I need serious help with depression, but i'm afraid to get help?

Please go and get some help! Go to a therapist and tell them everything that you are feeling. I sincerely doubt they are going to put you away; you are obviously not anywhere needing that.

You sound very depressed and need to reach out and get help with that. I was depressed for years until I finally went and got help and meds, now I feel so much better!

Since you mentioned problems with daydreaming, I have to wonder if you don't have Maladaptive Daydreaming, which I also have. It's a condition that causes excessive daydreaming. However, no one can diagnosis you over the internet. Please go to a good therapist, tell them EVERYTHING about what you are going through, and see what they say. You can write me if you want to ask me any questions about Maladaptive Daydreaming.

Go talk to someone. Someone you don't know. A doctor, a nurse, a counselor and stranger. I been where you are. There are a lot of people that feel this way. It amzes me. We have this thing call life. We are matter that is able to be aware of its self. think about that. You are all the stuff, dirt, dust, minerals etc that have been here on earth for over 4 billion years and suddenly it becomes self aware. That is who you are. Now take yourself out a experience life. Do someon=thing different. try to plan each day so that you are somewhere and doing something that you have never done or go to some place you have never been. And oh, yea, talk to someone. If you don't find the right person at first keep trying until you do. Live, its a ball.

There are many people like you having this same problem, and those who have fought and won should be more than willing to help you!! Its not worth losing your life or putting yourself in danger for fear, and time is a precious thing, something you'll never get back. Almost all churches have a group to help people. Take this into mind: it is a counselor or doctor's job to help those in need. A counselor's is a counselor for that very reason!

There are trainging techniques that you can use. Learn here https://tr.im/nycqQ

HEEL:

1. A dog straining on the lead is the result of improper early heel-training. Reinstruction will be required to remedy the fauly.

2. Correct positioning ensures that the dog can anticipate the owner's actions such as a change in direction, sudden stop or new instruction.

3. A lagging dog can also indicates bad heel training. Frequent sharp tugs on the check chain should encourage the dog to keep up with its owner.

SIT:

1. On the command 'sit', press the dog's hindquarters firmly down with your left hand while keeping the dog's head supported in the air.

2. Keep the lead taut in the right hand, giving it a slight upwards pull as you press the hindquarters down to help the dog respond.

3. Crouching down beside, but not over, the dog may prove helpful in teaching more unruly dogs to perform the exercise.

SIT STAY:

1. Pul the dog in the sit position by holding your hand up in front of the dogs face and giving the command ' sit' in a firm voice.

2. Then move in the front of the dog jerking on the check chain if any attempt is made to move. If the dog does move, start agian.

3. Keeping your hand high up in front of the dog, and repeating the command 'stay', back off bit by bit, increasing the space between you.

SPEAK:

1. Tell the dog to speak, if he doesnt, the owner must bark to encourage the dog to bark

2. soon enough the dog will bark

I Need Serious Help

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First, don't turn to antidepressants! I will give you practical tips to deal after my antidepressant rant. Antidepressants function no better than a placebo in most patients, research shows. For each new drug, the drug companies would run a dozen studies to get two showing their drugs were a little better than placebo and submit those studies to the FDA. The other 10 studies wouldn't get published, and they showed the drugs didn't help depression or even made it worse. Furthermore, antidepressants are well known to cause manic episodes in people who have undiagnosed bipolar, possibly forever worsening the course of the illness. There is no way to know if you have bipolar or unipolar depression until you get mania the first time. Antidepressants may be worsening the course of depression also, in the LONG TERM (see “Anatomy of an Epidemic” by Robert Whitaker). Even the Abilify ad points out that antidepressants don't work – that drug company wants you to take a much more toxic antipsychotic that will shave years off your life, because supposedly only 1/3 get better on antidepressants. Their own studies show that many more people must discontinue abilify due to akasthisia than get any benefit from the drug. Besides that, if you are an adult, you should know that most antidepressants will destroy your sex life, and in rare cases, it can be permanent. Most people won't stay on the drugs long term because of this side effect, but then many people discontinuing the drugs get severe withdrawal symptoms that are much worse than the original depression and/or anxiety.

People will jump up and down and swear that they do help – Lots of “research” papers show that the meds work, but almost all are written by psychiatrists who are paid by drug companies to say that, and they must sign an agreement to not publicize any bad study results before they get their research grants, just in case they should get an attack of conscience (this is true of all corporate medication research). Patients often respond to placebo effect, or naturally cycle out of their illness, and there is no way an individual or their doctor could know if the drug helped them or not– that is why studies are required. If your problems are severe, and not due to a trauma history, you will have to decide how to weigh the risks. It's worth talking over with a therapist.

Generic Practical Depression tips (PRINT THEM OUT):

Could a prescribed or over the counter medication be causing or worsening your depression? Many meds are culprits, including birth control pills, blood pressure, pain or even acne medicine, and also alcohol and illicit drugs.

Get your thyroid levels checked – hypothyroidism is a depression mimic. Also, could it be a sleep disorder like sleep apnea, or does the neighbor's barking dog keep waking you up so you never get good sleep?

If your depression is worse in winter, get more light. You may have seasonal affective disorder (SAD) or your depression could be partly seasonal. Use a light box (10,000 Lux (light intensity) at about 20” - about $300 online, don't get locally, they charge more, you don't need full spectrum, it needs a UV filter, the Sunray is a good brand). I have extra windows, painted the walls peach & yellow & have a skylight. There's a link to a cheaper lightbox at psycheducation.org. Also take 1000 to 2000 IU of Vitamin D in winter – if you live in the north, you are deficient in this vitamin & need the supplement anyhow, so you may as well see if it helps the depression.

Try meditation like progressive muscle relaxation or guided imagery. See The Anxiety & Phobia Workbook by Edmund Bourne for examples. Free 15 minute guided imagery download at healthjourneys.com.

Go out with friends, & if you don't have any, join a club & MAKE yourself go until you look forward to it. “Isolating” makes depression worse!

Exercise 1/2 hour a day, & anytime you feel depressed. Exercise is a great mood stabilizer & reduces anxiety. LOTS OF RESEARCH SUPPORTS THIS.

Insomnia?: Go to bed & get up the same time each day, even weekends. Don't use your bedroom to watch TV, read or use the computer. Don't do stuff that revs you up before bed, like exercising & using the computer. Light from computer screens & TV wakes you up. Use that last hour to wind down-take a bath? Make the bedroom very dark, even cover up the alarm clock. Use a noise machine (makes wave sounds etc.) to cover up disturbing sounds. Avoid caffeine in afternoon & evening. Try soundsleeping.com for free relaxing sounds downloads.

Put colorful, happy things around the house. Do nice things for yourself. Make a list of things that make you happy, like: bread fresh from the oven, the scent of Jergen's cherry almond lotion, the crisp sound of a saltine cracker breaking, fresh sheets on the bed, standing in the boat flicking topwater lures onto the water, etc. Use all your senses & read that list when you are breaking down

Work on time management if you are overwhelmed. Cut back on other responsibilities so you can spend more restorative time with friends & family. Ask for help if depression makes it hard to keep up with chores.

Spend more time with your pet, if you have one. Both of you will appreciate the time.

DON'T listen to sad music! It makes things worse! Listen to upbeat stuff- same with movies & novels.

DISTRACT yourself when you are hurting. Read a novel, watch a comedy, go out with friends, play cards or a video game, whatever is mentally all-consuming. This is VERY helpful in a crisis!!

Volunteer. Helping others makes you feel better about yourself. It also keeps you more involved in the community. Many people find comfort being involved in religion. Get help from your pastor. Some pastors from conservative faiths don't “believe” in mental illness & tell you to just pray more – don't go to such a pastor for “help.”

Put a half-smile on your face. Changing your expression is proven to help change mood.

Fill out a psychiatric advance directive to protect your rights & inform professionals about your care during a crisis. Links to your state's free PAD at bazelon.org.

If suicidal (not just “suicidal ideation,” but you are impulsive or have a plan), find a community hospital with inpatient behavioral health (yellow pages). Don't call 911 unless you have already hurt yourself, because if it is just psych symptoms, the police come & they will take you to the closest place & that could be a horrible state hospital.

Cognitive Behavioral therapy is the most effective kind of counseling. Try free computerized CBT at moodgym.anu.edu.au. Computerized therapy appears to be almost as effective as counseling, research shows. If you have an abuse history, it is likely to be a major cause of your depression.

all the best to you. If this stuff doesn't help enough, you need professional help. You won't be put in a hospital just for feeling suicidal, only if the professional feels that you are likely to actually ATTEMPT it. and it isn't so bad there anyhow - I have been inpatient several times for bipolar disorder. take advantage of counseling while it is available to you in college - it may be harder to access it when you get out of school until you get stable employment.

It is very simple. Pray. Ask GOD for help. Go to your local church services. Let GOD in to your life.