Opinions on poem/ flow (Alone in Vegas)?

My memory's fading. Joint rolling, just fading. My life outdistances me, i can feel the heat escalading. The friction between my lifes rollercoaster, feeling theses twists and turns simply lets my mental burn. Leaving my chest to burn, dissipation of time but **** it, there's money to earn. more or less becoming me , stuck under this moving bus heavily. Steadily stumbling slipping into a shallow abyss. Awkwardly swerving past heaven into subpar worship. I'm forever your child but I'm worthless in this church, id rather spend my present manifesting what I'm worth. The shadow of  my antecedent is extinct. The onlooking crowd would  noticed I've changed, metamorphosis makes me. Becoming necessary for those who believe in advancement, keeping my head up looking to the stars now thanks to my dreams enchantment.  Give me a plastic smile and surround me with people who consign to oblivion, dismissive, pretentious, I'm ignorant to an arrogant wish list. But the presence double faults my mind state, loosing myself in me. Each impression dislocates my inclination into quicksand. Like sand on the beach, a resentful paradise between you and me. My eyes can't stop overflowing peering over perfection onto our concoction between love, lust and depths' perception; Take my congenial nature and exile me. Love's death is my never seen from my deceitful position. Still, something keeps me in love with my undiscovered dreams. Alone in Vegas, the world isn't so small it seems.