What do i about my thanksgiving situation?

i usually spend thanksgiving dinner at my father's. my mother and her husband usually go out. him and i do not speak. my sister, niece, and her bf are going to his mother's the morning of, and then to my father's. i am currently without a vehicle, so i have no way to get to my father's. it sort of makes me sad, but on the otherhand i have an overwhelming feeling of relief. we are not a close family by any means. im experiencing problems with my family so i'll probably spend it alone. it's embarassing because my bf goes home for thanksgiving and his family is like picture perfect to mine and i feel ashamed i don't have any connections with my family. any advice and help is appreciated :) thank you