I had a dream about my rapist?

Okay so I had a dream about the guy who took my virginity, I always thought if I see him screaming profanities is the least of what I'd do, I'd make sure he knew I was angry and knew I hated him and knew he was actually nothing.

But in my dream I was with some friends (3 close ones and one I barely talk to) and we were talking about Roald Dali (I guess my subconscience mixed up Roald Dahl and Salvador Dali) and we sit down, and among other poeple, he's there on the grass with us. He sits me between his legs and puts his arms around me and starts acting as though he owns me again, and I turn all pathetic and submissive. What does this mean?

Also I had a dream like this before, I was being raped but didn't know the rapist this time, and again I surprised myself by not even fighting back