down and that she would still love me forever. Her response was not the expected (and perfectly logical) "I might meet someone at college whom I am more meant for than you", but "I had something great with Peter and want to get that back." (Remember that Peter is abusive. It basically means that my chivalric, proper style of love is worse than being beaten daily.)

This was a year and a half ago. Since then, I have not spoken to her. Problem is, I still think about her every day, I would still do anything for her to love me again, and the reason we don't speak is because I would do anything she asked immediately, and at this point of my life, I want her to love me back. (She moved on, and actually never went to UNCG, instead opting to waste her intellect and artistic talent at a community college.)

Also, a large part of me blames me, as her father was never in support of her going to college, and I was essentially forcing her to choose between me and her family. Granted, if she had just told me that, I would have stopped, as it never occurred to me her father was THAT much of an asshole, but... what should I do? I am still in love with her, despite having not spoken to her and her having moved on, I will always love her, and compare everyone to her. Please help!