please help i'm 14 years old, and i want to die??? :(?

I am 32 and have felt like you on and off since I hit puberty. It might sound silly but you need to find your own 'God'. I found mine - he's my horse and he has helped me so much that I can't begin to tell you. He was quite difficult to deal with when I got him but slowly I have managed to build a relationship with him and I tell him everything - all that silent strength gives me peace. So I worship him! He has given me a purpose in life and yes, I still have very dark days sometimes BUT he helps me to cope. You need something like that - something that works for you, think about what you like, what makes you even just a little bit happy and explore the possibility of it.

You should also speak to your Dr about the anti d's if they're not working - ask for more help if you need it. You have an illness and you are in pain. If you had broken your leg and needed more pain relief you'd just ask right? Same goes for this.

Your brother is probably only leaving because it hurts him to know that you are in pain and he doesn't know how to help you - your relationship might become stronger for it when you have a little space from each other. My sister wouldn't speak to me through one of my breakdowns - not because she didn't care rather the opposite - she cared so much it hurt her to see me like that.

Keep in touch and let us know how you get on and how you are feeling - write it all down in a book because one day you will be in my shoes and able to offer help and support to someone else because you have been there.

You can always add me on here if you want - so you can talk to someone.

look sweetie i am 19 and felt that way. i couldnt go anywhere talk to any one have, get on a computer, watch over an hour of tv, no new clothes ever, always cleaning and alway got in trouble for things i didnt do good enough when i worked so hard at. i was homeschooled my parents didnt get me a car, my license, and when they told me to get a job i had to give 75% of it to them and i never had allowance. they would complain about having to take me to work or having to work so late but if i didnt have a job they got mad and called me lazy for not having one. when i turned 17 i got married and was going to run away. it sucked and he was abusive. i got divorced when i was 18 and now i am 19 almost 20 and i am with the man of my dreams and think i am prego. u will find someone some day who understands u and that is the bond that only u two can have and no one else can share or compare. i did try to kill myself but my parents never knew because i didnt try to show i really tried but u cant drown urself in a bath lol. u just need encouragement and know most everyone feels there is something that makes them different. u feel like a weight is on ur shoulder like u dont have a life and u have nothing and even if ur fam does love u that it will be too hard for u to have ur dream. i can tell u that this is def not what i seen it was actually what i thought could turn bad in my life and didnt want to take that road and that was online dating and once the guy sees how crazy my fam is then i will leave home at 19. i did and this has been great. to be honest it started out because i came home high and i never thought i would ever smoke i was so against it. i didnt want to be known as a druggie we dont anymore and everything has been such a great adventure everyday we have been together. i was so scared to be with a druggie but he wasnt and everything is wonderful. loosen up on urself and realize that ur fam is crazy lol i am sorry that u dont feel happy. no i didnt graduate or get my GED or work experience but i did get my dream of being a stay at home wife kinda since he is tech my bf. and now i think i am prego which has been my biggest dream now if i only become a singer. u sound a lot like me and even though my fam still thinks i am crazy and i had to step in the world alone i am a better person even if i did lose parts of me on the way. yes the Bible did help me then and just turning up my christian CDs and shut the door and singing loud and crying. i am sure it drove my fam nuts but it helped me emotionally and when the music was on is when i felt close to God like he was there for me. i dont go to church or anything anymore but i have a lot of encouraging friends and if u would like if u have a FB u could add me at nugg3t27@ymail.com i will be here for u to talk to. i hope that helped and know ur not alone :D

Well, there's something positive in your feelings: you are starting getting sick of them. You know, when you are very down the only thing you can do is get up.

I do not know why you are so sad, and I generally do not stand people who does not have anything to be unhappy about but I like you, since you are trying to get out of it. Now, this is a very difficult moment: you are on the lowest bottom of your well, and the light seems so far away...but you must start to climb it up, or you'll die if you'll remain there.

I think that some people here, the ones who had your experience gave you the best advices. I think you should try to go out. I do not know...take a dog, if you can, and start take care of him/her. It helps a lot to have someone who depends on you. You seem a sensible, intelligent girl who simply does not know what to do about her life. Go out. Take a dog, as I told you, and take him out. It's a wonderful excuse to get out of home and a wonderful way to meet people.

I am not a religious person. I do not know what will happen of us when life end, and I feel that this is a gift. If we do not know what happens, we just do not want to end our experience too soon. If I have to die and I do not know what happens, I want to know the happyness I can find here, on Earth. You know, I do not know if you need God or not, but God is often a sort of comforter being that we use when we are in pain. But you are not alone. You have a family who loves you and is trying to do its best to help you. Perhaps they're doing it in the wrong way, hey, they're just humans. But they do love you. And you love them too, and the great thing of love is that you have not to gain it. It simply exists, so do not be afraid of making a bit of pain to your family: they are there for you, and they only want your happyness.

You could also try to work to your local kennel. Animals do not judge you, so I think this could help you for a start. Give it a try.

And well...I think that this experience you are making will get you strong, and you will become a person who really cares for the others. You are experiencing a sort of hell, loneliness, and desperation...and when you'll find someone in need of comfort and a hand you will be there to give him it. Just like the ones who experienced the same things and answered you did to you.

Do not give up. Death will come anyway, so why do not give life a chance?

What ever you do don't die! Yes, I feel that reading the Bible could help you. Plus, maybe a support group for you and family. Maybe check into online about others who suffer the same thing. Look into some more doctor maybe the ones you have aren't trying hard enough. You have to be a fighter to find happiness in life now a days. Don't give up! You are worth it!

You have the exact same symptoms as me, and I'm a 16 year old boy. It sounds like you have depression :( Go to the doctors and ask, they may send you to a specialist, but rarely send you to a hospital. Even if you are then it is just for a week or so :) I was sent to a hospital after craving for attention. I stood up in the middle of my maths class and started slitting my wrists. I was sent to the hospital for a week, and it put me on the right track. I'm not happy now, but I'm much much better. Take control of this before it controls you. Now I rarely have any suicidal thoughts, my last one being tonight, but before that it had been a month. These thoughts occur when you have a "bad day" and take you over. I had the rope around my neck, wrote a message on FaceBook telling her I was killing myself and she rang me and stopped me.

Depression takes over your life, but with a tiny bit of help from those close to you then you wont be feeling like this as much :)

I'm an atheist btw :D

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Im 14 too, I dont know much or anything even about this but i'll tell u what i think...

I can only tell you too find somethinf (even the tinniest thing) to make you happy (if its reading the bible or praying, singing, dancing, reading, whatever) and just try to do that whenever u feel sad or lonley... Try talking to someone about it .. But if you cant just write down a diary with all your feelings, ir maybe even writr songs or something..

I hope i could help :( ... Good luck with everything!!

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Awwwwh you know its people like you who really do deserve sympathy unlike those idiots who pretend there all depressed to get attention and cut thereselves just to "fit it" i know this sounds so stupid but people where i live do that..

Instead of thinking of the negatives maybe think of the positives of your life like you said you have alot to offer the world build on that plan a future take your mind off things if you plan a future you'll soon realise this future can be yours and you don't actually want to die or cut yourself always look forward it could help:)

maybe get some flowers from your garden or a garden centre and put them somewhere in your house you walk past alot and put a nice thought with them something that everytime you look at it you remember this nice thought and it will cheer you up

get a blank piece of paper and stick it up and write a happy quote or a quote about life getting better and it will give you hope and make you feel better, try looking at this at night before you sleep to get you feeling relaxed before bed

and im not religous but sometimes i speak to heaven i dont know who im speaking to whether it being a nana or grandad or family i just speak and pour out everything because ibelieve theres something up there whether that being god or not :) because i think relgions are just a way to classify and speaking to someone who gives you hope shouldn;t be about a religious way others want you to do it like in a church or by praying on mat it should be in a personal way :) i actually find it relaxes me and i also ask for them to take away my bad thoughts and to forgive me for everything ive done :) i dont do this every night just when i feel the need to be comforted:)

maybe buy a rabbit or hamster thats friendly so you can play with it when your sad and talk to it so you feel you are making a difference and making this animal feel better and it should in turn make you feel better too:)

the little things could make a difference and i really hope i have helped you because im 14 myself and am not going to pretend i know what your going through because i dont but i have friends that have and they are amazing and have recovered :)

killing yourself would completely tear your family apart. You have to be strong, for them. I know it is difficult when you are depressed, but the best way to get better is to actually go out. Go for walks etc.

You have to remember that things will get better, you just have to be there to see. I'm sure you used to be a bright and beautiful person, one day you will be that person again. I hope you manage to get yourself out of this, as you will have such a bright future! Your family loves you so much, they are only reacting the way they are because they love you. You do have a future okay! Good luck sweetie xx