Gain myself back? Can't focus?

Tough question. I have my own set of "issues" that are rather close to yours.

I used to worry about everything. I was the kind of person that set a strict schedule for myself and always followed it. Always early for business meetings and very dependable. In other words, I never let myself down. I've had a bit of a "vacation" in my own life too. And I have learned to relax and just not fret over the small stuff. It's a wonderful feeling to have so much less stress. HOWEVER, I am feeling that I am letting myself down somewhat. I need to get back to the "old me" just like you do.

My only lame advice for you would be to perhaps associate with others that are successful in their studies and in keeping promises to themselves. Maybe join a chess club. Or, you don't have one, start one. Get together with other like-minded people that are good at academics and are trying to excel in life.

Maybe you could right these thoughts down just to get them out on paper. Then look at them for what they are, they are just experiences that you were apart of and can be changed. Limit the things you watch on tv that are distracting, and make better music choices that relaxes your brain. You have to get your focus back, so you can do the things you really love to do.

The more I study religions, the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself.

-- Sir Richard Burton